Part 26 (1/2)

It was rather late that night when Weston and Grenfell sat smoking beside the dying fire. The breeze that came off the lake was colder than usual, and the rest of the party had retired indoors, but one window of the little wooden house stood open, and Miss Kinnaird's voice drifted softly out of it. She was evidently singing a selection from an opera. Grenfell, who lay with his back against one of the hearth-logs, appeared to be listening critically.

”It's pretty and nothing more,” he said. ”That girl's too diffuse--she spreads herself. She might have painted if she'd been poor; though that's not a sure thing either.”

”Why isn't it?” asked Weston, who had, however, no great interest in the matter.

”She has too level a head,” Grenfell said. ”It's as fatal in art as it is in some professions. You have to concentrate, hang on to the one thing, and give yourself to it. Miss Kinnaird couldn't do that. She must stop and count the cost. To make anything of this life one now and then must shut one's eyes to that. There generally has to be a sacrifice.”

He broke off, and looked at his companion rather curiously.

”The other girl could make it. She wouldn't ask whether it were worth while.”

Weston was a trifle startled. He had that very day seen something in Ida Stirling's eyes that seemed to bear out what his comrade suggested. It had been there for only a moment, which he felt might have been fateful to both of them, and he knew that it was beyond his power to a.n.a.lyze all the qualities that the look had suggested. It had, however, hinted at a courage sufficient to set at defiance conventions and the opinions of her friends, and at the capacity to make a costly sacrifice.

”You seem sure of that?”

”Well,” said Grenfell, reflectively, ”I think I am. You see in one or two respects I'm like Miss Stirling.”

”You like Miss Stirling!”

There was an indignant protest in Weston's voice which brought a twinkle into Grenfell's watery eyes.

”Just so,” he said. ”When I know what I want the most, I set about getting it. I guess that's sense--sense that's way beyond prudence.

What one wants is, in a general way, what one likes, which is a very different thing from what's good for one. It's very seldom that one finds the latter nice. Get these distinctions?”

”I can't see the drift of them,” said Weston, impatiently.

”It may strike you as we proceed. If you stop to consider whether it's judicious to reach out for the thing you want, you generally end by not getting it or anything else. Isn't it better to clutch with courage, even if you have to face the cost?”

”I'm not sure,” said Weston, dryly. ”Is it quite impossible to like a thing it is desirable that you should have?”

”One doesn't often like it,” explained Grenfell, with a grin. ”Even when one does, the same principle applies. As a rule, one can't get it without a sacrifice.”

”That's the principle you acted on?”

Grenfell spread out his hands.

”I guess it is,” he said. ”In my case the thing I wanted wasn't good for me. I had to choose between my profession and whisky, and I did.

Anyway, I've had the whisky.”

Weston sat thoughtfully silent a minute or two. It seemed to him that while the result of the course his comrade advocated might well prove to be disastrous, as it had certainly done in his particular case, there was a warranty for it. If it were true that practically nothing could be obtained without cost, it was clear that the excess of prudence which shrank from incurring the latter could lead only to aridity of life. The thoughtless courage which s.n.a.t.c.hed at what was offered seemed a much more fruitful thing, though one might afterward bear the smart as well as enjoy the sweet. To accomplish or obtain anything one must at least face a risk. He remembered how, when he clung hesitating to the slippery rock, Ida Stirling had bidden him jump. He was, however, not a moralist, but a man with a simple code which, a few hours ago, had proved singularly difficult to adhere to.

He had then seen something in Ida Stirling's eyes that set his nerves tingling, but he could not take advantage of the momentary reaction of relief at his escape. He wondered, though, why Grenfell had spoken as he had, until the latter turned to him again.

”You mentioned that you nearly pulled Miss Stirling in when she held out that rod,” he said. ”You didn't notice that she showed any signs of letting it go?”

”I don't think she did.”

”You don't think so!” laughed Grenfell. ”That girl would have gone right down the fall before she let you go. She's the kind that sees things through. I wonder whether she said anything in particular afterward?”

Weston's face hardened as he looked at him out of half-closed eyes.