Part 30 (2/2)

”You know?” I asked, and it was a foolish question, for somehow I was sure it knew about the bomb and all the rest of it.

We know, said the elm tree, but there can be no despair.

”No despair?” I asked, aghast.

If we fail this time, it said, we will try again. Another place, perhaps. Or we may have to wait the-what do you call it?

”The radiation,” I said. ”That is what you call it.”

Until, said the purpleness, the radiations leave.

”That will be years,” I said.

We have the years, it said. We have all the time there is. There is no end of us. There is no end of time.

”But there is an end of time for us,” I said, with a gush of pity for all humanity, but mostly for myself. ”There is an end for me.”

Yes, we know, said the purpleness. We feel much sorrow for you.

And now, I knew, was the time to ask for help, to point out that we were in this situation through no choice and no action of our own, and that those who had placed us in it should help to get us out.

But when I tried to say the words, I couldn't make them come. I couldn't admit to this alien thing our complete helplessness.

It was, I suppose, stubbornness and pride. But I had not known until I tried to speak the words that I had the stubborness and pride.

We feel much sorrow for you, the elm tree had said. But what kind of sorrow-a real and sincere sorrow, or the superficial and pedantic sorrow of the immortal for a frail and flickering creature that was about to die?

I would be bone and dust and eventually neither bone nor dust but forgetfulness and clay, and these things would live on and on, forever.

And it would be more important, I knew, for us who would be bone and dust to have a stubborn pride than it would be for a thing of strength and surety. It was the one thing we had, the one thing we could cling to.

A purpleness, I thought, and what was the purpleness? It was not a colour; it was something more than that. It was, perhaps, the odour of immortality, the effluvium of that great uncaring which could not afford to care since anything it cared for could only last a day, while it went on into an eternal future toward other things and other lives for which it could not allow itself to care.

And this was loneliness, I thought, a never-ending and hopeless loneliness such as the human race would never be called upon to face.

Standing there, touching the hard, cold edge of that loneliness, I felt pity stir in me and it seemed strange that one should feel pity for a tree. Although, I knew, it was not the tree nor the purple flowers but the Presence that had walked me home and that was here as well-the same life stuff of which I myself was made-that I felt pity for.

”I am sorry for you, too,” I said, but even as I spoke I knew it would not understand the pity any more than it would have understood the pride if it had known about the pride.

A car came screeching around the curve on the street above the swale and the illumination of its headlights slashed across the greenhouse. I flinched away, but the lights were gone before the flinch had finished.

Somewhere out in the darkness someone was calling me, speaking softly, almost fearfully.

Another car came around the curve, turning fast, its tires howling on the turn. The first car was stopping at my house, skidding on the pavement as the brakes spun it to a halt.

”Brad!” said the soft and fearful voice. ”Are you out there, Brad?”

”Nancy,” I said. ”Nancy, over here.”

There was something wrong, I knew, something terribly wrong. There was a tenseness in her voice, as if she were speaking through a haze of terror. And there was a wrongness, too, about those speeding cars stopping at the house.

”I thought I heard you talking,” Nancy said, ”but I couldn't see you. You weren't in the house and...”

A man was running around the back of the house, a dark shadow outlined briefly by the street lamp at the corner. Out in front were other men; I could hear their running and the angry mumble of them.

”Brad,” said Nancy.

”Hold it,” I cautioned. ”There's something wrong.”

I could see her now. She was stumbling toward me through the darkness.

Up by the house a voice yelled: ”We know you're in there, Carter! We're coming in to get you if you don't come out!”

I turned and ran toward Nancy and caught her in my arms. She was s.h.i.+vering.

”Those men,” she said.

”Hiram and his pals,” I said.

Gla.s.s crashed and a streak of fire went arcing through the night.

”Now, d.a.m.n it,” someone yelled, triumphantly, ”maybe you'll come out.”

”Run,” I said to Nancy. ”Up the hill. Get in among the trees...”

”It's Stiffy,” she whispered back. ”I saw him and he sent me...”

A sudden glow of fire leaped up inside the house. The windows in the dining-room flared like gleaming eyes. And in the light cast by the flame I saw the dark figures gambolling, screaming now in a mindless frenzy.

Nancy turned and ran and I pelted after her, and behind us a voice boomed above the bawling of the mob.

”There he goes!” the voice shouted. ”Down there in the garden!”

Something caught my foot and tripped me and I fell, sprawling among the money bushes. The scraggly branches raked across my face and clawed at my clothes as I struggled to my feet.

A tongue of whipping flame leaped above the house, funnelled through the hole the time machine had punched in the roof, and the windows all were glowing now. In the sudden silence I could hear the sucking roar of fire eating through the structure.

They were running down the slope toward the garden a silent group of men. The pounding of their feet and the ugly gasping of their breath came across the s.p.a.ce between us.

I stooped and ran my hand along the ground and in the darkness found the thing that tripped me. My fingers closed about it and I brought it up, a four foot length of two-by-four, old and beginning to rot along its edges, but still sound in the core.

A club, I thought, and this was the end of it. But one of them would die perhaps two of them while they were killing me.

”Run!” I screamed at Nancy, knowing she was out there somewhere, although I could not see her.

There was just one thing left, I told myself one thing more that I must do. And that was to get Hiram Martin with the club before the mob closed over me.

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