Part 14 (1/2)

Allison ran after me, laughing. We were both giggling so much we could hardly keep running. Guess we were both cracked up by the same thing, an image of how we would look to an observer, running around the apartment naked.

I barely escaped her grasp as I headed out of the kitchen, through the living room, to the foyer. It was a long narrow hall with the bedroom at one end and the door to the outside at the other.

I ran until I collided with unyielding wood. The outside door. In my excitement I had run in the wrong direction.

Allison had me trapped. There was only room for one person to walk down the hall at a time. She surged up against me, not able to break the momentum she had built up while running. The impact crushed me to the door. The wood protested loudly and the thud of my impact gathered volume in the empty halls and stairwell. Oh Christ, and with the landlord living right in the building! I was sure there would be an eviction notice for me the next day. You understand, I didn't know exactly what time it was but it had to be some time after midnight.

The unexpected noise flipped us both. We thought it was funny. We goofed it up laughing and making guesses about what the other tenants had done when they heard the sound. Like what they had been doing when it happened and how they might have interpreted it. We were breaking each other up.

Allison stopped laughing first. There was nothing humorous about the way her fingers were probing my body. What there is to do with hands in order to achieve certain effects, she was doing. Anything else, there isn't.

My laugh went to a grin to something quite other than hilarity. Allison had her hand behind my head, tugging a handful of my hair until my head was inclined backward. She bent over me and brought her mouth to mine. Instead of kissing me, she kept her lips a fraction of an inch away and traced the outlines of my mouth with the tip of her tongue. Playing with the contours of my parted lips.

She was using her hands and fingers to fondle me like a bibliophile examining the Gutenberg Bible. A delicious languor spread through me. My heart was beating frantically, blood spurting l.u.s.tily through me, throbbing inside me that blocked out sight and sound, present and future. Only Allison and the exquisite sensations of her touch were real.

”No, no, Allison. Please, not here. Not so close to the door. The neighbors... they'll hear us.” Some part of my mind that I wasn't in touch with was being rational. I heard myself speaking but wasn't aware that I was articulating, nor had any idea where the .logical, coherent thoughts came from.

”They can't hear me making love to you, baby. That's just between us,” Allison said. She followed her words with a probing kiss and then her mouth was roving my body, just the tip of her tongue extended.

Her mouth was on my breast, the wet pink wonder teasing the tips. I was sinking further and further into ardent urgency. My body had gone slack with need and it was only the pressure of Allison's body propping me against the door that kept me upright. I was falling limply. Allison started easing me down to the floor, not stopping her stroking.

”No. Please,” I said weakly. ”I don't want to here. Not on the floor. Not in front of the door.”

Allison's voice was tight and husky. She had to take a deep breath before speaking. ”I guess you're right. That might wake someone.” She swayed against me and buried her head in my shoulder. ”Oh, dearest, it's so wonderful when you finish. I love the way you go out of your mind and become so free and wild and unrestrained. My baby, it's so good to see you when you're like that. You're a different person, primitive, uninhibited and so completely mine. And the things you say at that time! Like they came from deep inside you where your sincerest feelings are. You say such lovely things to me then, Sloane precious. As if you had no control over what you were saying, sometimes you whisper so that I can hardly hear you, other times there are no words, just rapturous sounds, and sometimes you just let go and proclaim your ecstasy. Those times you usually call out my name. Like it was something of great beauty. Or loudly, as if you wanted to tell the world that I was the one you love.” She picked her head up. ”Yes, I guess you have a point. We had better get away from the door.”

Allison helped me get up. Every bone and muscle in my body had turned to jelly. She propped-me up in front of her as we went down the hall to the bedroom. Allison kicked the bedroom door shut behind us with the heel of her foot.

I was on the bed. Allison was standing next to the bed staring down at me. Then Allison was embracing me, the slippery velvet of her perspired body pulsating against me. Mouth on my mouth. Silken lips against mine. Hands and fingers stroking, clasping, fondling. Lips touching, brus.h.i.+ng, sliding over my body. Agonizingly exquisite tongue seeking, caressing. I in the torturous ache of ecstasy, in the rapture of transport, then, quickly, knotted up with tension... release and flowing out and, ”Allison, Allison, Allison, I love you. My precious darling. Allison, Allison, Allison, Allison...”

What was probably much later, I realized that sunlight was coming in the room from around the edges of the drapes. There was a clock on the bedside table. I twisted myself up and to the side in order to read its face which was turned away from me. I was very careful not to awaken Allison who was sleeping in the embrace of my left arm. I picked up the clock and brought it close to my eyes. Myopia and a hangover made me tempted to use braille. Finally, I was able to make out the time.

