Part 28 (1/2)

I take myself down the steps of The Manor, across the gravel to the DBS. Before I make it to the car, I hear the laughing of a certain acid tongued, pouty faced beast. I tense from top to toe and swivel on the gravel, only to find her stood at the top of the steps with Jesse.

'Okay, sweetie. See you later.' She reaches up and kisses his cheek. I heave. 'Hope to see you again, Ava.' she calls.

Her icy stare penetrates me as Jesse approaches and gives me my bag before taking my hand again. I'm put in the car, and as soon as the engine is started, my ears are invaded with Radiohead's Creep. I smile to myself. Yes, why I'm here, is a d.a.m.n good question.

Chapter 22.

I leave Jesse with a chaste kiss and a look of trepidation all over his stunning face. 'I'll call you.' I say casually, jumping out of his car. I can't get away quick enough. I shut the car door and hurry up the path to Kate's house. I don't look back, shutting the door swiftly behind me and sagging against it.

'Hey!' Kate appears at the top of the stairs with a towel wrapped around her. 'You okay?'

I can't plaster the fake smile on anymore. 'No,' I admit. I'm way past being okay.

She looks at me with a mixture of confusion and sympathy. 'Tea?'

I nod, peeling myself from the door. 'Please don't be too nice to me.' I warn. Tears are threatening, and I'm willing myself to keep them under control.

I knew this would happen. Not this soon, but this nasty aching heart business was inevitable. She smiles, knowingly, and jerks her head. I drag myself up the stairs, finding her in the kitchen making tea.

I collapse in one of the mismatching chairs. 'Has Sam gone?'

She spoons three sugars into her mug, and even though her back is turned away from me, I know she's grinning. 'Yeah.' she says, way too casually.

'Good night?'

She turns, narrowing her bright blues on me before she grins. 'The man's an animal!'

I scoff at her description of Sam. There's a certain someone else I could nail that descriptor to. 'Good?'

She pours boiling water into the mugs and adds milk. 'He's all right.' She shrugs. 'That's enough about me. Why did you leave this morning looking like you'd had a similar night to me, and return a few hours later looking like you've been slapped?' She takes a seat, handing me my tea.

I sigh. 'I'm not going to see him again.'

'Why?' she cries.

I look up at a shocked, pale face. Why is she so stunned by my declaration? 'Because Kate, without a shadow of a doubt, I'm going to get stung really nastily. He's hazardous.'

'How do you know that?' she asks incredulously.

Well, that's easy. 'He's a mature business man, way beyond rich and confident. I'm just a little play thing to him. He'll get bored, toss me away and move onto someone else.' I huff sarcastically. 'Trust me...there will not be a shortage of women throwing themselves at his feet. I've seen the reaction he draws, I've experienced it. He's incredibly fierce in the bedroom a and b.l.o.o.d.y good with it a and that tells me he's not short of s.e.xual conquests.' I draw breath, while Kate looks at me agape. 'He's a woman magnet, possibly a womaniser. I'm already getting a reaction from Sarah.' I slump back in my chair, grabbing my mug of tea.

'Who's Sarah?'

'A friend, the one who I thought was the girlfriend. She doesn't like me, and she's made it perfectly clear.'

'You're not seriously jumping s.h.i.+p because of a few b.i.t.c.hy words from a woman scorned? Tell her to f.u.c.k off!'

'No, it's not just that, although I really don't need claws digging in my back.'

She rolls her eyes. 'My friend, you're blind!'

'No I'm not. I'm sensible,' I defend myself. 'And you're bias.' I spit. She's made it perfectly obvious she likes Jesse, but why oh why, I don't know. 'Why do you like him so much?'

'I don't know.' She shrugs. 'There's just something about him, isn't there?'

'Yes, and it's dangerous.'

'No, it's the way he looks at you, like you're the centre of his universe of something.'

'Don't be stupid! I'm the centre of his s.e.x life.' I correct her, suddenly considering the fact that I could, quite possibly, be one of many women he's showing a good time to. The thought is painful and another reason to walk away while I'm still partly intact. Oh, who am I kidding? I'm already in pieces, but it's only going to get worse the longer I let this go on.

'Ava, you're the master of denial.' she scorns me lightly.

'I'm not in denial.'

'Yes, you are,' Kate states firmly. 'You've fallen in love with him. It's easy to see why.'

'I'm not in denial.' I affirm, because I don't know what else to say to that. Is it that obvious? I'm denying it all the way. It should make this painful process easier to bear. 'I'm going to lie down.' I push my chair away from behind my legs and it sc.r.a.ps along the wooden floor. I wince at the piercing sound. The hangover's back with a vengeance.

'Okay.' Kate sighs.

I leave her in the kitchen to retreat to the sanctuary of my room, flopping on the bed and pulling a pillow over my head. I hate to admit it, but that pouty b.i.t.c.h is right. I can't build my dreams of Jesse Ward. The thought is like a knife through my splitting heart.

I walk into the office for a fresh week, feeling anything but fresh. I didn't sleep a wink, and I'm under no illusion as to why that is.

'Morning, flower,' Patrick calls from his office. He sounds better.

'Hi.' I try to sound chirpy but fail miserably. I can't even muster up the strength to feign cheerfulness. I throw my bag by my desk and sit down to fire up my computer.

Within five seconds, my desk is screaming in protest as Patrick takes his usual pew. He looks much better as well.

'What's the state of play with Van Der Haus?' he asks. This will be a project that Patrick will keep a keen interest in.

I reach under my desk to retrieve the small box of material samples that I abandoned on Friday. 'These came on Friday,' I say, laying some on my desk. 'He's emailed me the specifics and sent the drawings over.'

Patrick flicks through the pile of swatches a all in neutral tones of beige and creams, some patterned, some not. 'They're a bit boring, aren't they?' he grunts disapprovingly.

'I don't think so,' I pull out a lovely, thick striped piece. 'Look.'

He turns his nose up. 'Not my cup of tea.'

'It doesn't have to be.' I remind him. He's not going to be buying a posh apartment in The Life Building. 'Mr Van Der Haus is back from Denmark today. He said he would call about a site visit. I'm going to crack on, if you don't mind.'

Patrick stands, and I perform my usual wince as the desk creaks. 'Yes, you carry on,' He eyes me suspiciously. 'Tell me to mind my own if you like, but you don't seem yourself. Is there anything the matter?'

'No, I'm fine, honestly.' I lie.