Part 23 (1/2)

Suzanna pondered. ”I think I'll tell daddy, perhaps tonight,” she said at last, ”that to wear the shoes will hurt my feelings dreadfully; that I tremble when I think of being the only girl in the drill without low shoes with two straps. Something like moccasins. If I tell daddy this, then I'll be honest.”

”And if you decide to suffer?”

”Then I'll wear the shoes at the drill and from the time I put them on till the drill is over, I'll be full of pain. I'll know that everybody will be just looking at my feet, and I'll not enjoy the dance one bit.”

The queen knit her brows. Then her answer came: ”Be not honest in the way you describe, neither suffer.”

”But, Drusilla,” Suzanna objected, ”I don't understand.”

”_And can you not be brave?_” asked the queen with a note of scorn in her voice. ”Is it left to one who feels the time approaching when she will be deposed from her throne and all she holds dear, alone to have courage?” She looked straight into Suzanna's dark eyes. ”Your father knows joy in thinking he has given you your heart's desire. Why, then, hurt him by telling him that the shoes are not your desire? Why not, with head held high, lead the dance you speak of, and forget shoes, and remember only the movement of the dance, the lilt of the music?”

”Is that bravery?” asked Suzanna.

”The greatest bravery,” returned the queen, ”will be to say to yourself, 'Am I so poor a maid that I cannot by the very beauty of my dancing keep the eyes of the watchers lifted clear above my shoes? For shoes, what are shoes? Leather and wood. Inanimate, unthinking _stuff_! They are not worth one heart pang, one moment of misery to me or mine. But _I, I am alive_. I can see and think and understand. I can go so joyously through the mazes of the dance that the watchers may forget their sordid cares.'”

Suzanna, listening, was carried away. She cried with eager response: ”Why the night of the Indian Drill I can believe I am a fairy, dancing over snow-topped mountains, and singing, flying clear up into the clouds!”

”You might fall, Suzanna,” said Maizie, ”you know you haven't wings.”

But on this occasion Suzanna was not to be recalled to earth, and besides in her queen's interested, understanding face, she felt a quick fellows.h.i.+p to the spirit that dwelt within her.

And then breaking harshly into the wonder of this moment came the tinkle, tinkle of the electric bell.

”Oh,” cried Maizie, ”someone is coming.”

”I shall brook no intruders,” cried the queen.

”No matter who it is?” asked Suzanna.

”No matter who it is. I desire to be alone with my court. However, you can peep over the banisters and see who dares come thus upon us.”

Suzanna went to the top of the stairs. The maid was ushering in a lady and a boy.

”Go right upstairs,” Suzanna heard the maid say. ”Mrs. Bartlett's in the attic with two of the Procter children.”

The visitors appeared at the top of the stairs and paused to glance in.

The lady was beautifully dressed, quite exquisitely, from the dainty little toque upon her haughty head to her small gray cloth shoes. Her eyes, flas.h.i.+ng from pansy shades to lightest blue, were cold. Her white skin seemed to hold no possibility of color. Yet, even as she stood, the milk of it turned to rose when Drusilla gazed at her with no warmth of recognition in her glance.

The boy, about twelve, Suzanna surmised correctly, stood forward. There was some of his mother's haughtiness in his bearing, a great deal of her beauty. But added to both, a rare, high look as though always he were seeking what lay beyond his grasp, and perhaps his comprehension. He seemed altogether like a child whose emotional values did not stand clear. He gazed half prayerfully at his grandmother, as though asking and bestowing at the same time.

Breaking into the embarra.s.sing silence, Suzanna spoke:

”Drusilla has her crown on,” she said. ”You see, she's a queen now, and she's been answering some questions of mine.”

The lady in the doorway looked at Suzanna meditatively. Then she spoke directly to Drusilla.

”May I come in, mother?” she asked. ”You see I've brought Graham.”