”Is it very late?” a sleepy voice inquired from the other side of the bed.

”We must have fallen asleep. It's 9:15 already. I'm going to have to hustle to get to the office in time.”

”d.a.m.n! I've got an appointment with a photographer for this morning. I'm due there already and I don't even know where the h.e.l.l I left my clothes around this voyeur's dream. And I have to go back to my place to pick up my stage make-up. Oh, I hope he waits for me. I don't care if he kills me for being so late, just so long as he's there. He's one of the best cameramen in the business and I've waited months to get this appointment with him. I need a lot of new stills for distribution on the Coast. They're going to know Allison Millay is in town if I have to send them pictures and bios every day for a year.”

”You better have some breakfast. Posing under those hot fights will knock you out if you don't. Remember, you've had hardly any sleep. Couple that with not eating and holding poses in the glare of those hot spotlights and they'll have to carry you out frothing at the mouth.”

”You're right. I'll grab something to eat while I'm in the taxi. I won't have time to sit down to breakfast.”

I let Allison have the bathroom first because she was so late. I'd never make it to the office on time but, if Judy or Happy had anything to say about it they'd be sorry. I was in no mood to put up with their nonsense that day. I would only be half to three-quarters of an hour late. They had no right to make a big deal out of that. Every human being is a little late for work once in a while. Once in a while? Face it, Sloane, I told myself, you've been late so often in the six months you've worked there that the elevator operators probably think you're due at work sometime around eleven. So what? Just let one of them say anything today and I'll make them wish that they had stayed in bed. With my voice, I can make almost any line sound like an impeachment proclamation if I'm careful of my delivery.

Allison finished was.h.i.+ng and was standing before the bathroom sink, putting layers of greasy makeup over the dark circles around her eyes and on the pink and blue blemishes around her mouth, the ones I had put there. She was looking at her reflection in the mirror as if she saw there some sort of hag. I should look half as ugly as she.

I got into the shower while she was making with the paint and took a quick one. Allison was combing her hair when I came out. She must have seen my reflection in the mirror because all of a sudden she whirled around toward me.

”Sloane, baby, did I do that? You look like you've been through the wars. You're covered with bruises. How did you get a black-and-blue mark there?”

”Don't tell me you've forgotten last night?” I was on the verge of tears. It would've been too much if Allison had been like those drunks Banner, Perry Matthews and Herb Talman... if her pa.s.sion had come from a bottle and was a thing that meant no more to her than a hangover the next day.

”I remember what I felt last night. My emotions, most of the action and that it was divine. The exact continuity of events is a little mixed up in my mind. I do know that we were both pretty frenzied and that things were done by both of us last night that we'd never gone in for before. As I recall, it seems to me that we made love all over this apartment. However, I don't remember the exact sequence of events. No, I couldn't give a detailed plot outline of last night. Is that important?”

”No, of course not. I don't think I could either. There is one thing that will bother me if I don't ask about it now, though. Last night, when we started making love, you know, when you danced to the phonograph music... well, what happened after that worries me. You were sort of, well, hard like. I'm not referring just to your actions. There was a lack of your usual loving warmth and tenderness. I'm talking about an emotional quality that wasn't there. It was somewhat like the difference between love and l.u.s.t.”

Allison breathed a deep sigh and bit down on her lower lip. ”I know. I'm always that way. When I'm hurt, I withdraw. Because of the way I feel about you I couldn't just keep away from you. Instead, something inside me shut off. I suppose you've got those bruises because, and I a.s.sure you I wasn't conscious of it, I wanted to hit back at you for hurting me so much.”

I had been standing like some kind of idiot with the sopping wet towel held before me, dripping puddles onto the floor. I started to speak but a gurgling croak came out... I hadn't remembered to close my mouth before speaking, it had been agape all through Allison's reply.

”Baby,” I finally managed, ”I don't know what I did but if I hurt you, I'm sorry, genuinely so. But I can't imagine what I did wrong.”

”You didn't give me your decision about coming to California with me. It was our last night together and I expected you to say something. Even if you had said no, it would have been kinder than not saying anything. You acted as if whether you came with me or not was an unimportant matter. I wasn't going to force you to put anything into words. I've got a little pride left. Not much, I admit, but enough to keep me from humiliating myself any more than I had already. I suppose your silence meant that you've decided not to go to the Coast. Is that right?”

