Part 26 (2/2)

Hooper prepared the cart, and still we'd stared at each other across the crowds; murderer and victim locked in one last deathly gaze. She clutched her gown in antic.i.p.ation, fingers twisting and turning the black silk. Black for mourning. Black for death. A black so deep no stains of red would show upon it.

Hooper rolled the cap over my face.

'Wait.'

But it had been too late. My feet slid from the cart and the rope pulled taut.

'I'll kill her. I swear it, Tom. I will f.u.c.king murder her.' Kitty is prowling the room, all thoughts of exile vanished. 'Turn your back,' she snarls at Sam, and throws off her wrapping gown without waiting to see if he has complied. She tugs on her stockings, garters, petticoat, stomacher, then reties her gown. Decent, then as decent as she can be. She catches me watching her and grins. 'Beast.' She hunts for her pistol. It takes her a while to realise I am holding it.

She lunges and I lift it high, out of her reach. There is a short tussle, Kitty pulling on my arm.

'Dangerous,' Sam warns, eyeing the c.o.c.ked and loaded pistol.

I unc.o.c.k it and throw it over to him. He catches it neatly and tips the powder onto the floor.

Kitty paces the room, annoyed. 'You cannot stop me, Tom. Who saved you today? Do you think it was Fate that cut you down from the scaffold still breathing? Or G.o.d?'

'No-'

'No indeed. We saved you. Me and Sam. If he hadn't come to me last night and d'you know he had to steal his way in to avoid Alice and Neala . . .'

'He enjoys stealing into places.'

Sam shrugs. This is true.

'How can you jest?' Kitty cries, fresh tears springing in her eyes. 'They let you hang, Tom. They let you hang.'

'We must find a way to make Judith confess,' I persist. 'She is the only one who can prove my innocence. She can't very well do that if you shoot her first.'

Kitty wipes her eyes. 'She let them arrest you in her place. She lied under oath in court. She sat in her room swigging poppy juice while I sobbed my heart out every night for you. Six weeks. And she never thought to speak out. She murdered her father and she let you hang for it. She will never confess, Tom.'

'Perhaps. But I must try.'

Chapter Twenty-Three.

Midnight on Phoenix Street and the city was alive, pulsing with revellers celebrating my death. It had been a good dying. I had shown pluck and a certain swagger at the end. That was something to admire, especially here in St Giles.

I stood with Sam, s.h.i.+elded behind a wall, waiting for a sprawling crowd to pa.s.s. His father was holding a vigil for me at home with all his gang. I'd kept my word and held my tongue the greatest virtue among thieves. They honoured me tonight, now that I was safely dead. Sam had slipped away while they drank and sang and raised toast after toast to Mr Hawkins. They did not know that Sam had not killed Burden. How disappointed they would all be in him.

A few revellers straggled into a gin shop. When it was quiet enough, we stepped out into the street.

The night was mild and damp, a light rain misting the air. Sam had brought me fresh clothes to replace my suit of blue velvet we had sent that to Hooper the hangman. A fair price for saving my life, I thought along with whatever else Kitty had paid him. I had cost her a great deal these past weeks. I pulled the collar of my greatcoat around my ears.

'They won't see you.'

I understood. People only see what they expect to see, and no one expected to see a dead man strolling about the town. But still, I preferred to keep my head down and my collar up. I bent my neck low and felt the bruise around my throat, where the rope had cut deep. For a moment, I couldn't breathe.

Sam held out a torch coated in thick black pitch. I took the tinderbox from my coat pocket and struck the flint, bright sparks flying from the stone. The torch caught fire and Sam raised it high. And of a sudden he was that young boy I'd met last September. The boy who promised to light me home and instead led me into darkness.

'Well, look at you, Sam. A moon-curser once more.'

He smiled a true, broad smile. 'No, sir. Not tonight. Tonight I'll see you home.'

On Long Acre, the pavements were covered in broken gla.s.s, sodden broadsheets, and the occasional drunk. I almost tripped over an old watchman, dead to the world and snoring, his lantern burned out. It was always the same the night after a hanging. Tomorrow he would stumble into a coffeehouse, clutching his head and cursing my name.

In the Garden, a few wh.o.r.es limped beneath the arches, clutching themselves for warmth and looking for a fresh customer. Most were busy, on their backs in their meagre rooms, or pushed up against a wall in a back alley. Men needed to f.u.c.k after a hanging, to feel the blood pumping in their veins.

