Part 3 (1/2)

I already knew that sixteen was the cutoff. No more Family Court for me. No more rehabilitation bulls.h.i.+t, no more counseling, no more GED cla.s.ses. Prison.

I knew I'd have to go sooner or later if I wanted the right people to see me, so I was just as glad to get it over with.

Back then, on the Rock, they'd separate the young guys from the older ones. That was supposed to keep us safe from ”predators.” I wondered if anyone actually believed that stuff.

But it wasn't bad at all. n.o.body was going to be there long enough to worry about pulling me into their crew. And I had enough juvie time to send out the right signal: I'm not going to gorilla anybody into anything, and I don't have anything you want, either. But if you come at me, it's going to cost you something.

I was there a few weeks. It wasn't until I got Upstate that I found out how that Legal Aid had screwed me over.

”What was the big deal about getting a YO?” the writ-writer asked me. I knew I couldn't appeal behind my guilty plea, but I really wanted that YO, and I heard I could appeal not getting that that part. part.

I was surprised when he said that. Everyone said he was smarter than any lawyer. He was in for double-life, but he'd gotten all kinds of other guys out, 'cause he knew the law so good. Spent every day in the law library they had up there, like it was his office. Had guys bringing him coffee, sandwiches, whatever he wanted.

He read the look on my face. ”Don't you get it, son? Far as the judge was concerned, you were a first offender, right?”

”I...guess so.”

”What I'm saying, you had a long juvenile record, but this was your first adult bust, right?”

”Right.”

”And every time you copped to one of those kiddie crimes, didn't your lawyer say a juvenile record doesn't mean anything, because it all gets sealed?”

”Yeah.”

”Yeah? Do the math. The judge on your case, he knew all about your priors. As a juvie, I'm saying.”

”But if they-”

”It's pure bulls.h.i.+t,” the writ-writer told me. ”'Sealed,' all that means is they can't put it in the newspapers. They even changed that law back in '78, but that's only for homicides. And you didn't have ...?”

”No.”

”Yeah. So, like I said, the public can't see your record. But the cops can. And they can pa.s.s that along to the ADA. And the ADA can pa.s.s that along to the judge. Just psst-psst psst-psst, see? Nothing on paper. That YO you want me to appeal for? Even if you won, it wouldn't be worth the paper it was typed on.”

”It's three crates, right?”

”I just told you-”

”Three crates to talk to you, that's what they said.”

”Yeah. That's my consultation fee.”

”I'll have it for you as soon as-”

”Forget it,” the old con said.

”I don't take favors,” I told him.

He looked up at me. ”You're just dumb about some some things, huh?” things, huh?”

I didn't know what to say to that. But I paid him, just like I said I would.

I didn't just learn things that first time in; I earned earned some things, too. That's when people started calling me Sugar. some things, too. That's when people started calling me Sugar.

Inside, color counts, but it's not like one race against another. I mean, it is, but there's lots of splitting even inside inside the colors. Like Puerto Ricans and Cubans, they're both Spanish, right? But they didn't mix. The PRs were mostly born here, but all the Cubans I ever saw, they got s.h.i.+pped in. the colors. Like Puerto Ricans and Cubans, they're both Spanish, right? But they didn't mix. The PRs were mostly born here, but all the Cubans I ever saw, they got s.h.i.+pped in. Marielitos Marielitos, the PRs called them. I didn't know what that meant, but I knew it wasn't no compliment.

The yard was divided up into what they called ”courts.” You couldn't step onto any crew's court without their permission, and the strongest crews claimed the best spots.

I was raised in a city where just being caught in the wrong neighborhood could get you seriously f.u.c.ked up, so it kind of made sense to me. Besides, there was what they called the DMZ, places where anyone could go.

But even there you had to be on the watch. Like the weights. They'd have them out in the yard for anyone to use, and no crew ever tried to claim them. But they claimed the time time to use them. So it wasn't just the yard that was divided up, it was everything to use them. So it wasn't just the yard that was divided up, it was everything in in the yard, too. the yard, too.

That was the part I didn't know. And that was how I got my name. I was doing one-handed curls when the Muslims sent some guys over to talk to me. I saw them coming, so I was already slugging by the time they landed.

Lucky for me, they weren't carrying. I think seeing me with the weights was such a surprise that they didn't plan anything, just rushed me.

Everybody saw it, but n.o.body did anything. They just watched. Even the guards.

When they finally broke it up, they could see n.o.body was cut, so everyone got tickets for fighting. I got thirty days; I don't know what the Muslims got.

I know they got visits, though. Even in the bing, if you had religion, you could always get to see someone. Like me, I was down as Catholic, so the guards asked me if I wanted to see a priest. The Muslims, they were a religion, so there was this-I don't know what to call him-he came around every day.

One day, he stopped by my cell. He was wearing one of those little round hats. I went over to the bars, carrying a towel wrapped around my hand in case he was there to stick me. I had had to come to the bars, or they'd think I was weak. to come to the bars, or they'd think I was weak.

He had a strong, calm voice. Kind of talked all around what he had to say, but what it came down to was that the Muslims had no beef with me. They got it that I didn't know the rules about what times you could use the weights. And they also knew I'd told the DC-the Disciplinary Committee-that I couldn't tell them who else was in the fight. It all happened so sudden, I didn't even remember what color the other guys were.

It's kind of complicated, but it wasn't like the Muslims were giving me a pa.s.s if I ever did it again, just saying I didn't need to look over my shoulder when I unlocked.

I didn't believe him, but it turned out he was telling the truth.

A few months later, I still didn't have a crew, but there was some guys I was all right with. I hung with them when they lifted. We spotted for each other-and not just on the weights. I was on my way over to them one day, just pa.s.sing by this little court, when I heard something in Spanish. I figured it was about me, but I didn't want to challenge anyone without making sure I had to.

One of the guys I worked out with, his girlfriend was Latina. The first time he told me that, I thought that was her name, Latina. But I'm never dumb on the same thing twice.

Eddie was a real short guy, but he had huge arms and a big chest from pumping every day. Sitting down, he looked bigger than me. When I first came in, he could out-bench me, too. Not by the time I left, though.

Everybody liked Eddie, even the guards. He was always joking around, playing cards, goofing off. Had a smile for everyone. And he could tell some great great stories-he only took vacations from jail to get some new material, is what he said. stories-he only took vacations from jail to get some new material, is what he said.

One of the things that made his stories so good was how he could make his voice sound like other people's. He used that trick even when he wasn't telling stories, just to stop other guys from getting...depressed, or whatever you want to call it.

I remember when Reno came over to talk to us. Well, to me, really. Reno was deep into that White Power stuff, and Eddie had tipped me they'd be coming around. ”You look like a recruiting poster for some Aryan army, kid. Blond/blue, big and buffed. All you need is some ink.”

I'd told Eddie that I didn't want anything to do with that crew. All that political stuff sounded weird to me. ”What does a thief need with politics?” I asked him.

”That's a good one,” he said, like I just told a great joke.