143 Reality (2/2)
One might claim, that having a good cause in doing so, would help ease their minds and give them the strength to persevere through the troubled times, but this is utter nonsense. Preaching altruism in dire times is mostly done by those with ulterior motives.
For the betterment of society, for a better tomorrow, for the next generation. The prestigious labels are all based on the same principles, to suggest the sacrifice for the people they hold dear. While a noble cause, this is exploited by a select group of people who wish to stay in power.
And nothing will ever change, if one corrupted head falls it will soon be replaced by another one. History has proven over and over again, that the only thing Humans have gotten better at, was masking the injustice.
They lie with smiling faces, the betray while hugging one another. They thrive by putting others down. Be it animals, themselves or even nature itself, everything they can get their hands on will be used. That such a vermin appeals to morals is another cruel irony in itself.
Humans are not as bad as I made them out to be but in comparison to the other species on Earth, I can only call it them a vermin, a disease that plagues the Earth. Nature in itself does not care about the mistake, that will be eradicated with the passage of time, but it can not be denied that humans have permanently altered nature with all of their deeds.
In the meantime, the visage of my mother had disappeared and turned into a copy of my father. I was not surprised by this development as a more than obvious pattern had emerged. A figure similar appeared in my vision telling me something shocking or thought-provoking. The true purpose behind that act is something I have yet to deduce though.
My father had always been a stern person, with a clear understanding of how to grow a business. Despite his eccentric behaviour, he can be considered the most normal person in his little dysfunctional family.
Let me witness what kind of outlandish things he will say. Maybe he will start telling me to sell our company and live happily off the money gained by the transaction or he might tell me to give away all the useless money since a life without paper notes and shilling coins was way more fulfilling.
” Dear Son, it is hard seeing you in such a bad condition. The company always came first for me. It was the thing my father had entrusted me with on his deathbed. It was the work of a lifetime and my way to provide my family with the things they deserved.”
A mournful voice unlike I had ever heard, dark traces under his eyes and a downcast expression were visible on his face. His appearance looked rather ragged and the normal aura of aloofness was nowhere to be seen.
” All of my actions were to prepare you to take up the same mantle as your father. All of the stress and the pressure I put you through was for this. But since you clearly did not want to succeed me, I decided to make your sister the inheritor of the company. I could not bear watching all of my effort in all of those years to end up being in vain.”
The figure of my father was clearly shaking as all of these words left his mouth. Those were the words of a man deeply torn by guilt and sorrow about the things he has done. He looked in my direction but he was not looking at me. His eyes were looking at something far outside of his reach, something he would never be able to obtain.
” The company is thriving unlike ever before. The shareholders are very pleased with our development and my daughter has proven her sense or business over and over again. My wife is happy beyond belief, because of our recent success and she has finally become the woman again. I once fell in love with.”
Despite the seemingly positive content of those words, there was not much happiness eradiating from the man himself.
” I just wanted to make everyone happy, my family was supposed to have every single thing they would ever need or could ever want. Yet, why does no one seem to care that all of this was bought with the health of my son? What is the use of all of this, if I can not even share it with you?”
I should have felt disgusted seeing my father pleading and lamenting my fate. As if this kind of justification would come from my father. In a sense I had to be thankful for this weird situation, I saw things I would have never even dreamt of being possible.
The pitiful farce disappeared from my eyes for good as if nothing had ever happened. He was replaced by a hooded person. After a brief period of silence, the hooded person began to speak. with a voice that belonged to the only person, I thought to have had feelings for.
The necessity of wearing a hood to cover the face was beyond me, as I could clearly envision her face from back then. Her seemingly innocent eyes, uncorrupted from the filth around her. A sweet smile while fate had given her several hardships to endure.
She was a beacon of light, the role model I needed when everything began to crumble all around me. Sadly my time to enjoy her presence was rather limited. Would my world view still be this twisted and rotten? I just hope that she can remain as pure and as compassionate as she had been prior to my involvement.
” It was easy to convince him to do my bidding when he was at his lowest. The faintest bit of kindness and he already began to cry his heart out. He told me everything I wanted to know and all I had to do was ask nicely. He was just not cut out for this cruel world. An ending like this was only fitting.”
What a twist, who could have seen that coming? The ideal version in my head was a mere lie and I exploited. How can I trust anyone ever again?
I would never truly care if she just used me for her own purpose, that would just further prove that my understanding of human nature is the correct one. The true reason for me seeing her in a fond light is that she offered me a new perspective, a dream that I could reach the same state as her.
I did not fall in love with the human itself but adored the ideals she stood for. So whether or not she was an angel or the devil faking her kindness I could not care any less. It is not like I did not consider her motive, but I was too blinded by my own desire to be like her. Until the day I died, I was intoxicated by the mere idea.
The hooded figure disappeared into thin air and arrived directly in front of me looking me directly into the eyes. With only mere centimetres between our 2 faces, I was able to see every little detail. Yet, the face was not the one I was used to, I was staring directly into the eyes of my long lost dog, that had accompanied me during the early days of my childhood.
”Woof” she exclaimed as she stared directly into my soul. I would be lying If I had predicted such a development.
” The dumbfounded expression on your face is priceless,” said the woman with a dog head. I would be lying again if try to deny it.
” I have tried everything to cause an emotional response from you. I invoked every character, that has majorly shaped your character and the thing that finally breaks your countenance is a dog. A dog which did not even like you.
in the background appeared numerous memories of the dog yelling and barking at me when I tried to pet it. That thing truly hated me. I was a bit floored, to say the least, and my thoughts raced to try and make sense out of all of this.
” Everything about you is so refreshing. If I were to hear yet another one of these simple-minded fools seeking power to avenge anyone, I am going to lose my mind. Do THOSE People have nothing better to do, then seek vengeance for the slightest inconvenience?”
” DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO BEING FORCED TO LISTEN TO THESE MORONS OVER AND OVER AGAIN? REPEATING THE SAME OLD STORY, WITH THE SAME OLD ENDING, EXPECTING ME TO SHARE THEIR PAIN AND GRANT THEM MY POWER. AND THE WORST THING OF ALL I STILL HAVE TO SMILE, WHILE THEY CRY THEIR HEART OUT FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME.”
” AND IF I GIVE THEM THE POWER TO ACHIEVE ALL OF THEIR DESIRES, THEY THANK ME ONCE AND CARRY ON THEIR PATH OF RETRIBUTION. WHICH WOULD NOT BE SO BAD, IF THESE FUCKERS WOULD NOT THROW THEIR LIVES AWAY IN THEIR QUEST.”
” IT IS ALWAYS THE SAME. I GAVE THEM POWER AND THEY OVERESTIMATE THEIR ABILITIES AND DIE BECAUSE THEY THOUGHT THEMSELVES TO BE INVINCIBLE. I WARN THEM TO BE CAREFUL, THEY LAUGH AT ME, THEY DIE. THE NEXT PERSON APPEARS, HE ACCEPTS THE POWER, I WARN HIM, HE SCOFFS AT ME, HE DIES. IT IS ALWAYS THE SAME. WHY DOES ANYONE I MEET PROVE INCAPABLE OF LEARNING?”
” I THOUGHT THAT BY SWITCHING MY APPROACH I COULD STOP THESE MORONS FROM THROWING THEIR LIVES AWAY IN THEIR CONQUEST. LIMITING THEIR POWER AND ONLY GIVING IT AWAY BIT BY BIT WHEN THEY HAVE PROVEN WORTHY OF HANDLING IT SHOULD HAVE SUFFICED. BUT OF COURSE, COMMON SENSE DOES NOT APPLY TO THESE IDIOTIC CREATURES. IN ORDER TO PROVE THEIR WORTH THEY THREW THEMSELVES HEADFIRST INTO DANGER TO TRY AND CONVINCE ME.”
” AND GUESS WHAT THEY LOST THEIR LIVES. IT WAS WISHFUL THINKING TO BELIEVE THAT THEY COULD CHANGE. IT IS THEIR INHERENT NATURE TO FIND A WAY TO RUIN EVERYTHING? AND I THOUGHT THINGS HAVE CHANGED AFTER COUNTLESS SIMPLEMINDED MONSTERS DEMANDING STRENGTH TO COPULATE.”
” WILL THIS TORTURE NEVER END?”
Sorry for interrupting your well-deserved rant about this idiocracy, but I think that you have forgotten the main purpose.
” While you are certainly more interesting, you are absolutely lacking in every other regard. They had more fighting experience, were better suited for my powers and had the skill necessary to make use of it. Qualities you lack. ”
The tone of the voice was rather displeased and still agitated. The voice itself was hard to describe., it sounded arrogant and archaic as if it was as old as time itself.
” As old as time itself? I do not like your word choice, you seem to imply something.”
Is there something wrong with such a description? Since you spoke of countless monsters and the mindless people you have granted you power it is not wrong to assign such a label to you, especially given such a big number. Besides being called old should be the least of your worries, since I have not even begun to talk about your incompetence.
” Incompetence? How does such a pitiful worm even dare to judge me? What qualifications do you possess to be so impudent?”
Screaming your arguments does not give them any more weight, you know? If you had so many tries with so many different specimens and you did not find success with any one of them, then you are the one to blame.
” I learned your language just from your memories and you question my abilities? While you, on the other hand, have proven that you are unable to fight against mere youths. Let me say it again, who do you think you are to question my abilities?”
I am a simple human, what do you expect from me? It would be delusional to think, that I could ever stand a chance against them in the first place. These are the type of expectations that led to failure after failure. And to answer your question, who I think I am, you should be well aware of that.”
” Hiding behind your glib tongue is the only thing you are good at. Behind is an insecure child, which is scared by the world because it can not fully grasp it yet.”
You make it seem so bad. Magic is a thing is something, which I never even dreamed off existing. What is wrong with being careful and considerate when facing something unknown? You even said so yourself, encountering every danger head-on is beyond stupid.
Label me a coward, but I do not see any benefit in acting confident in my abilities when I am so full of flaws. This is the reality I have to accept. The things I have seen leave me with no other choice than to accept my inferiority.
” So what is your answer? Are you going to rely on the toys, you humans are so proud of? Rest assured, I have not seen much of them, but I am certain they will be effective enough.”
The best course of action would avoid fighting these talented youths in the first place. In order to achieve that, it would be pointless to kill them risking everything, because that would only end up motivating more to come and take revenge. Instead, it would be wise to fake my own death and let them think that I have been bested.
” You truly know no shame”
I do not have the luxury to feel shame. If I worry about such minor details I might as well just off myself right here. Once those people start to believe that the monster Moirai has fallen, they will quickly forget about me even existing. At best I will remain a fond memory.
” But how do you plan on convening those players of your death. They would only rest if they see your corpse.”
And a corpse they shall get, but the question is will it be the right corpse?
” What a despicable plan, but it is much to my liking. Though I do wonder, how you want them to fall for it. Since your options do seem rather limited at the moment.”
Please, a battle is not won due to brute strength or world-bending magic. A battle is won, when one of the involved parties has reached their goal.
This battle will be not be won by supernatural strength or mind-breaking schemes. This battle will be won by being human. Humans have many different faces and this is enough to guarantee my win.
” The man of many faces. This sounds like a fitting nickname.”
” Though I do wonder Moirai, how certain are you, that your reality is the real one?”