C44 cerebral vertigo (1/2)
I felt like I was struck by lightning and my mind was spinning. I knew that the man in Liu Yue's heart must be the Corydalis and she must have fallen in love with him.
That's right, compared to Corydalis, other than youth, other than having the ability to do that, what else can compare to Corydalis? If Liu Yue were to be with him, Liu Yue would receive far more than what I can give him. What could I possibly give her? Other than the constant physical spasms, there was nothing else!
I suddenly felt that I was really stupid, that's right, I should have figured this out long ago, what could I count as in front of Liu Yue? A poor kid who had just graduated from university and came out of a ravine, everything he wanted was fine... The funny thing is, I, a toad, have always treated myself like a golden phoenix and wanted to eat that swan meat.
Suddenly, my voice became very fierce, ”Liu Yue, I finally understand why you didn't contact me these many days, why you made such a big fuss about me and Qing Er, why you kept confessing your so-called principles of being a human being, and why you kept on saying that you can't forgive lies … This was all the reason why she wanted to defend herself. It was also the reason why she wanted to rely on her own authority while enjoying her physical body to excuse herself at the same time … Yes, I am inferior to him, I do not have his position, she does not have money, he does not have the right, I have nothing, I am despicable, I cannot give you anything, and he, can give you everything you want, power, status, money … After you've had enough fun with me, you wanted to get rid of me. Coincidentally, the matter with Qing Er gave you the most suitable reason and excuse, and you couldn't wait to take it out and use it as your best tool and weapon … You are so powerful, Liu Yue, Director Liu, I admire you … I... I'm blind... ”I …”
”Whatever you want to say, whatever you want to scold, it's up to you …” Liu Yue said powerlessly: ”I only hope that you … You can be with her... You... All of you get back together, I hope you... ”Happiness for a lifetime …”
”Shut up!” Disgusting! I finally saw through you. Whatever happened between Qing Er and I, it has nothing to do with you! Liu Yue! I... I hate you, I hate you for the rest of my life … ”I hate you to the core of your bones …” My tears burst out of me.
I crazily took off the BB Machine that Liu Yue had given me, took off the key to Liu Yue's room, and fiercely threw him onto the bed. ”Liu Yue, I wish for you to become an official and become rich. ”Liu Yue, I can't do it now, I don't have anything. But, remember this: if I, Jiang Feng, do not become famous one day, if I don't exceed you nobles, then my surname will not be Jiang …”
After I finished speaking, without waiting for Liu Yue to speak, I grabbed my luggage, fiercely opened the door and ran out.
Behind his back, Liu Yue's uncontrollable sobbing could be heard …
I ignored him and ran out the front door of the hostel, running in the cold winter night, tears sliding down my cheeks.
I hate Liu Yue to death, and I also hate Qing Er. If it wasn't for Qing Er coming to this place to cause trouble, Liu Yue wouldn't have made up her mind to break off all ties with me this quickly.
Now, because of Qing Er's pestering, everything that I have is over, I have lost Qing Er, I have lost Liu Yue, I have nothing.
I hate these two women, I cannot forgive Qing Er for deliberately ruining my life!
I hate Liu Yue more than I hate Qing Er. In my entire life, I have never hated someone so deeply before.
In this strange provincial city cold night empty streets, my tears, my heartbreak, all hope...
That night, I did not return to the hostel. I wandered the deserted streets for a night, battling with rage and cold.
The next day, with a shattered heart, I went back to the river in a heavy car.
As soon as I got back, I was taken to the hospital by my colleagues. I had acute tonsillitis and a fever of 39 degrees.
I fell asleep in the hospital for two chapters, and also had two chapters of daydreams. When I woke up from my dream, I saw Chen Jing sitting by my bed, and the morning clouds outside the window.
”Oh god, you're finally awake!” Chen Jing let out a long breath: ”You're so awesome, you're so trapped, and now, you're sleeping for 2 days and 2 nights!”
My lips were dry and cracked. When I sat up, I wanted to drink water.
After saying this, I saw a bunch of flowers blooming on the bedside table, emitting a faint fragrance.
”Who sent it?” I asked Chen Jing.
Chen Jing took a whiff of the fresh flower's fragrance: ”Your university classmate, a man and a woman.”
”Oh …” ”What's your name?” I looked at Chen Jing.
”I don't know the specific names, but the man is called Qing Er the woman and the woman is called Old Third the man. They have been taking care of you in the hospital these past two days and rotated with me. Chen Jing was straightforward and honest: ”You two are really interesting, especially that girl called Qing Er. She was so caring and considerate towards you, that made me jealous just by looking at her.
I was speechless. I didn't know how they found out about my illness.
I don't want to know, but I don't appreciate your kindness. Recalling what happened 2 chapters ago, the grievances towards Qing Er started to surge within my heart.