Part 26 (1/2)

The vehemence in Frances Catherine's voice told Judith she wasn't exaggerating her misery. ”Do you miss your father and your brothers?”

”Oh, yes,” she answered. ”All the time.”

”Then ask Patrick to go and fetch them for a nice long visitation.”

Frances Catherine shook her head. ”I can't ask for anything more,” she whispered. ”We had to go to the council to get permission for you to come here.”

With Judith's prodding, she explained all about the council's power. She told Judith how Iain had interfered when the oligarchy was getting ready to deny her request, and how frightened she'd been during the entire ordeal.

”I don't understand why you would have to go through the council to get permission,” Judith remarked. ”Even though I'm English, I still don't see the need to have their approval.”

”Most of the Maitlands have good reason to dislike the English,” Frances Catherine explained. ”They've lost family and friends in battles against the English. They hate your King John, too.”

Judith lifted her shoulders in a shrug. ” 'Tis the truth most of the barons in England dislike the king.” She resisted the urge to make the sign of the cross so she wouldn't burn in purgatory for defaming her overlord. ”He's self-serving and has made some terrible mistakes, at least that's what Uncle Herbert tells me.”

”Did you know your king was pledged to marry a Scot and then changed his mind?”

”I hadn't heard, but I'm not surprised. Frances Catherine, what did you mean when you said you couldn't ask Patrick for anything more? Why can't he fetch your father?”

”The Maitlands don't like outsiders,” she answered. ”They don't like me either.”

She sounded like a child when she blurted out that remark. Judith thought that perhaps her delicate condition was the reason for her emotional turmoil. ”I'm just as certain everyone likes you.”

”I'm not making this up in my mind,” she argued. ”The women think I'm spoiled and accustomed to having my own way.”

”How do you know that?”

”One of the midwives told me so.” Tears started down Frances Catherine's cheeks. She wiped them away with the backs of her hands. ”I'm so scared inside. I've been scared for you, too. I knew it was selfish of me to ask you to come here.”

”I gave you my word years ago that I would come,” Judith reminded her. ”I would have been hurt if you hadn't sent for me. Don't talk such nonsense.”

”But the promise I made you give me... that was before I knew I'd end up here,” she stammered out. ”These people are so... cold. I worried they might offend you.”

Judith smiled. How like her friend to be so concerned about her well-being. ”Frances Catherine, have you always felt like this or did you begin to hate it here after you found out you were expecting?”

Her friend had to consider the question a long minute. ”I was happy at first, but it soon became clear to me I didn't fit in. I feel like an outsider. I've been married for over three years now and they still don't consider me a Maitland.”

”Why not?”

”Perhaps because I was raised on the border,” she answered. ”At least that might be part of their reasoning. Patrick was supposed to marry someone else. He hadn't offered for her, but it was a.s.sumed he would. Then he met me.”

”Have you discussed your unhappiness with Patrick?”

”I did mention it a few times,” she said. ”My unhappiness was very upsetting. My husband can't make the women like me. I don't want to die here. I wish Patrick would take me back to Papa before the birthing and stay with me until it's over.”

”You aren't going to die.” Judith nearly shouted that denial. ”After all the trouble and embarra.s.sment I've gone through, you d.a.m.n well better not die.”

Frances Catherine was comforted by the anger in her friend's voice. ”Tell me about the trouble you've gone through,” she demanded, her voice filled with enthusiasm.

”I've spoken to at least fifty midwives in the past two years, and I swear I've memorized every single word they've told me. Millicent was as determined as I was, of course, and she had servants scour the countryside looking for these women. I don't know what I would have done without her a.s.sistance.”