Part 11 (1/2)

”I think it's served its purpose,” he said. He wadded it up, tossed it in the stove, and slammed the door shut. He didn't even get burned. ”Come help me on the greenhouse, Lynn,” he said.

It was pitch-dark outside and really getting cold. My sneakers were starting to get stiff. Dad held the flashlight and pulled the plastic tight over the wooden slats. I stapled the plastic every two inches all the way around the frame and my finger about every other time. After we finished one frame I asked Dad if I could go back in and put on my boots.

”Did you get the seeds for the tomatoes?” he said, like he hadn't even heard me. ”Or were you too busy looking for the letter?”

”I didn't look for it,” I said. ”I found it. I thought you'd be glad to get the letter and know what happened to the Clearys.”

Dad was pulling the plastic across the next frame, so hard it was getting little puckers in it. ”We already knew,” he said.

He handed me the flashlight and took the staple gun out of my hand. ”You want me to say it?” he said. ”You want me to tell you exactly what happened to them? All right. I would imagine they were close enough to Chicago to have been vaporized when the bombs. .h.i.t. If they were, they were lucky. Because there aren't any mountains like ours around Chicago. So they got caught in the fire storm or they died of flash burns or radiation sickness or else some looter shot them.”

”Or their own family,” I said.

”Or their own family.” He put the staple gun against the wood and pulled the trigger. ”I have a theory about what happened the summer before last,” he said. He moved the gun down and shot another staple into the wood. ”I don't think the Russians started it or the United States either. I think it was some little terrorist group somewhere or maybe just one person. I don't think they had any idea what would happen when they dropped their bomb. I think they were just so hurt and angry and frightened by the way things were that they just lashed out. With a bomb.” He stapled the frame clear to the bottom and straightened up to start on the other side. ”What do you think of that theory, Lynn?”

”I told you,” I said. ”I found the letter while I was looking for Mrs. Talbot's magazine.”

He turned and pointed the staple gun at me. ”But whatever reason they did it for, they brought the whole world cras.h.i.+ng down on their heads. Whether they meant it or not, they had to live with the consequences.”

”If they lived,” I said. ”If somebody didn't shoot them.”

”I can't let you go to the post office anymore,” he said. ”It's too dangerous.”

”What about Mrs. Talbot's magazines?”

”Go check on the fire,” he said.

I went back inside. David had come back and was standing by the fireplace again, looking at the wall. Mom had set up the card table and the folding chairs in front of the fireplace. Mrs. Talbot was in the kitchen cutting up potatoes, only it looked like it was onions the way she was crying.

The fire had practically gone out. I stuck a couple of wadded-up magazine pages in to get it going again. The fire flared up with a brilliant blue and green. I tossed a couple of pine cones and some sticks onto the burning paper. One of the pine cones rolled off to the side and lay there in the ashes. I grabbed for it and hit my hand on the door of the stove.

Right in the same place. Great. The blister would pull the old scab off and we could start all over again. And of course Mom was standing right there, holding the pan of potato soup. She put it on the top of the stove and grabbed up my hand like it was evidence in a crime or something. She didn't say anything, she just stood there holding it and blinking.

”I burned it,” I said. ”I just burned it.”

She touched the edges of the old scab, like she was afraid of catching something.

”It's a burn!” I shouted, s.n.a.t.c.hing my hand back and cramming David's stupid logs into the stove. ”It isn't radiation sickness. It's a burn.”

”Do you know where your father is, Lynn?” she said as if she hadn't even heard me.

”He's out on the back porch,” I said, ”building his f.u.c.king greenhouse.”

”He's gone,” she said. ”He took St.i.tch with him.”

”He can't have taken St.i.tch,” I said. ”He's afraid of the dark.” She didn't say anything. ”Do you know know how dark it is out there?” how dark it is out there?”

”Yes,” she said, and went and looked out the window. ”I know how dark it is.”

I got my parka off the hook by the fireplace and started out the door.

David grabbed my arm. ”Where the h.e.l.l do you think you're going?”

I wrenched away from him. ”To find St.i.tch. He's afraid of the dark.”

”Its too dark,” he said. ”You'll get lost.”

”So what? It's safer than hanging around this place,” I said and slammed the door shut on his hand.

I made it halfway to the woodpile before he grabbed me again, this time with his other hand. I should have gotten them both with the door.

”Let me go,” I said. ”I'm leaving. I'm going to go find some other people to live with.”

”There aren't any other people! For Christ's sake, we went all the way to South Park last winter. There wasn't anybody We didn't even see those looters. And what if you run into them, the looters that shot Mr. Talbot?”

”What if I do? The worst they could do is shoot me. I've been shot at before.”

”You're acting crazy, you know that, don't you?” he said. ”Comin' in here out of the clear blue, taking potshots at everybody with that crazy letter!”

”Potshots!” I said, so mad I was afraid I was going to start crying. ”Potshots! What about last summer? Who was taking potshots then?”

”You didn't have any business taking the shortcut,” David said. ”Dad told you never to come that way.”

”Was that any reason to try and shoot shoot m me? Was that any reason to Was that any reason to kill kill Rusty?” Rusty?”

David was squeezing my arm so hard I thought he was going to snap it right in two. ”The looters had a dog with them. We found its tracks all around Mr. Talbot. When you took the shortcut and we heard Rusty barking, we thought you were the looters.” He looked at me. ”Mom's right. Paranoia's the number one killer. We were all a little crazy last summer. We're all a little crazy all the time, I guess, and then you pull a stunt like bringing that letter home, reminding everybody of everything that's happened, of everybody we've lost ...” He let go of my arm and looked down at his hand like he didn't even know he'd practically broken my arm.

”I told you,” I said. ”I found it while I was looking for a magazine. I thought you'd all be glad I found it.”

”Yeah,” he said. ”I'll bet.”

He went inside and I stayed out a long time, waiting for Dad and St.i.tch. When I came in, n.o.body even looked up. Mom was still standing at the window I could see a star over her head. Mrs. Talbot had stopped crying and was setting the table. Mom dished up the soup and we all sat down. While we were eating, Dad came in.

He had St.i.tch with him. And all the magazines. ”I'm sorry, Mrs. Talbot,” he said. ”If you'd like, I'll put them under the house and you can send Lynn for them one at a time.”

”It doesn't matter,” she said. ”I don't feel like reading them anymore.”

Dad put the magazines on the couch and sat down at the card table. Mom dished him up a bowl of soup. ”I got the seeds,” he said. ”The tomato seeds had gotten water-soaked, but the corn and squash were okay.” He looked at me. ”I had to board up the post office, Lynn,” he said. ”You understand that, don't you, that I can't let you go there anymore? It's just too dangerous.”

”I told you,” I said. ”I found it. While I was looking for a magazine.”

”The fire's going out,” he said.

After they shot Rusty I wasn't allowed to go anywhere for a month for fear they'd shoot me when I came home, not even when I promised to take the long way around. But then St.i.tch showed up and nothing happened and they let me start going again. I went every day till the end of summer and after that whenever they'd let me. I must have looked through every pile of mail a hundred times before I found the letter from the Clearys. Mrs. Talbot was right about the post office. The letter was in somebody else's box.

n.o.body knows what housewives do all day. n.o.body cares either, and this places the housewife in the same position as Miss Marple, whom people are continually underestimating, and gives the housewife a certain freedom and power that make her the perfect heroine.