Part 21 (2/2)

”Well if you want to know, Deven, I'm lousy,” David replied acidly. ”I spent the evening torturing an old man. There's a murderer on the loose threatening my Elite and my Queen. She could strike again at any time and I have no idea how to find her or what her endgame is. Not to mention, my wife is barely speaking to me. Your Consort may have instantly forgiven you, but mine isn't so enlightened, or whatever you and Jonathan call your little arrangement.”

”Don't throw all your shame on me, boy. As I recall, there were two of us in that bed, and moreover, you started it.”

”I didn't notice you having any qualms.”

”I'm not saying I did. I'm just saying, don't expect me to shoulder all the guilt here just because Jonathan is older and wiser.”

”Are you trying to imply that-”

”David,” Deven said firmly, brooking no refusal, ”I'm not going to do this again.”

David fell silent, as he always had when Deven-whether his friend, his teacher, his lover, his peer, or his employer-used that tone. He sagged back against the wall of the building. ”You're right. I can't fight the world and you, too.”

”You have to give her time, David,” Deven said, going from angry to sympathetic with remarkable speed, which told David he hadn't really been angry in the first place, only reacting to David's foolish clinging to emotional drama. A simple fact of life that David had discovered in his three hundred fifty years was that in the end, problems weren't resolved with hysterics and screaming fits. They were solved in the night-by-night work of honesty and the glacially slow rebuilding of trust. Up until now he had lived that as a given; he just wasn't the kind of person who displayed emotion. But this whole thing had knocked him so far off center that he had no idea how to react to anything anymore. The mere idea that he'd considered throwing himself off the Winchester like some kind of grief-stricken Gothic widow made him cringe.

”I know . . . I just hate that I've made her so unhappy. She deserves so much better. As a Prime, I can solve problems, put down insurrections, behead lawbreakers . . . as a husband, I'm useless.”

A note of amus.e.m.e.nt entered Deven's voice. ”Last time you were a husband you were still a teenager, and your wife couldn't even vote or pray aloud in church. Not even you can be instantly good at everything.”

”What do I do?” David asked, barely able to hear himself over the rush of the wind.

”Give her what she needs,” he replied. ”s.p.a.ce, time, whatever. Let her come to you when she's ready to deal with you . . . but make sure she always knows you're there for her.”

”There are days I wish she had killed me, Dev. What do I do with that feeling?”

A quiet chuckle. ”You're not a coward, David. You don't run away from your pain.”

”I did last time.”

”This is different,” Deven told him. ”Last time you didn't do anything wrong . . . and perhaps you ran, but only because I drove you away. This time you can't put two time zones between you. You have to fight for Miranda . . . for her sake, for yours . . . and mine.”

Dev couldn't see him making a skeptical face, but David was sure it came across in his voice. ”What good does it do you if we work things out?”

”I have a vested interest in you and your Queen, dear one.”

”Meaning?”

”If you split up, I owe my Second twenty dollars.”

David rolled his eyes. ”You're so full of s.h.i.+t.”

”I'll let that comment slide right by. I have to go . . . the first of those suspects is here cooling her heels in the Elite training room, and I have to go terrify her into talking.”

”All right. Let me know what you find out.”

”I will. I l-” Deven stopped midword and corrected himself with, ”I'll talk to you later.”

David stared at the phone for a minute after he had hung up.

The worst thing-well, one of a hundred worst things in this situation-was that the dam had officially broken. He could no longer pretend, to himself or anyone else, that he didn't still have feelings for Deven that were, to his continued amazement, fully requited. And though he had always prided himself on self-control, he honestly didn't think he and Deven would ever be able to be in the same room without a chaperone. Miranda's trust in him had been shattered, yes, but he no longer trusted himself either.

Emotions simply didn't jump and claim him this way. He had fought long and hard to master his heart . . . yet from the moment Miranda had come into his life, that wall he had built brick by brick had begun to fracture, overgrown by tenacious flowering vines that, with each bloom, cracked him open more and more, and now he couldn't be certain of anything except that somehow, some way, he had to make things right with her.

It was lucky they were immortal. It might very well take eternity at this rate.

His com chimed, and Miranda said, ”We're going to a movie-go ahead and head home, I'll get a ride with Faith later.”

