Chapter 2 (2/2)
After gathering ree Indeed, before I had remembered my previous life, the boy Doyle was connected by the love of the people around him and love them as well But, at the same time, he had found it difficult to live up to that love and started to cause problems He are of this but it did not stop the noose fro around his neck He are that it would eventually lead to a situation quite like this
So, here I stand, and even though I are of that love and kindness, I had always felt or thought that maybe if I did not live up to these expectations I would lose it all Even though I understood, I still had to live up to the narandson of the Hero of the Holy Lance], [son of the Hero of the Holy Lance and Slayer of the Demon Lord ], [son of the Goddess chosen Saint ], and all these names created an immense pressure on me
I became a coanted to run away fro to respond even once to the expectations that were placed on me I did not even try to discuss it with my family to ask if they truly wanted this for aveme down
So I ran away by doing stupid things, bullying people and harassing them I ran away to avoid the love, to avoid the expectations and to avoid these titles My heart eak, and this caused ht as darkness and try to avoid it, try to run away from it This weakness in ht would abandon me and caused me to be feeble minded I will not deny that my heart eak and my oeakness caused me to take these actions
First of all, the preinal one, is quite better than I make it sound above, but it is not on the level you would say it is a cheat I am the Hero and Saint’s child I have a face with purple eyes and pale blond hair and a well built body My e but my parents have said that it is deep within my body My heroes in life are, and alill be, my parents, and I have never ever doubted them to be victorious in life
My acadeood, if I do say so myself, I am always ranked in the top 10, and e
My ability with a spear is good enough to pass, but when it is co an ant to a honey badger Many people have whispered about this fact, and I am also aware of it
I would like to h , my performance with a spear is in the enetics and my effort to train with it
After all, I have no talent for the spear, despite being the third generation of a line of heroic spear users I had learned a trick to get better with the spear fro adventurer, but I will leave that story for another ti
I think you should understand about the world I live in now after saying things like heroes, saints and last but not least, deic, there are elves, dwarves, beast ons and spirits
This is a fantasy world straight out of a ical powers, protections, skills and all that sort of things
And, even though this world sounds like a fantasy, life and death have the saers and opportunities, and you et the chance to become a hero or be chosen as a saint by the Goddess As heroes and saints, you ions that want you There is also the de my father and mother had slayed, which is a ical power out of the earth and causes a trance-like drug induced feeling, cannibalis only a person exceeding level 100 could beat
Furtheric have their own aptitude The level of the aptitude will not change no matter how much effort you put in or level that you have That is why nobles try to find people with high aptitude in skills, and they spend enormous amounts of money to raise the advantage in life, and finding out as soon as possible is even better
Well in my case I was lucky to meet that adventurer who told me about my aptitude, but I also despaired when he told me about my aptitude with the spear
The fact that I had no aptitude for the spear was thein my life I had also hoped that I had an aptitude for recovery ic, and even that was null and void
According to the word of the adventurer, the weapon I have the s like katanas and rapiers which specialize in speed and fastthis matter, I believe it is due to the fact that I did kendo in my previous life Apparently it is at a level where in one year I will learn everything there is to know about the sword
My ical aptitude is not fire or thunder, but water and wind, also at a genius level He said that if I practice ic power, I will be a person who leaves his name in history
If I had listened to the adventurer and practiced with a sword and learned water and wind ic I could have avoided all this mess But I could not accept that reality and payed the adventurer to keep silent and practiced ht without any gain
The results of my ten years were exactly as that person had said, I was better than the average person with a spear and was only little better than an average person at ic Many people were disappointed with my performance and then I ran away from reality
“…How truly foolish, right?” (Doyle)
Now that I look back on it, I was truly foolish, and very stupid for doing this I had gained such an opportunity to be aware of my aptitude, but due to my pride I insisted on the spear and wasted an entire decade of my life
How foolish, but I can only think like this because I rerown much more mentally in that one second than in an entire decade I spentthat I could not obtain
You ood that I remember now
I as When I think of the future, I can only sigh, and whether it is due toon ree, accept my aptitude results
Fortunately, the entrance cere an adult are teeks away, and due to my collapse, the decision to replace randfather, who had learned of my collapse, had postponed the decision due to it
I used randfather and my parents, and he told them to let me rest well and continue to be in bed until I fully recover This skill is called whispering of the wind and is it very convenient
“I am quite loved, aren’t I?” (Doyle)
Now that I think about it, , can disownfor ested this, so it would probably mean that he cares for me
If I was to give a reason as to why ht now, it would be that I want to give back to those who love me
The skills I currently have froic are very useful and overpowered My skills inddistance conversations and pick up even the faintest sounds
In regards to my sword skills, there is one with the Iai stance where, if I use it on a person within about two meters, I will hit theis now but a memory
If I hadn’t been so stubborn with the spear and er than randfather combined
Also, my rebellious phase did not make this situation any better
“Anyway, I ahinis, but I want to keep everything else that is ht now” (Doyle)
Well to su, I died ina truck and have now re, I do not want to die in this life, I think it would be good to inherit the household but if I cannot do it, then that is also fine
I, like in my previous life, do not want a leadershi+p role or want to be at the center, all I want is to live with my parents, and help those who believe in me and follow me And if all of this comes true, then I hope to find someone in my life ill love me, the same way my parents love each other
This had beenthe Hero of the Holy Lance ever since I was small, but if I wanted to be a hero and be rewarded for it, I did not need the spear
I a hard and ruinedBut now that I have, I will try to live seriously and s and that itself will break the death flag
“… Although I do not have ive a shot at the entrance ceremony” (Doyle)
My last wish, before re, was to pass the entrance ceremony, and this I will try my best to make it come true The examiner for the entrance ceremony is the first prince, and he took this role fro his power as the crown princeThus Lute was de the leader of the ceremony
In the near future, the person who is the leader of the cere an adult and the entrance ceree role in the country I, who have caused so many problems, am not fit for this role but Lute was It is a very honorable role to have and obtain
Although it is tradition to have the original person do this role, but at the same time it is an opportunity to turn my life around in one shot If I arab this opportunity, and have Lute eat my dust
“I will someday return the favour Lute”
After I had said this line, I felt really sleepy, so I went back into e to sleep got stronger and I let it take over I had a last thought though, how many people have seriously reflected their entire life teeks before the ceremony I wonder?