Part 14 (1/2)
Rather than cry, she managed a nod of thanks. ”Now you know my story.”
”And you know mine. And, I have to say, we are two strong chicks.” Erin smiled. ”We're survivors, Elise. Two f.u.c.king thumbs up for surviving.”
”Amen, sister.”
”You should share this with Brody. When you're ready, of course. He cares about you.”
Elise nodded. ”I know. I'm just . . . ashamed. Ashamed that I've made so many mistakes. It's vain, I know. But I don't want him to think less of me.”
”Why would he? It's a horrible thing, but you're not at fault here. You didn't do any of this. You reacted reacted to a host of things to survive. To save your kid. You did the right thing, Elise.” to a host of things to survive. To save your kid. You did the right thing, Elise.”
”I have failed a lot of people. I'm not enough, never enough. Couldn't save my brother and I murdered the father of my child. I dance well and, all things considered, I'm a good enough mother. But I'm a f.u.c.king washed-up failure at most of life, Erin. You're a survivor. You're strong and capable. I spend too much time reacting and pus.h.i.+ng away my anger and resentment. I'm not good. I'm not strong. I'm just hanging on because Rennie needs it.”
”Shut up. Seriously, girl, shut the f.u.c.k up. Hanging on? Coming out here and starting your life over. Doing it in a way that enables you to be with your kid while still doing what you love, that's not 'just hanging on.' Can you really not see how strong you are? How successful and accomplished? How hard you work to make a better life for yourself and Rennie?”
”I just don't see it that way. But thanks for saying it anyway.”
16.
Erin had grown very close to Elise over the last eight months, and hearing that story at long last was illuminating. She knew there was tragedy, but the whole of it was huge. Brody had lucked out with this woman. She'd be a real partner when they both just finally admitted they were in love with each other.
Her brother was beyond smitten. In fact, she'd seen him smitten dozens of times. Brody was always smitten with women. He loved them, treated them well, had s.e.x with them, and moved on in a few months.
But Erin had never seen him look at anyone the way he looked at Elise. The way he gentled around her. He came alive when he spoke of her or to her. And he adored Rennie. Her brother was quite convinced falling in love meant being responsible responsible for someone else. And in a way, he was right. But it was that you for someone else. And in a way, he was right. But it was that you wanted wanted to be, not that you to be, not that you had had to be. to be.
And in the end, that's why she wanted to have a baby with Ben and Todd. She wanted to have family with them on a whole new level. She wanted to anchor herself with people she cared about.
She unlocked her front door and put her coat in the closet and her bag on the table. Moments later she heard the groan and she ran hot, knowing just exactly what that sound meant. She undressed quickly and quietly, then headed up to the master bedroom and stopped at the entrance.
On the bed, Ben and Todd rolled, the sheets tangled through legs, as mouths clashed and bodies thrust against each other. Her heart sped. Both men were so strong and big. She knew the feel of those hands on her skin, of those tongues against her own and in other places too. Knew the taste of each, his own unique flavor.
Individually they were enough to make her weak in the knees; together, they brought her to them. She stood still and quiet, holding in a gasp of pleasure at the sight of Todd grabbing Ben's hair, yanking him closer. Ben moaned, deep and taut. Erin barely managed to keep rooted to the spot and to not start masturbating as she watched.
The kiss broke and the hand in Ben's hair shoved his head down. Down to Todd's c.o.c.k. G.o.d, how beautiful were they there? She swallowed hard, watching as Ben grabbed Todd's c.o.c.k, harder than she ever did, angling it to his mouth and sucking it inside.
”f.u.c.k, f.u.c.k, f.u.c.k, f.u.c.k,” Todd whispered harshly as Erin dragged in breath. ”That's it, suck me harder, take more of me.”
Todd was a naturally dominant man-s.e.xually too. Normally he and Ben both topped Erin, but watching Todd top Ben was on her list of very favorite things in the world. Men touched each other differently, with more surety, with more edge and strength. She loved to watch them together.