Her voice had exactly the same effect Deven's did . . . no, worse. ”I'll go back with Faith,” he said. ”You keep the car. That way Harlan can take Kat home, too. I have some work to do here in town anyway.”

”All right.”

”Have fun,” he said hopefully, but there was no reply. She was always more terse when she spoke to him in front of Kat; he wondered if the two of them were discussing his sins, Kat tearing him apart with her quick tongue . . . no. Kat wasn't a behind-the-back-b.i.t.c.hing kind of woman. She was direct. She would listen to Miranda and commiserate but wouldn't go out of her way to vilify him.

He hadn't been kidding when he told Kat he liked her or that he appreciated her friends.h.i.+p with Miranda. Without Kat she had no one to talk to right now. Faith had been making overtures, but Miranda needed someone who wasn't directly involved, who had known her as long as Kat had.

He tapped the back of his head against the concrete wall. Enough wallowing for one night. He did have work to do.

He pulled his coat tightly around him, drew in his power, and then allowed the edges of his body to blur, forming the picture of where he wanted to go in his mind and pulling.

He solidified on the ground a block away; he could have Misted right at his destination, but he preferred to limit the distance unless it was an emergency. Misting was useful, kept one's tracks hidden, and tended to impress the h.e.l.l out of people, but it took a lot of power. Before Miranda had come along he had rarely used it, but now that he had a Queen, he could draw on their combined power to restore himself afterward, so it was much less draining. Short trips were still best.

He'd been giving Miranda the basics of the theory behind Misting when they talked in the mornings, and he'd given her a meditation to do to prepare her for it, but it was very dangerous to undertake without a lot of practice and a lot of strength. Her first experience with it had been hard on her, even with Jonathan to guide her. David had heard of Primes accidentally scattering themselves all over the place, which wouldn't kill a vampire any more than a gunshot would, but it took days to drag themselves back together and the burnout factor was astronomical. Prime Al-Bahin was actually missing part of a finger from a botched Mist early in his tenure.

Most of the city's sensors were installed on exterior walls about four feet off the ground, but in areas where the vampire population was especially dense, he had added extra surveillance from above and below, and the device in question was at the top corner of a three-story building. He was going to have to stand on a foot-wide ledge to reach the thing.

Before he got down to business, however, he spoke into his com: ”Star-three.”

”Yes, Sire?”

”Faith, I'm going to need a ride home. Can you meet me at these coordinates when you're off patrol?”

”Absolutely, Sire. I'll see you shortly.”

”Star-one, out.”

David walked down the street without really paying much heed to the city teeming around him. He'd chosen a time and day when the district wouldn't be very busy, and the building he was headed for didn't house a club or bar. It was two stories of apartments over a set of offices, nothing glamorous enough to attract attention. He didn't relish the idea of having an audience, especially because most of the sensors went unnoticed by vampire pa.s.sersby and he wanted to keep it that way.

He glanced around to make sure no one was watching, then Misted again, reappearing thirty feet aboveground perched nimbly on the ledge, letting his instincts take over to balance him. He was probably going to pay for the energy expenditure with a migraine later, but it was worth keeping his work out of sight. The last thing he needed was people sabotaging the sensors.

He reached up to unscrew the sensor from its housing with one hand and reached into his coat with the other, pulling out what amounted to an entirely new computer system for the device.

The sensor itself was about the size of a golf ball, convex like a store security mirror, with a hard black plastic casing. He swapped out its insides in a few seconds with deft hands, removing a small screwdriver from his coat and wiring the new unit into place, stowing the old one to strip for parts when he got home.

Then he accessed the device from his phone and ran the initial calibration routine. It would have to be fine-tuned from the Haven, but it came online without any glitches, which pleased him. He needed as few problems as possible if he was going to upgrade in a few days.

Compared to this system the original sensor network had been a clumsy, buggy mess thrown together out of necessity with little finesse. In July he had switched the entire network to something a bit more sophisticated, and teams in several other cities were installing systems for those areas. Within a year he'd have every major metropolitan area in the South wired and monitored like Austin was. That would make it much easier for the satellite Elite garrisons to keep things under control. Houston, New Orleans, and Atlanta were first.

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