Part 21 (1/2)
Ethne laughed again, and very happily.
”Did he tell you of a fourth white feather?” she asked.
”No.”
”I shall tell you the truth,” she said, as she resumed her seat. ”The plan was of his devising from first to last. Nor did I encourage him to its execution. For until to-day I never heard a word of it. Since the night of that dance in Donegal I have had no message from Mr. Feversham, and no news of him. I told him to take up those three feathers because they were his, and I wished to show him that I agreed with the accusations of which they were the symbols. That seems cruel? But I did more. I snapped a fourth white feather from my fan and gave him that to carry away too. It is only fair that you should know. I wanted to make an end for ever and ever, not only of my acquaintances.h.i.+p with him, but of every kindly thought he might keep of me, of every kindly thought I might keep of him. I wanted to be sure myself, and I wanted him to be sure, that we should always be strangers now and--and afterwards,” and the last words she spoke in a whisper. Captain Willoughby did not understand what she meant by them. It is possible that only Lieutenant Sutch and Harry Feversham himself would have understood.
”I was sad and sorry enough when I had done it,” she resumed. ”Indeed, indeed, I think I have always been sorry since. I think that I have never at any minute during these five years quite forgotten that fourth white feather and the quiet air of dignity with which he took it. But to-day I am glad.” And her voice, though low, rang rich with the fulness of her pride. ”Oh, very glad! For this was his thought, his deed. They are both all his, as I would have them be. I had no share, and of that I am very proud. He needed no woman's faith, no woman's encouragement.”
”Yet he sent this back to you,” said Willoughby, pointing in some perplexity to the feather which Ethne held.
”Yes,” she said, ”yes. He knew that I should be glad to know.” And suddenly she held it close to her breast. Thus she sat for a while with her eyes s.h.i.+ning, until Willoughby rose to his feet and pointed to the gap in the hedge by which they had entered the enclosure.
”By Jove! Jack Durrance,” he exclaimed.
Durrance was standing in the gap, which was the only means of entering or going out.
CHAPTER XVI
CAPTAIN WILLOUGHBY RETIRES
Ethne had entirely forgotten even Colonel Durrance's existence. From the moment when Captain Willoughby had put that little soiled feather which had once been white, and was now yellow, into her hand, she had had no thought for any one but Harry Feversham. She had carried Willoughby into that enclosure, and his story had absorbed her and kept her memory on the rack, as she filled out with this or that recollected detail of Harry's gestures, or voice, or looks, the deficiencies in her companion's narrative. She had been swept away from that August garden of sunlight and coloured flowers; and those five most weary years, during which she had held her head high and greeted the world with a smile of courage, were blotted from her experience. How weary they had been perhaps she never knew, until she raised her head and saw Durrance at the entrance in the hedge.
”Hus.h.!.+” she said to Willoughby, and her face paled and her eyes shut tight for a moment with a spasm of pain. But she had no time to spare for any indulgence of her feelings. Her few minutes' talk with Captain Willoughby had been a holiday, but the holiday was over. She must take up again the responsibilities with which those five years had charged her, and at once. If she could not accomplish that hard task of forgetting--and she now knew very well that she never would accomplish it--she must do the next best thing, and give no sign that she had not forgotten. Durrance must continue to believe that she brought more than friends.h.i.+p into the marriage account.
He stood at the very entrance to the enclosure; he advanced into it. He was so quick to guess, it was not wise that he should meet Captain Willoughby or even know of his coming. Ethne looked about her for an escape, knowing very well that she would look in vain. The creek was in front of them, and three walls of high thick hedge girt them in behind and at the sides. There was but one entrance to this enclosure, and Durrance himself barred the path to it.
”Keep still,” she said in a whisper. ”You know him?”
”Of course. We were together for three years at Suakin. I heard that he had gone blind. I am glad to know that it is not true.” This he said, noticing the freedom of Durrance's gait.
”Speak lower,” returned Ethne. ”It is true. He _is_ blind.”
”One would never have thought it. Consolations seem so futile. What can I say to him?”
”Say nothing!”
Durrance was still standing just within the enclosure, and, as it seemed, looking straight towards the two people seated on the bench.
”Ethne,” he said, rather than called; and the quiet unquestioning voice made the illusion that he saw extraordinarily complete.
”It's impossible that he is blind,” said Willoughby. ”He sees us.”
”He sees nothing.”
Again Durrance called ”Ethne,” but now in a louder voice, and a voice of doubt.
”Do you hear? He is not sure,” whispered Ethne. ”Keep very still.”