Part 32 (1/2)

Hadria's face grew set and defiant.

”They represent to me the insult of society--my own private and particular insult, the tribute exacted of my womanhood. It is through them that I am to be subdued and humbled. Just once in a way, however, the thing does not quite 'come off.'”

”What has set you on edge so, I wonder.”

”People, traditions, unimpeachable sentiments.”

”_Yours_ are not unimpeachable at any rate!” Valeria cried laughing.

”_Caterina_ is an angel compared with you, and yet my publisher has his doubts about her.”

”_Caterina_ would do as I do, I know,” said Hadria. ”Those who are looked at askance by the world appeal to my instincts. I shall be able to teach this child, perhaps, to strike a blow at the system which sent her mother to a dishonoured grave, while it leaves the man for whose sake she risked all this, in peace and the odour of sanct.i.ty.”

Time seemed to be marked, in the sleepy village, by the baby's growth.

Valeria, who thought she was fond of babies, used to accompany Hadria on her visits to the cottage, but she treated the infant so much as if it had been a guinea-pig or a rabbit that the nurse was indignant.

The weeks pa.s.sed in rapid monotony, filled with detail and leaving no mark behind them, no sign of movement or progress. The cares of the house, the children, left only limited time for walking, reading, correspondence, and such music as could be wrung out of a crowded day.

An effort on Hadria's part, to make serious use of her musical talent had been frustrated. But a pathetic, unquenchable hope always survived that presently, when this or that corner had been turned, this or that difficulty overcome, conditions would be conquered and opportunity arrive. Not yet had she resigned her belief that the most hara.s.sing and wearying and unceasing business that a human being can undertake, is compatible with the stupendous labour and the unbounded claims of an artist's career. The details of practical life and petty duties sprouted up at every step. If they were put aside, even for a moment, the wheels of daily existence became clogged and then all opportunity was over.

Hope had begun to alternate with a fear lest that evasive corner should never be turned, that little crop of interruptions never cease to turn up. And yet it was so foolish. Each obstacle in itself was paltry. It was their number that overcame one, as the tiny arrows of the Lilliputs overcame Gulliver.

One of Hadria's best friends in Craddock Dene was Joseph Fleming, who had become very intimate at the Red House during the last year or two.

Hadria used to tire of the necessity to be apparently rational (such was her own version), and found it a relief to talk nonsense, just as she pleased, to Joseph Fleming, who never objected or took offence, if he occasionally looked surprised. Other men might have thought she was laughing at them, but Joseph made no such mistake when Mrs. Temperley broke out, as she did now and then, in fantastic fas.h.i.+on.

She was standing, one morning, on the little bridge over the stream that ran at a distance of a few hundred yards from the Red House. The two boys were bespattering themselves in the meadow below, by the water's verge. They called up at intervals to their mother the announcement of some new discovery of flower or insect.

Watching the stream sweeping through the bridge, she seemed the centre of a charming domestic scene to Joseph Fleming, who chanced to pa.s.s by with his dogs. He addressed himself to her maternal feelings by remarking what handsome and clever boys they were.

”Handsome and clever?” she repeated. ”Is _that_ all you can say, Mr.

Fleming? When you set about it, I think you might provide a little better food for one's parental sentiment. I suppose you will go and tell Mrs. Walker that _her_ dozen and a half are all handsome and clever too!”

”Not so handsome and clever as yours,” replied Mr. Fleming, a little aghast at this ravenous maternal vanity.

”What wretched poverty of expression!” Hadria complained. ”I ask for bread, and truly you give me a stone.”

Joseph Fleming eyed his companion askance. ”I--I admire your boys immensely, as you know,” he said.

”Not enough, not enough.”

”What can I say more?”

”A mother has to find in her children all that she can hope to find in life, and she naturally desires to make the most of them, don't you see?”

”Ah! yes, quite so,” said Joseph dubiously.

”n.o.body, I suppose, likes to be commonplace all round; one must have some poetry somewhere--so most women idealize their children, and if other people won't help them in the effort, don't you see? it is most discouraging.”

”Are you chaffing, or what?” Joseph enquired.

”No, indeed; I am perilously serious.”