Part 6 (1/2)

Her voice seemed to help him; he rose with a little more courage. His mother was no doubt thinking of her own dancing days, for she sat singing to the sound of the spinning-wheel, while he dressed himself and ate his breakfast. Her humming finally made him rise from the table and go to the window; the same dullness and depression he had felt before took possession of him now, and he was forced to rouse himself, and think of work. The weather had changed, there had come a little frost into the air, so that what yesterday had threatened to fall in rain, to-day came down as sleet. Oyvind put on his snow-socks, a fur cap, his sailor's jacket and mittens, said farewell, and started off, with his axe on his shoulder.

Snow fell slowly, in great, wet flakes; he toiled up over the coasting hill, in order to turn into the forest on the left. Never before, winter or summer, had he climbed this hill without recalling something that made him happy, or to which he was looking forward. Now it was a dull, weary walk. He slipped in the damp snow, his knees were stiff, either from the party yesterday or from his low spirits; he felt that it was all over with the coasting-hill for that year, and with it, forever. He longed for something different as he threaded his way in among the tree-trunks, where the snow fell softly. A frightened ptarmigan screamed and fluttered a few yards away, but everything else stood as if awaiting a word which never was spoken. But what his aspirations were, he did not distinctly know, only they concerned nothing at home, nothing abroad, neither pleasure nor work; but rather something far above, soaring upward like a song. Soon all became concentrated in one defined desire, and this was to be confirmed in the spring, and on that occasion to be number one. His heart beat wildly as he thought of it, and before he could yet hear his father's axe in the quivering little trees, this wish throbbed within him with more intensity than anything he had known in all his life.

His father, as usual, did not have much to say to him; they chopped away together and both dragged the wood into heaps. Now and then they chanced to meet, and on one such occasion Oyvind remarked, in a melancholy tone, ”A houseman has to work very hard.”

”He as well as others,” said the father, as he spit in the palm of his hand and took up the axe again.

When the tree was felled and the father had drawn it up to the pile, Oyvind said,--

”If you were a gardman you would not have to work so hard.”

”Oh! then there would doubtless be other things to distress us,” and he grasped his axe with both hands.

The mother came up with dinner for them; they sat down. The mother was in high spirits, she sat humming and beating time with her feet.

”What are you going to make of yourself when you are grown up, Oyvind?”

said she, suddenly.

”For a houseman's son, there are not many openings,” he replied.

”The school-master says you must go to the seminary,” said she.

”Can people go there free?” inquired Oyvind.

”The school-fund pays,” answered the father, who was eating.

”Would you like to go?” asked the mother.

”I should like to learn something, but not to become a school-master.”

They were all silent for a time. The mother hummed again and gazed before her; but Oyvind went off and sat down by himself.

”We do not actually need to borrow of the school-fund,” said the mother, when the boy was gone.

Her husband looked at her.

”Such poor folks as we?”

”It does not please me, Th.o.r.e, to have you always pa.s.sing yourself off for poor when you are not so.”

They both stole glances down after the boy to find out if he could hear. The father looked sharply at his wife.

”You talk as though you were very wise.”

She laughed.

”It is just the same as not thanking G.o.d that things have prospered with us,” said she, growing serious.

”We can surely thank Him without wearing silver b.u.t.tons,” observed the father.

”Yes, but to let Oyvind go to the dance, dressed as he was yesterday, is not thanking Him either.”