Part 2 (1/2)
”Well, I will go; but thou must not be present,” she said. ”Stay at the door, armed with thy dagger. If I cry out, enter and kill the man.”
Forgetting all but his art, Poussin clasped her in his arms.
”He loves me no longer!” thought Gillette, when she was once more alone.
She regretted her promise. But before long she fell a prey to an anguish far more cruel than her regret; and she struggled vainly to drive forth a terrible fear which forced its way into her mind. She felt that she loved him less as the suspicion rose in her heart that he was less worthy than she had thought him.
CHAPTER II
Three months after the first meeting of Porbus and Poussin, the former went to see Maitre Frenhofer. He found the old man a prey to one of those deep, self-developed discouragements, whose cause, if we are to believe the mathematicians of health, lies in a bad digestion, in the wind, in the weather, in some swelling of the intestines, or else, according to casuists, in the imperfections of our moral nature; the fact being that the good man was simply worn out by the effort to complete his mysterious picture. He was seated languidly in a large oaken chair of vast dimensions covered with black leather; and without changing his melancholy att.i.tude he cast on Porbus the distant glance of a man sunk in absolute dejection.
”Well, maitre,” said Porbus, ”was the distant ultra-marine, for which you journeyed to Brussels, worthless? Are you unable to grind a new white? Is the oil bad, or the brushes restive?”
”Alas!” cried the old man, ”I thought for one moment that my work was accomplished; but I must have deceived myself in some of the details. I shall have no peace until I clear up my doubts. I am about to travel; I go to Turkey, Asia, Greece, in search of models. I must compare my picture with various types of Nature. It may be that I have up _there_,”
he added, letting a smile of satisfaction flicker on his lip, ”Nature herself. At times I am half afraid that a brush may wake this woman, and that she will disappear from sight.”
He rose suddenly, as if to depart at once. ”Wait,” exclaimed Porbus.
”I have come in time to spare you the costs and fatigues of such a journey.”
”How so?” asked Frenhofer, surprised.
”Young Poussin is beloved by a woman whose incomparable beauty is without imperfection. But, my dear master, if he consents to lend her to you, at least you must let us see your picture.”
The old man remained standing, motionless, in a state bordering on stupefaction. ”What!” he at last exclaimed, mournfully. ”Show my creature, my spouse?--tear off the veil with which I have chastely hidden my joy? It would be prost.i.tution! For ten years I have lived with this woman; she is mine, mine alone! she loves me! Has she not smiled upon me as, touch by touch, I painted her? She has a soul,--the soul with which I endowed her. She would blush if other eyes than mine beheld her. Let her be seen?--where is the husband, the lover, so debased as to lend his wife to dishonor? When you paint a picture for the court you do not put your whole soul into it; you sell to courtiers your tricked-out lay-figures. My painting is not a picture; it is a sentiment, a pa.s.sion!
Born in my atelier, she must remain a virgin there. She shall not leave it unclothed. Poesy and women give themselves bare, like truth, to lovers only. Have we the model of Raphael, the Angelica of Ariosto, the Beatrice of Dante? No, we see but their semblance. Well, the work which I keep hidden behind bolts and bars is an exception to all other art. It is not a canvas; it is a woman,--a woman with whom I weep and laugh and think and talk. Would you have me resign the joy of ten years, as I might throw away a worn-out doublet? Shall I, in a moment, cease to be father, lover, creator?--this woman is not a creature; she is my creation. Bring your young man; I will give him my treasures,--paintings of Correggio, Michael-Angelo, t.i.tian; I will kiss the print of his feet in the dust,--but make him my rival? Shame upon me! Ha! I am more a lover than I am a painter. I shall have the strength to burn my Nut-girl ere I render my last sigh; but suffer her to endure the glance of a man, a young man, a painter?--No, no! I would kill on the morrow the man who polluted her with a look! I would kill you,--you, my friend,--if you did not wors.h.i.+p her on your knees; and think you I would submit my idol to the cold eyes and stupid criticisms of fools? Ah, love is a mystery! its life is in the depths of the soul; it dies when a man says, even to his friend, Here is she whom I love.”
The old man seemed to renew his youth; his eyes had the brilliancy and fire of life, his pale cheeks blushed a vivid red, his hands trembled.
Porbus, amazed by the pa.s.sionate violence with which he uttered these words, knew not how to answer a feeling so novel and yet so profound.
Was the old man under the thraldom of an artist's fancy? Or did these ideas flow from the unspeakable fanaticism produced at times in every mind by the long gestation of a n.o.ble work? Was it possible to bargain with this strange and whimsical being?
Filled with such thoughts, Porbus said to the old man, ”Is it not woman for woman? Poussin lends his mistress to your eyes.”
”What sort of mistress is that?” cried Frenhofer. ”She will betray him sooner or later. Mine will be to me forever faithful.”
”Well,” returned Porbus, ”then let us say no more. But before you find, even in Asia, a woman as beautiful, as perfect, as the one I speak of, you may be dead, and your picture forever unfinished.”
”Oh, it is finished!” said Frenhofer. ”Whoever sees it will find a woman lying on a velvet bed, beneath curtains; perfumes are exhaling from a golden tripod by her side: he will be tempted to take the ta.s.sels of the cord that holds back the curtain; he will think he sees the bosom of Catherine Lescaut,--a model called the Beautiful Nut-girl; he will see it rise and fall with the movement of her breathing. Yet--I wish I could be sure--”
”Go to Asia, then,” said Porbus hastily, fancying he saw some hesitation in the old man's eye.
Porbus made a few steps towards the door of the room. At this moment Gillette and Nicolas Poussin reached the entrance of the house. As the young girl was about to enter, she dropped the arm of her lover and shrank back as if overcome by a presentiment. ”What am I doing here?”
she said to Poussin, in a deep voice, looking at him fixedly.
”Gillette, I leave you mistress of your actions; I will obey your will.
You are my conscience, my glory. Come home; I shall be happy, perhaps, if you, yourself--”
”Have I a self when you speak thus to me? Oh, no! I am but a child.