Chapter 890 - Have You Recovered Already? (2/2)

Zhou Yao’s dark moving eyes had a crack appear in them. It was just like a broken net. She was so quiet right now. Was she just so sure that he would not bear to do so?

He really did not bear to do so.

Her neck was in his hands. As long as he used strength, she would die, but he did not dare to do so. Every time his hands exerted strength, his heart would ache even more.

He never knew that love would be so painful and torturing.

He had a smile on his face as he took his hand back. He stretched his tongue out to lick his dry lips, and he mocked himself as he said, “The moment I opened my eyes, I was searching for you, but all of them said that you did not come. For eight whole days, you did not come to visit me for a single moment at all.”

Leng Zhiyuan held her neck as she took a few steps back. She went far away from him, and she turned her body around and allowed her tears to fall down from the corners of her eyes.

“I did not believe what all of them said. I pulled the IV drip in my hand out to look for you. I ran down from the sixth floor, fifth floor, fourth floor, third floor, second floor, first floor. I searched every single floor, and I thought that you must have hidden in some corner to watch me secretly. The people that passed by all looked at me as they commented about me behind my back. They said that I was a madman…

“I think that I was really mad. It was you who personally pushed me away. Till today, I still remember how you went out of the door without turning your head back at all that night. You were so firm. I am just fooling others and myself. Why was I still thinking that you would come over to visit me?

“Hah, when I ran out of the main lobby of the hospital and stood outside, there was a gust of cold wind that blew over. At that time, I really awoke. You really did not come over.

“I still do not understand why you could be so cruel. You know what it means for me when Han Xuan is the one saving me, but you still pushed me away. I just want to ask you today: why? What is the exact reason?”

Leng Zhiyuan stretched her hand out to wipe the tears on her face. Was it like this? He looked for her like that when he opened his eyes?

She could imagine that scene, where he was wearing a blue and white striped hospital gown. His face was all pale and worried as he searched for her in the midst of others, and he was really so silly.

“That day inside jail, I said that it is nothing much to die, but it was the most scary thing for two hearts to be separated. I can take anything, but when I looked on as you were tortured by the illness time and time again, I realized that I was not as strong as I imagined…”

“I was very afraid. I was afraid the moment I pushed the door, the first thing that I would see would be you lying in the pool of blood with your eyes closed… I was very afraid. I was afraid that I would see Grandpa, Dad, and Mum get older and older, with the white haired people sending the black haired people off. If that day really came, how would you expect them to shoulder all of this? I was more afraid when I saw Older Brother and Xiao Tao coming over, and they were all forcing smiles on their faces. They were obviously sending you on your final journey, but all of them were unable to say anything…

“Slowly, I started to be scared of many things. Those few days, I would have nightmares every night. I was sleeping by your side, but I would wake up frequently to use my index finger to check your breathing…

“It was only until then that I understood, living was the most important thing. When you are alive, only then would there be hope…”

“So you pushed me over to Han Xuan?” Zhou Yao interrupted her.

Leng Zhiyuan turned her head back to look at him, as she said, “Zhou Yao, actually…there is nothing bad about Han Xuan. If you had not met me, you would definitely have gotten together with Han Xuan… Think about it, if I were not here, you were poisoned, and Han Xuan could also save you, you would definitely have accepted her help… Zhou Yao, there is nothing wrong about making do with it. Treat it just as…you have never met me before…”

Zhou Yao’s eyes were staring at her firmly. He stretched his finger out to point at her as he said, “You are totally spouting nonsense right now. Are you me? Why are you so firm that I would get together with Han Xuan eventually? What do you mean by making do? I, Zhou Yao, never settled for these words in my life before!”

After he was done bellowing out at her, Leng Zhiyuan also became silent. She turned around and looked over at the balcony in front of her. Her vision started to blur. She stretched her hand out to cover her mouth and was unwilling to let out a sound as she cried.

It was too late to say anything right now. The ending was already fated to be like this.