C123 mixed feelings (1/2)

Looking at this face that I had kissed and caressed countless times before, my heart was filled with mixed feelings. How beautiful was this young face, who would have thought that this was the face of a thirty-six year old woman, who would have thought that this was the face of a person who had experienced the vicissitudes of life and the hardships of others.

I knew that pain and suffering were in her heart.

As I silently observed Liu Yue's face, my heart was filled with bitterness and heartache.

Liu Yue's long eyelashes trembled slightly as she suddenly opened her eyes and looked at me.

Panicking, I looked out the window.

”What are you looking at?” Liu Yue said softly, looking at me with calm eyes.

I know, Liu Yue must have felt my gaze looking at her, she once said that she had a very keen intuition.

”I... I'm looking out the window at the scenery... ” I said quickly.

Liu Yue smiled, turned towards me, and looked back at his comatose comrade, then turned his head to look outside the window, ”What's so good about this place? It's better to go past Jiangnan, that's better, and there's also my hometown, Cangnan County's Great Sea Area, that's better …”

”Oh …” ”This is the first time I've been out of the province. I'm curious about everything, as if I've gone abroad …” I said self-deprecatingly.

Liu Yue looked at me and smiled, ”In the future, you will have a lot of chances to come out. In the future, your knowledge and experience will become more and more vast …”

”Mm …” I nodded.

”If you follow me to the south, Xiao Xu won't know about it beforehand, right?” Liu Yue's voice dropped yet again.

”No, I didn't.” I lowered my voice.

”Why didn't you tell her? We're here for work, not to do anything else, the more you don't tell us, the worse it will be. Before we left, I looked at Xiao Xu with an unpleasant expression …”

”I... I forgot! ”

”You lied again …” Liu Yue chuckled, ”This time, you have lied twice. Not good, not good at all. Director Jiang, how can you lie to the Leader …”

Liu Yue's voice was somewhat mischievous, and did not contain any intention of blaming them.

Embarrassed, I smiled and said nothing.

”There shouldn't be any psychological burdens after being punished, right …” After a moment of silence, Liu Yue asked me softly.

She was referring to the matter of me being given internal sanctions by the newspaper and being notified by the Ministry of Propaganda in the news system of the entire city.

”There must be a burden,” I said, ”but it has already happened. What can I do? Fortunately, Secretary Ma had already sent the item back to the Public Information Department. At the same time, it could be considered an opportunity for Chen Jing to be promoted to vice chairman. ”

”Even though this matter was personally decided by Minister Zhang, Minister Zhang still appreciates you. It's just that, if you were to offend the gun, Minister Zhang's work would need a perfect example, so …” Liu Yue said in a low voice that only I could hear.

”That's why I became the sacrifice of the Minister Zhang to promote the New Deal. That's why I made a contribution to the Minister Zhang …” ”No,” I said.

”Basically, you can think like that. Don't have any feelings for Minister Zhang, he still has a good impression of you. He won't have any bad thoughts towards you just because of this matter …”

He is the city leader, and I am a little pawn. How could I dare to have any feelings for the Big Leadership? My punishment has also come out. All the news Advocacy system in the city knew that Jiang Feng had a bad job and was randomly receiving gifts, but I have already lost my face, so what else could I do? ” I spoke in a somewhat sulky tone.

”Don't play with a child's temper, be obedient,” Liu Yue's tone was filled with gentleness, as if she was a mother educating a child, ”This is how official matters are like this, Zhuge Liang is even raising his horse and crying, there are some things, even the Big Leadership cannot do as they please, they have to be considered comprehensively, and cannot be ignored. Furthermore, the Big Leadership still has to consider how his work will be carried out even more effectively, so, so your coincidence is that this time around, it shouldn't have much of an impact on your future … ”Remember, no matter what punishment you receive, as long as the leader appreciates you, you will not fall into depravity, and you will definitely be able to continue improving. If the leader disapproves of you, no matter how capable you are, no matter how much work you do, it will all be for naught …”

Hearing Liu Yue's words, I felt that it made sense and nodded my head silently.

”Also, Chen Jing and I have talked on the phone …” Liu Yue said.

”Oh …” I looked at Liu Yue and knew what Liu Yue's words meant. ”You know about it already?”

”Yes, I know,” Liu Yue nodded his head: ”What you are doing is right, a leader of a department should be doing this, a man in charge should be doing this. Your way, I admire you very much, you are a true man, a true man …”

Just like a year or so ago, any of Liu Yue's praises made my heart ripple.

”Thank you, thank you for praising me so much. I'm very happy to hear it. I haven't heard you praise me so highly in a long time …” I said, suddenly sad.

Liu Yue stopped talking, she looked into my eyes and suddenly sighed: ”Come, let's change seats.”

”What?” I don't understand.

”It's convenient for you to view the beautiful scenery of spring outside …” Liu Yue smiled and stood up.

Thus, I sat down next to the window while Liu Yue sat outside.

I pressed myself against the window and looked greedily out at the fields, the scattered villages, and the mountain ranges in the distance.

After a while, I turned my head and saw Liu Yue leaning against the back of the chair, staring blankly out of the window.