Part 38 (1/2)

The girth of the figure had increased, and the face showed traces of having been heavily scored by the pa.s.sing of some twenty or thirty years, but this time the strong mouth was smiling frankly, and the eyes had lost their brooding look and were directed upwards with an ardent and animated expression. The hands, so plump as to show mere indents in place of knuckles across their remarkable breadth, grasped a small crucifix.

Under the first portrait Alex read the inscription ”Angele Predoux a dix-huit ans.”

Beneath the picture of the nun, Angele's not very distinguished patronymic had been replaced by the t.i.tle of ”Mere Candide de Sacre Coeur,” and still supplemented by the announcement:

”Fondatrice et Superieure de son Ordre.”

Old-fas.h.i.+oned though the dress in the photograph looked to Alex' eyes, she was yet astonished that any woman so nearly of her own time should have founded a religious Order. She had always supposed vaguely that the educational variety of religious Orders which she knew flourished in Europe had taken their existence from the old-established Dominican or Benedictine communities.

But it seemed now that a new foundation might come into being under the auspice of so youthful and plebeian-seeming a pioneer as Angele Predoux.

Alex wondered how she had set about it. A grotesque fancy flitted through her mind as to the fas.h.i.+on in which Sir Francis and Lady Isabel might be expected to receive an announcement that Alex or Barbara felt called upon to found a new religious Order.

Alex could not help dismissing the imaginary situation thus conjured up with a slight shudder, and the conviction that Angele Predoux, if her position had been in any degree tenable, must have been an orphan.

Wis.h.i.+ng all the time that Mother Gertrude would come to her, she glanced through the first few pages of the book.

It somehow slightly amazed her to read of the Founder of a religious Order as a little girl, who had, like herself, pa.s.sed through the successive phases of babyhood, schooldays and the society of her compeers in the world.

”And to what end,” inquired the author of the _esquisse_, when Angele Predoux had celebrated her twenty-first birthday at a ball given on her behalf by an adoring grandfather--”to what end?”

Alex repeated the question to herself, and marvelled rather vaguely as various replies floated through her mind. Life all led to something, she supposed, and for the first time it occurred to her that she herself had never aimed at anything save the possession of that which she called happiness. What had been Angele Predoux's aim?--what was that of Mother Gertrude? Certainly not human happiness.

Life was disappointing enough, Alex reflected drearily. One was always waiting, always looking forward to the next stage, as though it must reveal the secret solution to the great question of _why_. Alex'

thoughts turned to Noel Cardew and the sick misery and disappointment engendered by her engagement.

The door opened and she sprang up.

”Oh, I am so glad you have come at last.”

”Were you getting impatient? I'm sorry, but you know our time is not our own.”

The nun sat down, and Alex flung, rather than sat herself in her favourite position on the floor, her arms resting on the Superior's knee.

”What is the matter?” asked Mother Gertrude. ”What was troubling you just before I came in, Alex?”

”You always know,” said Alex, in quick, pa.s.sionate recognition of an intuition that it had hitherto been her share to exercise on behalf of another, never to receive.

”Your face is not so very difficult to read, and I think I know you pretty well by this time.”

”Better than any one,” said Alex, in all good faith, and unaware that certain aspects of herself, such as she showed to Barbara, or to her father and mother when they angered or frightened her, had never yet been called forth in the Superior's presence, and probably never would be.

”Well, what was it? Was it our Mother Foundress?”

”How did you know?” gasped Alex, unseeing of the still open book lying on the table.

Mother Gertrude did not refer to it. She pa.s.sed her hand slowly over the upturned head. Alex had thrown off her hat.