”Just a little old minute. I mean no such thing. What's the rush? The Singer Show isn't leaving for two more weeks. I could get plane reservations by calling in a week in advance. It's a big decision. I wanted as much time as possible to think it over. I didn't think you'd mind if I didn't let you know until next week. What's this bit about last night being our last night together. Why, for G.o.d's sake?”

”Because of yesterday's new development. I got in touch with you just as soon as I knew about it myself.” Allison must have seen the complete bewilderment on my face because she looked at me incredulously and asked, ”You got my message, didn't you?”

”What message?”

”The one I asked Judy to give you. I called while you were out to lunch. I was going to be busy the rest of the afternoon and couldn't call back so I dictated a message for you to Judy. She said she'd give it to you as soon as you came back to the office. I made everything clear in that message. That's why your actings if everything was just the same hurt me so much.”

”Allison, I swear to you, Judy didn't give me any message yesterday. She didn't even tell me you had called.” d.a.m.n that freak Judy! That wasn't the first time she had ”forgotten” to tell me about personal calls that had come in for me when I was away from my desk. Don't tell me her memory had been bad. If anyone called Happy, Judy would remember it all right. She could be dying and she'd gasp it out with her last breath. She didn't have the gumption to tell me she didn't like my getting personal calls at the office so she let me miss about half the calls she answered for me. I guess I was supposed to interpret this to mean that I shouldn't use the phone except for business. I knew what she was getting at but I hadn't let it stop me. The messages I hadn't gotten probably weren't all that important. If someone urgently needed to talk to me, they'd call back. But this time Judy had gone too far. This was being malicious, not just petty. ”It's the truth, Allison. This is the first I've heard of your calling the office yesterday.”

She collapsed against the sink, weak with laughter. ”It's too incredible,” she gasped. ”I thought things like this only happened in Restoration comedies. The crucial message that goes astray and the ensuing farce scene where the boy and girl meet and insult each other because they don't know what's happened and each of them is talking about something different. Oh-oh, this is too rich. Somebody ought to have said that they'd never darken the other's door again. That's all we would have needed to make this period piece complete.” She broke up in helpless laughter again.

I waited until she had subsided to giggles before asking, ”Just what was it you asked Judy to tell me?”

”I called you right away because the Crystal soap people want me to start filming those spot commercials Monday of next week. That means that I've got to fly out to the Coast in four days. No, three days. It was four yesterday. Anyway, they're going to keep me busy for the two weeks until the Singer Show arrives and I have to start rehearsing for that. I won't have a chance to come back to New York.

When I leave a few days from now it'll be for good. At least, for the next three years. So, you understand now why last night was the last one I could spend with you? I have only three days and nights to do a mountain of packing, close out my bank account, say goodbye to all my friends, buy a load of new clothes, return the books and records I've borrowed from friends, take care of ten thousand business matters. I'm going to be too busy to blow my nose for the next three days. Coming here last night was allowing myself a luxury which I really couldn't afford. Now, do you understand why I was hurt? Remember, I had no idea that you didn't know it was our final chance to be alone.”

”Allison, now that I know, I wouldn't have blamed you if you had told me to go to h.e.l.l in a wheelbarrow.”

”Thank the Lord I didn't do something like that. Then we would never have straightened this out.”

”Yeah. Well, frankly I'm so taken off guard by this that I don't know what to say. Would you hate me very much if I didn't let you know until tonight? I could call or maybe come over and help you with your packing.”

”It's all right, darling,” Allison said. ”I'll wait for your call tonight. In the meantime, I'll be praying to every G.o.d, saint, angel, prophet and holy man I can think of from every religion known to me that you will be on the plane to California with me. Look out the office windows during the day. If you see a girl doing what looks like a demoniac mazurka around one of the trees in Central Park, it'll be me. I think I'll try invoking the Druid deities too, I'm afraid to leave anything out.”

CHAPTER 12.

I finally got to the office a few minutes before eleven. Happy was giving dictation to Judy in his office. They both looked up as I got off the elevator. I stared down anything they were about to say. There was blood in my eye that morning, I tell you. To rub things in a little more, I disappeared into the john for ten more minutes. By the time I finally sat down at my desk Judy was ready to have apoplexy.

She brought some work out for me to do and lingered in my office, waiting for me to give some excuse for my tardiness. I didn't say a word. Instead, I pointedly got out an ebony and silver cigarette holder that I had never before used. It was a real cla.s.sy thing that a client had given me, six inches long and mucho impressive. I stuck a cigarette into it, lighted it and waved the thing around affectedly. Hip Judy was not but she got my message that time. She went back to her own office like a whipped puppy.