Part 12 (1/2)

”O no, papa. I felt for the moment as if I could get up if I liked. But I soon found that I hadn't any back or legs. O! what a plague I am to you!”

”On the contrary, you are the nicest plaything in the world, Connie. One always knows where to find you.”

She half laughed and half cried, and the two halves made a very bewitching whole.

”But,” I went on, ”I mean to try whether my dolly won't bear moving. One thing is clear, I can't go without it. Do you think you could be got on the sofa to-day without hurting you?”

”I am sure I could, papa. I feel better today than I have felt yet.

Mamma, do send for Susan, and get me up before dinner.”

When I went in after a couple of hours or so, I found her lying on the conch, propped up with pillows. She lay looking out of the window on the lawn at the back of the house. A smile hovered about her bloodless lips, and the blue of her eyes, though very gray, looked sunny. Her white face showed the whiter because her dark brown hair was all about it. We had had to cut her hair, but it had grown to her neck again.

”I have been trying to count the daisies on the lawn,” she said.

”What a sharp sight you must have, child!”

”I see them all as clear as if they were enamelled on that table before me.”

I was not so anxious to get rid of the daisies as some people are.

Neither did I keep the gra.s.s quite so close shaved.

”But,” she went on, ”I could not count them, for it gave me the fidgets in my feet.”

”You don't say so!” I exclaimed.

She looked at me with some surprise, but concluding that I was only making a little of my mild fun at her expense, she laughed.

”Yes. Isn't it a wonderful fact?” she said.

”It is a fact, my dear, that I feel ready to go on my knees and thank G.o.d for. I may be wrong, but I take it as a sign that you are beginning to recover a little. But we mustn't make too much of it, lest I should be mistaken,” I added, checking myself, for I feared exciting her too much.

But she lay very still; only the tears rose slowly and lay s.h.i.+mmering in her eyes. After about five minutes, during which we were both silent,--

”O papa!” she said, ”to think of ever walking out with you again, and feeling the wind on my face! I can hardly believe it possible.”

”It is so mild, I think you might have half that pleasure at once,” I answered..

And I opened the window, let the spring air gently move her hair for one moment, and then shut it again. Connie breathed deep, and said after a little pause,--

”I had no idea how delightful it was. To think that I have been in the way of breathing that every moment for so many years and never thought about it!”

”It is not always just like that in this climate. But I ought not to have made that remark when I wanted to make this other: that I suspect we shall find some day that the loss of the human paradise consists chiefly in the closing of the human eyes; that at least far more of it than people think remains about us still, only we are so filled with foolish desires and evil cares, that we cannot see or hear, cannot even smell or taste the pleasant things round about us. We have need to pray in regard to the right receiving of the things of the senses even, 'Lord, open thou our hearts to understand thy word;' for each of these things is as certainly a word of G.o.d as Jesus is the Word of G.o.d. He has made nothing in vain. All is for our teaching. Shall I tell you what such a breath of fresh air makes me think of?”

”It comes to me,” said Connie, ”like forgiveness when I was a little girl and was naughty. I used to feel just like that.”