Volume Iii Part 9 (1/2)
”The cases are totally dissimilar,” laughed Amy. ”But what did Mr.
Linchmore say? Was he glad to see you?”
”Yes: and took me home to dine with his wife.”
”Mrs. Linchmore! How is she.”
”Much the same as ever; just as haughty and hard-looking.”
”Hard-looking? I never thought her that.”
”My wife always has a pleasant thought for everybody,” returned Vavasour proudly; ”but beautiful as Mrs. Linchmore undoubtedly is, there is a great want of softness in the expression of her face.”
”She treated me well, and I had no reason to--to find fault with her.”
There was a little hesitation, as if the heart did not quite keep pace with the words. Perhaps her husband noticed it, for he looked away ere he spoke again, as if not quite sure that what he had to say next would please her.
”I am glad it was so, as Linchmore asked us to go and stay at Brampton for a time.”
Amy started visibly.
”But you refused,” she said hastily.
”I did at first, but he would take no refusal.”
”You did not promise to go, Robert? Oh, I hope you did not!”
”I could not well refuse. Nay, do not look so sad, Amy; rather than that, you shall write a refusal at once. We will not go, dearest.”
And Amy would have given worlds not to; but did not like giving an untruthful reason as the motive for staying away; still, how else could she shape her refusal, or excuse herself to her husband. She dared not tell him that revisiting old scenes, the old familiar walk and rooms, would recall by-gone memories afresh in her heart--another's words!
another's looks! No, she could not tell him that; yet as she sat with her hand in his and looked into his face how she longed to open her heart and tell him all! all of that bitter, never-to-be-forgotten past.
And yet she reasoned again as she had reasoned once before, against the whisper of her heart, and her mother's better judgment, that it could do no good, but only pain and grieve her husband to think that she, his wife, had ever cared for, or even thought of another; and she sighed as these sad recollections one by one came into her heart.
”Why do you sigh Amy?” asked her husband.
Alas! the question came too late; her resolve had been made and taken.
She sat silent, though she would have given worlds to have been able to throw her arms round his neck and tell him all.
Robert drew her fondly and tenderly towards him. ”As my wife, Amy,” he said, ”none shall ever dare whisper a word or even breathe a thought that can reflect upon your former life at Brampton. Have no fear, little one, but trust in me.”
He had misinterpreted her silence, and thought the repugnance she felt at going back to Brampton was caused by pride. Well, perhaps it was best so.
”We will go, Robert,” she whispered tremblingly, while the words she ought to have spoken remained unsaid, and with her husband and little Bertie she went to Brampton, simply because she saw no help for it.
It was one of those things that must be, and she nerved her heart to brave it.
CHAPTER VII
THE FIRST DOUBT.