Chapter 5 (2/2)

Perhaps Gao Fei’s parents could no longer endure my strange actions, so they made a call to Gao Fei.

The moment Gao Fei entered the house, his anger was palpable.

I wanted to say, you're here just in time; Gao Fei, let us sit together as one family.

But the words had not even left my mouth when I was already dragged out by him.

That's right, not led, but dragged. I was dragged out. He shoved me into the car, my head landing heavily on the seats.

Before I came to my senses, Gao Fei had already started the car. With a roar of the engines, the car sped away.

He said, 'He Yujin, are you crazy?'

'I'm not crazy.' I touched the back of my head. It hurt. To begin with, my head really cannot endure any further trauma, Gao Fei, you jerk.

'Then why did you disturb my parents without reason?' He said as he turned to glare at me, his eyes filled with red.

From my memories, Gao Fei had never acted in such a manner before. He had always been a scholarly and reserved man, one who would never have raised a hand against a woman. Even if he hated me, he would never have harmed me, whether in the open or otherwise.

But today, I had crossed the line, breaking even my own record.

'I didn't disturb them. Gao Fei, I like them,' I explained.

When Gao Fei heard the words 'I like them', he clenched his jaw. Coldly, he said, 'He Yujin, I really feel sorry for the people you love. If everyone were like you, then all the love within the world would become a monstrosity. Do you know exactly how heavy a price the people you love have to pay?!' His voice was thunderous, like a dangerous lion in the throes of fury.

I bit my lips. I did not have a word to defend myself with.

Because Gao Fei was right.

Because of me, that year, Gao Fei's parents had been kidnapped. Their kidnapping had not gone smoothly. As they attempted to escape, my father-in-law had fallen, and this fall had shattered the bones of his leg, causing him to be bound to a wheelchair even to this date.

I was guilty, and even till now, the guilt continued to eat away at my heart. Tonight, I held his leg within my hands, and this was also the first time I had touched it. His leg had long degenerated, the nerves unsensing, the muscles around it shrivelled. His leg was crooked and bent, just like the bound feet of women in the ancient days or the twisted roots of an old, withered tree.

I knew that my crimes could not be forgiven. I knew that I did not deserve forgiveness.

But I truly did not mean them.

I had never expected that things would turn out this way.

'Gao Fei, I did not mean for those things to happen.'

'Yes, you did not mean them!!! But they are still afraid of you, aren't they? I am also trying my best to prevent you from coming into contact with them, but what is wrong with you today? Why did you appear on their doorstep without rhyme or reason? Don't you know how to think? Or were you always so ignorant?'

I did not know what to say. As I sat in the car next to Gao Fei, my vision started to blur, my head heavy.

I wanted to say, I'm sorry, Gao Fei, I'm really, really sorry. I'm sorry towards you and your family.

In front of him, I had never been stingy with my apologies, but as I thought of myself at this moment, I could not help the overwhelming helplessness which swelled within me.

My days were numbered, but the man who I finally succeeded in marrying after resorting to the most abhorrent and unforgivable methods still did not love me. No, putting aside love, he did not even possess a silver of the affection any man would have towards a woman.

He hated me to his very bones, but I loved him, and my love was no less than his hate, for my love was carved into my very soul. I loved him more than I loved myself, so I tried my best to close the distance with his family members. All I wanted was for his parents to think that they were just as blessed as all other parents, for they also had a dutiful daughter-in-law.

In return, what I received were Gao Fei's rebukes by my ears, accompanying the splitting pain in my head. I wanted to say these, but my I could not help the exhaustion within me.

As I clung onto the last vestiges of consciousness, I heard myself whisper, 'Gao Fei, don't scold me in this way. I'm scared that you will regret it in the future!'