Part 8 (2/2)
The old man with white hair watched the boy fondly day by day, and he found in him many new things that made him proud to have him bear his name.
”Ben,” he called after him, ”may I go too?”
”Yes, yes, Uncle Benjamin. I am going down beside Long Wharf. Let us take Baby Jane, and I will leave the boat behind. The baby likes to go out with us.”
The old man's heart was glad to feel the heart that was in the voice.
Little Ben took Baby Jane from his mother's arms, and they went toward the sea, where were small crafts, and sat down on board of one of the safely anch.o.r.ed boats. It was a sunny day, with a light breeze, and the harbor lay before them bright, calm, and fair.
”Ben, let us talk together a little. I am an old man; I do not know how many years or even days more I may have to spend with you. I hope many, for I have always loved to live, and, since I have come to know you and to give my heart to you, life is dearer to me than ever. I have a secret which I wish to tell you.
”Ben, as I have said, I have found in you _personality_. You do not fully know what that means now. Think of it fifty years from now, then you will know. You just now gave up your boat-sailing for me and the baby. You like to help others to be more comfortable and happy, and that is the way to grow. That is the law of life, and the purpose of life is to grow. You may not understand what I mean now; think of what I say fifty years from now.
”Ben, I have faith in you. I want that you should always remember me as one who saw what was in you and believed in you.”
”Is that the secret that you wanted to tell me, uncle?” asked little Ben.
”No, no, no, Ben; I am a poor man after a hard life. You do pity me, don't you? Where are my ten children now, except one? Go ask the English graveyard. My wife is gone. I am almost alone in the world. All bright things seemed to be going out in my life when you came into it bearing my name. I like to tell you this again and again. Oh, little Ben, you do not know how I love you! To be with you is to be happy.
[Ill.u.s.tration: UNCLE BENJAMIN'S SECRET.]
”One after one my ten children went away to their long rest where the English violets come and go. Two after one they went, three after two, and four after three. I lost my property, and Samuel went to America, and I was told that Brother Josiah had named you for me and made me your G.o.dfather. Then, as there was nothing but graves left for me in old England, I wished to come to America too.
”Ben, Ben, you have heard all this before, but, listen, I must tell you more. I wanted to cross the ocean, but I had little money for such a removal, and I used to walk about London with empty hands and wish for 100, and my wishes brought me nothing but sorrow, and I would go to my poor lodgings and weep. Oh, you can not tell how I used to feel!
”I had a few things left--they were as dear to me as my own heart. I am coming to the secret now, Ben. You are asking in your mind what those things were that I sold; they were the things most precious of all to me, and among them were--were my pamphlets.”
The old man bowed over, and his lip quivered.
”What were your pamphlets, uncle? You said that you would explain to me what they were.”
”Ben, there are some things that we come to possess that are a part of ourselves. Our heart goes into them--our blood--our life--our hope. It was so with my pamphlets, Ben. This is the secret I have to tell.
”I loved the cause of the Commonwealth--Cromwell's days. In the last days of the Commonwealth, when I had but little money to spare, I used to buy pamphlets on the times. When I had read a pamphlet, thoughts would come to me. I did not seem to think them; they came to me, and I used to note these thoughts down on the margins of the leaves in the pamphlets. Those thoughts were more to me than anything that I ever had in life.”
”I would have felt so too, uncle.”
”Years pa.s.sed, and I had a little library of pamphlets, the margins filled with my own thoughts. Poetry is the soul's vision, and I wrote my poetry on those pamphlets. Ben, oh, my pamphlets! my pamphlets! They were my soul; all the best of me went into them.
”Well, Ben, times changed. King Charles returned, and the Commonwealth vanished, but I still added to my pamphlets for years and years. Then I heard of you. I always loved Brother Josiah, and my son was on this side of the water, and the longing grew to sail for America, where my heart then was, as I have told you.”
”I see how you felt, uncle.”
”I dreamed how to get the money; I prayed for the money. One day a London bookseller said to me: 'You have been collecting pamphlets. Have you one ent.i.tled Human Freedom'? I answered that I had, but that it was covered with notes. He asked me to let him come to my lodgings and read it. He came and looked over all my pamphlets, and told me that a part of the collection had become rare and valuable; that they might have a value in legal cases that would arise owing to the change in the times.
He offered to buy them. I refused to sell them, on account of what I had written on the margins of the leaves. What I wrote were my revelations.
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