At Moll's place, light glowed in the windows. Moll's voice carried across the piazza, sweet and sad. A song of mourning.

'Holding a wake for you,' Sam said.

So, this was how it felt to be a ghost. Some part of me yearned to draw near. Was Betty there, and did she grieve for me? She must have known the pardon would never come, even as she promised it. Her visit had ensured my silence between the trial and the hanging.

Betrayal. Well. I had felt that sting before. I pulled my hat low and kept my eyes on the cobbles.

We were home soon enough. Home. My heart rose. I had not dared to dream of coming home again. I tapped softly on the door and it swung free at once, Kitty waiting anxiously behind it. She had hurried back from St Giles under Sam's protection hours before, to prepare and to keep a close eye upon next door. She kissed me in silent welcome as Sam extinguished the torch, grinding it into the iron snuffer fixed to the wall outside.

'Alice is asleep in Jenny's old room,' she whispered. 'Neala's in the kitchen. I slipped a draught in her beer. She sleeps light.'

Alice and Neala had kept Kitty company throughout my imprisonment, Neala standing guard through the nights. There had been threats from some of the neighbours, convinced that Kitty had been involved in the murder. Neala had kept them away. Felblade had spoken out for her too, it seemed. Strange to discover true friends in such times and in such unexpected quarters. I was grateful to them all and did not want them tangled up in tonight's plan. Safer for them to think me dead, maybe for ever. Whatever happened tonight, I had not yet decided what should follow. There was, after all, a freedom in being dead. It could be a welcome chance to begin afresh, with a new name and none of the old ties I'd allowed to bind me. The thought of not being in the service of the queen, or James Fleet of answering to no one but myself . . . Well, it had its appeal.

Kitty grinned, excited by the fresh drama. Perhaps I should have slipped opiates in her beer. No, no. I had learned my lesson. I had chosen Kitty and she had chosen me. For good or ill, we would face our troubles together.

We tiptoed up the stairs, paying mind to every loose board. When we reached Sam's room, I took out the pistol and handed it to Kitty. 'It's not loaded.'

She scowled, then turned it around in her hand, testing its weight in her palm. Mollified, she tilted her chin towards the secret door, hidden behind the hanging with its white cherry tree design.

Kitty went first, followed by Sam. I stood alone for a few seconds, the candle flickering in my hand, then plunged through to the other side.

Burden's house was very still. Kitty had been studying the household these past weeks, while I languished in my cell. Judith hadn't replaced Alice perhaps she could not find anyone to join such a cursed household. No one had visited, either, save for one very stern lawyer who came almost every day, clutching a fat bundle of papers. Rumour was the business was in trouble. Even Mrs Jenkins had been banished since she'd served her purpose at the trial. It had left her suspicious, the way she had been used and discarded and her sharp eye noticed things she had missed before. One of her customers had seen Ned visiting the Carpenters' Company. 'Asking for charity,' she'd guessed, and that guess had been trans.m.u.ted into fact about the Garden.

I took the candle and examined the gowns hanging in the cabinet, running my hands over the flounces and pleats. They smelled of campion. The heavy black mourning gown was missing.

On the day I searched the house, Judith had dressed herself in that gown. She had thrown a heavy lace shawl over her head that fell all the way to her waist. She had pinned it carefully with an ebony brooch, to cover the fabric beneath. Her appearance had struck me as strange and affected even at the time. Why not order a new gown, or have the older one tailored to a modern cut? No one would have expected her to be in full mourning dress so soon. I'd thought it a sign of her grief, or an unbalanced mind. I had pitied Judith then. I had thought her weak.

And so I had searched every corner of the house looking for bloodstained clothes, while Judith had sat primly in the drawing room, wearing the same dress she'd worn when she killed her father. Smiling on the inside while I searched like a fool for what was right in front of my eyes.

Clever, wicked girl.

Down on the next landing we paused, each drawing strength from the other. The plan we had agreed to on Phoenix Street had seemed simple enough. Kitty and I would coax the truth from Judith. Sam would stand watch. And we must be quiet. Ned would be sleeping downstairs in the workshop, Stephen across the landing in his father's old room. If either woke we were all in trouble.

'No blood,' I whispered, for the hundredth time. I would not have another death on my conscience. Kitty and Sam exchanged guarded looks. I had the distinct impression they had agreed something rather different, out of my hearing. 'Swear it.'

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