Part 62 (1/2)

As Hadria had foretold, she commenced the attack on herself as soon as Henriette had departed, and all night long, the stormy inner debate was kept up. Her mind never wavered, but her heart was rebellious. Hubert deserved to pay for his conduct; but if we all had to pay for our conduct to the uttermost farthing, that would be hard, if just. If Hadria a.s.sumed the burden of Hubert's debt, it would mean what M.

Jouffroy had pointed out. Hubert's suffering would be only on account of offended public opinion; hers--but then her parents would suffer as well as Hubert. Round and round went the thoughts, like vast wheels, and when towards morning, she dozed off a little, the wheels were still turning in a vague, weary way, and as they turned, the life seemed to be crushed gradually out of the sleeper.

Jouffroy came to enquire whether the decision had been made. He was in a state of great excitement. He gave fervent thanks that Hadria had stood firm.

”You do not forget my words, Madame?”

”I shall never forget them, Monsieur.”

Henriette discreetly forbore to say anything further on the subject of dispute. She waited, hopefully.

”Hubert has been troubled about the money that your father set apart, on your marriage, as a contribution to the household expenses,” she said, one morning. ”Your father did not place it all in your name.”

”I know,” said Hadria. ”It is tied up, in some way, for the use of the family. I have a small sum only in my own control.”

”Hubert is now leaving half of it to acc.u.mulate. The other half has still to go towards the expenses at the Red House. I suppose you approve?”

”Certainly,” said Hadria. ”My father designed it for that purpose.”

”But Hubert feared you might be running short of money, and wished to send you some; but the trustees say it is against the conditions of the trust.”

”So I suppose.”

”I wanted you to know about it, that is all,” said Henriette. ”Also, I should like to say that though Hubert does not feel that he can ask you to return to the Red House, after what has happened--he cannot risk your refusing--yet I take it on myself to tell you, that he would only be too glad if you would go back.”

”Thank you, I understand.”

Next morning, Henriette came with a letter in her hand.

”Bad news!” Hadria exclaimed.

The letter announced the failure of the Company. It was the final blow.

Dunaghee would have to be given up. Mrs. Fullerton's settlement was all that she and her husband would now have to live upon.

Hadria sat gazing at the letter, with a dazed expression. Almost before the full significance of the calamity had been realized, a telegram arrived, announcing that Mrs. Fullerton had fallen dangerously ill.

The rest of that day was spent in packing, writing notes, settling accounts, and preparing for departure.

”When--how are you going?” cried Madame Vauchelet, in dismay.

”By the night boat, by the night boat,” Hadria replied hurriedly, as if the hurry of her speech would quicken her arrival in England.

The great arches of the station which had appealed to her imagination, at the moment of arrival, swept upward, hard and grey, in the callous blue light. Hadria breathed deep. Was she the same person who had arrived that night, with every nerve thrilled with hope and resolve? Ah!

there had been so much to learn, and the time had been so short.

Starting with her present additional experience, she could have managed so much better. But of what use to think of that? How different the homeward journey from the intoxicating outward flight, in the heyday of the spring!

What did that telegram mean? _Ill; dangerously, dangerously._ The words seemed to be repeated cruelly, insistently, by the jogging of the train and the rumble of the wheels. The anxiety gnawed on, rising at times into terror, dulling again to a steady ache. And then remorse began to fit a long-pointed fang into a sensitive spot in her heart. In vain to resist. It was securely placed. Let reason hold her peace.