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The most fitting description would be to call it a safety measure. I did not know, whether this was just a test from your side to see how I react or something entirely different.But the true reason might be that I hate false expectations.

Furthermore, it is within your capabilities to read my thoughts, therefore keeping my thoughts a secret from you is just too cumbersome. All the preparations and risks involved are totally not worth it.

”Why did you willingly gave away this method to temporarily escape from my monitoring?”

You would surely suspect, that something was wrong if my thoughts disappear from time to time. There is not much use to keeping secrets if they cause me more trouble than they are worth.Outright telling you the method carries far fewer risks with it and should work in my favour given my position.

” This goal aligns with your personality. According to your usual behaviour, you are defiantly hiding more than you let me in on. That much seems fair but proceed with caution. The future is full of uncertainties. ”

It left those words behind before the contact stopped, whether that last statement was a blatant threat or ”heartfelt” advice is not up to speculation. Lifting my weary body, I grabbed the horn, that already had been covered in the blood of many unfortunate creatures.

Slowly moving forward I approached the monsters, that tried to approach this island only to be stopped by the vicious sea life eating it.

The future had never truly been in my mind, everything related to it happens haphazardly. Finding a purpose for my life has always been my goal, but strangely whatever answer I found myself left me with the same kind of empty feeling. Was it supposed to be this way, I will likely never know.

After I had crossed the lake and left it with many small fishes still gnawing on my flesh, I started to attack the horde of monsters, that had shifted their focus to me. I had to move my body constantly in order to avoid being surrounded by these predators. Whether I decided to dodge the claws from the bear in front of me or stepping forward to ram the horn into its eyes, alternates and changes the future by a lot.

Some roads may lead to premature death, others will lead to certain victory. I would be lying if I knew which one I had to take in order to achieve the impossible. I had decided to dodge the attack by ducking it, this choice eliminated many other options I could take but enabled me to do many other things as well. But regardless of what I would choose my path was destined to deviate more and more from all the initial choices that I could have made.

The missed attack from the bear resulted in a shift of its balance. This flaw was a consequence of its actions and I could launch the horn into one of its eyes if I intended to do so. Instead, I aimed at its legs, to destroy the footing of its strengths.

Piercing one of the legs it has been standing on, forced the bear to react to my offence.Yet, this small mistake it had made, will lead to its demise, as it failed to compensate for the disadvantages, that resulted out of its first attack. If it knew the outcome prior to attacking it surely would have chosen otherwise, but in the end, it had chosen wrong and died for it.

Time did not stand still while I fought against the Bear and many other monsters were influenced by my acts and their choices changed based on my decisions. This was just a mere battle between a few individual beings, yet it was already a complex equation.

But realistically speaking, does this complex equation truly matter? None of my actions would truly change the course of history. If I lost my life here the world who still continue without me. If a monster dies by my hand it just respawns in a few minutes. This equation is nothing but a minuscule part of this world.Insignificant and negligible in the grand scheme of time.

Future? Why should I bound my worth to this concept?

I will not bind myself to any useless concept, that dictates my fate. Live for the moment, fight for a better tomorrow. Why do I have to follow anything, that forces me to do something?

it's my life, it's now or never, I ain't gonna live forever. I just wanna live while I am alive.These words appeared in my mind and summed up exactly what I felt.

There is not much I want from this life. I do not have big aspirations or big dreams or a burning desire to leave my mark on history. I want to see the world and just be.I just wanna live My life.

Like Frankie said I did it my way...

That truly is a good idea.