Part 3 (1/2)
”It is good of you to say that,” she replied, ”all the same I am glad I did not spoil your plan, not so much for your sake as my own.”
”How?”
”I would rather die than run away from danger.”
”So you feared danger?”
”No, I did not fear it, but I felt it. I felt a premonition of danger. I did not say so at dinner. I did not want to alarm the others.”
He looked at her curiously for a moment, contrasting her fragility and beauty with the something unbendable that was her spirit, her soul--call it what you will.
”Well,” said he, ”your slightest wish is my law. I have been going to speak to you for the last few days. I will say what I want to say now.
It is only four words. Will you marry me?”
She looked up at him, meeting his eyes full and straight.
”No,” said she, ”it is impossible.”
”Why?”
”I have a very great regard for you--but--”
”You do not love me?”
She said nothing, going on with her work calmly as though the conversation was about some ordinary topic.
”I don't see why you should,” he went on, ”but look around you--how many people marry for love now-a-days--and those who do, are they any the happier? I have seen a very great deal of the world and I know for a fact that happiness in marriage has little to do with what the poets call love and everything to do with companions.h.i.+p. If a man and woman are good companions then they are happy together, if not they are miserable, no matter how much they may love one another at the start.”
”Have you seen much of the world?” she raised her eyes again as she asked the question. ”Have you seen anything really of the world? I do not mean to be rude, but this world of ours, this world of society that holds us all, is there anything real about it, since nearly everything in it is a sham? Look at the lives we lead, look at Paris and London and Berlin. Why the very language of society is framed to say things we do not mean.”
”It is civilization. How else would you have it?”
”I don't know,” she replied, ”but I do know it is not life. It is dishonesty. You say that the only happy married people are those that are good companions, that love does not count in the long run, and you are right, perhaps, as far as what you call the World is concerned. I only repeat that the thing you call the World is not the real world, for love is real, and love is not merely a question of good companions.h.i.+p.
It is an immortal bond between two spirits and death cannot break it.”
”You speak as though you were very certain of a thing which, of all things, is most hidden from us.”
”I speak by instinct.”
”Well,” said the Prince, ”perhaps you are right. We have left behind us the simplicity of the old world, we have become artificial, our life is a sham--but what would you have and how are we to alter it? We are all like pa.s.sengers in a train travelling to heaven knows where; the seats are well cus.h.i.+oned and the dining-car leaves nothing to be desired, but I admit the atmosphere is stuffy and the long journey has developed all sorts of unpleasant traits among the pa.s.sengers--well, what would you do? We cannot get out.”
”I suppose not,” said she.
He rose up and stood for a moment turning over some magazines lying on the table. He had received his answer and he knew instinctively that it was useless to pursue the business further.
Then after a few more words he went on deck. The wind had fallen to a steady blow but the sky was still overcast and the atmosphere was heavy and clammy and not consistent. It was as though the low lying clouds dipped here and there to touch the sea. Every now and then the _Gaston de Paris_ would run into a wreath of fog and pa.s.s through it into the clear darkness of the night beyond.
In the darkness aft of the bridge nothing could be seen but the pale hint of the bridge canvas and a trace of spars and funnels now wiped out with mist, now visible again against the night.