Part 62 (1/2)

”No, no.”

”After all,” Violet considered, ”it will be very good for Ellen and the tweeny to have somebody to wait upon. I never do like leaving them here on enormous board wages, to do nothing at all--though Cedric _will_ think it's the proper thing to do, because his father did it.”

She laughed, and Cedric said, with an air of concession:

”Well, just till Barbara can take you in, perhaps--if you think London won't be unbearable. But mind you, Alex, the minute you get tired of it, or feel the heat too much for you, you're to make other arrangements.”

Alex wondered dully what other arrangements Cedric supposed that she could make. She had no money, and had never even roused herself to write the letter he had recommended, asking to have her half-yearly allowance sent to her own address and not to that of the Superior of the convent.

But on the day before Cedric and Violet, with Violet's maid, and Rosemary, and her nurse, and her pram, all took their departure, Cedric called Alex into the study.

She went to him feeling oddly as though she was the little girl again, who had, on rare occasions, been sent for by Sir Francis, and had found him standing just so, his back to the fireplace, spectacles in hand, speaking in just the same measured, rather regretful tones of kindliness.

”Alex, I've made out two cheques one to cover the servants' board wages, which I thought you would be good enough to give them at the end of the month, and one for your own living expenses. You'd better cash that at once, in case you want any ready money. Have you anywhere to keep it under lock and key?”

Cedric, no more than Sir Francis, trusted to a woman's discretion in matters of money.

”Yes, there's the drawer of the writing-table in my bedroom.”

”That will be all right, then. The servants are perfectly trustworthy, no doubt, but loose cash should never be left about in any case--if you want more, write to me. And, Alex, I've seen old Pumphrey--father's man of business. He will see that you get your fifty pounds. Here is the first instalment.”

Cedric gravely handed her a third cheque.

”Have you a banking account?”

”I don't think so.”

”Then I'll arrange to open one for you at my bank today. You'd better deposit this at once, hadn't you--unless you want anything?”

”No,” faltered Alex, not altogether understanding.

”You will have no expenses while you're here, of course,” said Cedric, rather embarra.s.sed. Alex looked bewildered. It had never occurred to her to suggest paying for her own keep while she remained alone at Clevedon Square. She gave back to her brother the cheque for twenty-five pounds, and received his a.s.surance that it would be banked in her name that afternoon.

”They will send you a cheque-book, and you can draw out any small sum you may need later on.”

”I don't think I shall need any,” said Alex, looking at the other two cheques he had given her, made payable to herself, and thinking what a lot of money they represented.

”You will have a thorough rest and change with Barbara,” Cedric said, still looking at her rather uneasily. ”Then, when we meet again in October, it will be time enough--”

He did not say what for, and Alex remembered the conversation that she had overheard on the stair. With a feeling of cunning, she was conscious of her own determination to take the initiative out of his hands, without his knowledge.

They did not want her, and they would want her less than ever, with all the approaching business connected with Pamela's wedding in December.

Barbara did not want her, self-absorbed, and unwearingly considering how to cut down more and yet more expenses.

Alex had made up her mind to go and live alone. She would prove to them that she could do it, though they thought fifty pounds a year was so little money. She thought vaguely that perhaps she could earn something.

But she gave no hint of her plans to any one, knowing that Violet would be remonstrant and Cedric derisive.

Obsessed by this new idea, she said good-bye to them with a sort of furtive eagerness, and found herself alone in the house in Clevedon Square.

At first the quiet and the solitude were pleasant to her. She crept round the big, empty house like a spirit, feeling as though it presented a more familiar aspect with its shrouded furniture and carefully shaded windows, and the absence of most of Violet's expensive silver and china ornaments. The library, which was always kept open for her, was one of the least changed rooms in the house, and she spent hours crouched upon the sofa there, only rousing herself to go to the solitary meals which were punctiliously laid out for her in the big dining-room.