The light in the room was low, but the bedside lamps were both on, casting a golden glow against all that hard, male skin as Ben's mouth moved up and down on Todd's c.o.c.k. Each deep suck he gave tugged within Erin; her c.l.i.t bloomed, the scent of her own arousal met her nose, and that's when Ben's eyes opened and he met her gaze.
He licked the head after pulling off, and Erin caught her bottom lip between her teeth, still not moving.
Todd's eyes remained closed. ”You going to join us, beautiful, or do you plan to watch like a perv in the doorway?”
She grinned and moved into the room. ”You knew I was here the whole time?”
”You yelled that you were home when you came in. We might be h.o.r.n.y, but we're not deaf.” Todd reached up and grabbed her, pulling her down to the bed, and she found herself wedged between two very aroused men. Score Score.
”Ben, get back to my c.o.c.k.”
Ben pressed a kiss on her lips, and then on her hip, before he settled between Todd's thighs and began to suck him off again.
Erin couldn't take her eyes from it. So Todd sat up. ”His mouth feels so good,” Todd whispered in her ear. She turned her head and he kissed her, hard, possessive. The way he always kissed her, like she was as necessary to him as breathing.
His hands slid around her waist, pulling her close. She swallowed a deep groan, broke the kiss and looked down to watch him flex his hips, f.u.c.king into Ben's mouth.
Erin moved so that she was behind Todd, pressing her b.r.e.a.s.t.s to his back as she dragged her nails down his chest, over his nipples, bringing a hiss from him. He leaned his head back onto her shoulder.
”I'm gonna blow. Take it all,” Todd said, his body leaning against hers while his hands held Ben's head, fingers sifting through his hair.
She let all her breath out as Todd's body totally relaxed and Ben sat up, that smile of his on his face as he looked toward them.
”C'mere, you. I'm dying to get inside you.”
She kissed Todd's shoulder and went to Ben, into his arms, the heat of his skin enveloping her.
”I see we share common goals.” Sliding her body against his, loving the friction, she kissed him, tasting Todd when she swiped her tongue along the seam of his lips and then inside.
He sucked her tongue and then broke off to kiss her jawline, down her neck and to her nipples, tugging hard on each ring there, just the way she liked it.
”Let me taste her before you f.u.c.k her.” Todd rolled toward them.
”Greedy b.a.s.t.a.r.d. You just came,” Ben teased.
”When it comes to eating Erin's c.u.n.t, I'm most definitely greedy. I'm just going to make her come and then you can f.u.c.k her.”
Before Ben could argue, Todd pressed her thighs up and then out, exposing her totally, before falling on her, devouring her.
One of her hands held Ben to her and her other held Todd. ”Oh, yes. That's sooooo good.” Pleasure sparked through her from nipples to c.l.i.t.
Todd wasted no time; he drove her up hard and fast, his mouth on her punis.h.i.+ng in the press to bring climax. The edge of Ben's teeth sc.r.a.ped against her nipples just right. She drowned in them, until all those sparks united and exploded.
She cried out, her back bowed, and climax rushed through her; and before she stopped coming, Ben had moved Todd out of the way. He knelt and brought her up where he needed her, his c.o.c.k pressing against her entrance as he slid home in one thrust.
”d.a.m.n, nothing feels as good as this,” Ben moaned as he began to f.u.c.k into her body.
Todd rolled to his knees, kissed Ben and turned his attention to her nipples. The man had a serious thing for her nipples and the jewelry she wore in her piercings. Many of the rings and bars were those he'd given her.
”Mmm, been thinking about these all day long. Had to rub one out earlier, and then of course Ben helped me just now. But now my day is complete, now that you're home too.” He tongued around the rings bearing heavy beads. Beads he'd added that morning because it had pleased him to know they'd make her h.o.r.n.y all day long. Pleased him to know he'd be easing all that pent-up desire when she came home. The man was fabulously diabolical that way.
She laughed. ”We had s.e.x before I went to the cafe this morning; it's not as if you haven't had it in weeks.”
He gave her nipple a sharp bite, just on the right side of the pleasure/pain divide. ”There's never enough of you.”