Part 24 (1/2)

”You distinctly said yesterday that it was a shame a man had to die for three dollars. How would you know how much the killer took from him? You couldn't unless you were the killer or the killer told you, right? So how do you know that?”

Cammayo stood like a marble statue.

Frank stepped forward. She pulled her ID. ”Do you remember my name?”

”No. I can't recall.”

”You know it,” Frank urged.

”I don't think I do.”

”Sure you do.” Frank lifted the plastic holder. ”Franco. Just like my daddy.”

She let that sink in while Cammayo read her face.

”I was there that night and matter of fact he did have three dollars. I know acause we'd just got groceries. The bill was sixteen and change. He paid with a twenty. Got three bucks back. Just like you said.” Frank stepped closer to the priest. She put her hand on his chest and he stiffened. She leaned into him, speaking softly. ”I know you got a heart in here. I know you lost your daddy. You and me, we both know how that feels. Know how I know you got a heart? Because you bring flowers to a dead man. A man dead thirty-six years. Only a man with a heart would do that.” She patted his chest. ”Not only did you lose your father, you lost a brother, too. And if Pablo was my brother, I'd do everything I could to protect him. And you've done that, Berto. But it's over. You did the best you could all this time and now it's over. You don't have to keep a secret for a dead man. I hate to say that, but you and I both know, being the junkie he was, Pablo's probably dead. You're lying for a dead man. Lying in front of your G.o.d and for what? How's he gonna feel about that come Judgment Day? Is he gonna be pleased with you, Berto?”

She plied his weakness with the tender family diminutive.

”I don't know much about G.o.d but even I gotta think he's not gonna be too happy with you. But it's not too late, right? You can come clean. To us, and more importantly, to yourself and your G.o.d. It's time, Berto. None of us are gettin' any younger. It's time to tell the truth and put the past behind us, to bury it and let it go. What happened that night, Berto? It's time to tell. You're safe now. We don't care what happened after the fact. All we care about is seeing this through. For thirty-six years, you, me, even the taxpayers of New York been carryin' this corpse around. Let's bury it. Right here. Right now. Let Pablo go with full honors. He deserved that. You deserve that. Tell us what happened that night, Berto.”

Cammayo broke away and turned his back to her.

Frank went around him. ”Go ahead,” she whispered the demand. ”Tell the truth. You've protected Pablo long enough. It was a good hard fight but it's over. You did your best. Now finish it. Cleanly and with grace. Truly. For G.o.d's sake.”

She could tell from the way Cammayo slowly wagged his head that he was breaking, that he was fighting the telling. And she knew that great secrets were hard to tell. The greater the secret, the fewer the words for it.

”It's okay,” Frank urged. ”It's not a secret anymore. It's time to let it go.”

When Cammayo spoke he was barely audible. ”He was sick. He needed to score. I was afraid he was going to wake everybody up and scare the little ones. He was my oldest brother. Pablo. You'd have had to known him before the dope. He was kind and funny and he took care of us. He'd discipline us when we needed it and he'd protect us when we needed that. And I guess it was too much for a boy. He shouldered all the responsibilities of a man and at some point it became too much for him. I can understand that. After he left it was my turn to bear the load. But I was older then. And I had G.o.d to turn to. Pablo never had that. All he had was that false G.o.d in the needle. I tried to get him off it. Sometimes he'd be clean for months at a time but he'd always go back to it. He was scared that night. Scared like I'd never seen him. He made me scared. He thought he'd killed a cop. He said he needed the money. He had to fix and get out of town. I scrounged up what I could for him and he left. I never saw him again. Never heard from him. I heard the talk next morning, and later, in the paper, there was a paragraph about a man that had been robbed and killed in the East Village that night. There was no suspect. Anyone with information was asked to contact the police.”

When he finally looked at Frank, the priest's eyes were wet. ”I couldn't do that. I fought with my conscience, but blood won. Pablo was my brother. I loved him. I couldn't betray him. All these years ... I've always wondered what happened to him. I think of him every time I visit your father's grave. It keeps me connected to him.”

Frank had heard enough. The urge to hurt Cammayo was a throbbing red pulse throughout her body. She stepped to Annie's ear. ”I'll be outside if you need me.”

”Yeah, sure.”

As Frank's hand hit the k.n.o.b, Cammayo pleaded, ”Forgive me.”

Frank stopped. She took a deep breath and held it. Felt it turn scarlet inside her. She walked out the door.

CHAPTER 41.

”You okay?”

Frank moved her head in the affirmative.

”I gotta bring him in for a statement.”

”You do that. I'll catch a taxi.”

Annie rubbed Frank's shoulder. ”I'll see you back at the apartment, okay?”

”Yeah.”

Frank walked away from Our Lady of the Angels. She walked blocks and blocks, ignoring taxis. She seethed. Pa.s.sing bars, she noticed each one, fully aware that what was inside them could dampen her fury into a dull and manageable anger. She kept walking. One foot in front of the other. Over and over she thought, he knew. All this time, he knew. The lying, hypocritical b.a.s.t.a.r.d knew. He knew.

The accusation became a chant. She walked, each step being the next thing to do. She reiterated her mantra, concentrating so brutally on Cammayo that she forgot the liquor stores and bars. By the time she walked her rage into a simmering, bruised anger, it was dusk. She had no idea where she was. Except on a corner. Near a bar.

Daley's Bar.

It sounded so welcome. The outside was brick, the door worn wood. Small signs in opaque windows blinked Bud and Open. A working-cla.s.s bar. She bet it was dim inside and smelled like centuries of beer. She imagined the sour, malty smell, the way the bartender would draw the beer from the tap, the thick gla.s.s against her lips, how the beer would bubble over her tongue in a sharp gush.

She pulled on the door handle and stepped inside. She was right. It was dim and smelled of generations of smoke and sweat and ale. Three men at the bar turned to stare. She walked in their direction. Her eyes tracked the bartender.

”What'll it be?” he asked.

She leaned into the smooth, slick wood. Rows of bottles beckoned. She considered each one. The bartender s.h.i.+fted his weight, sighed.

”Phone book,” she finally answered.

The bartender glared. He slapped the book on the bar and continued his conversation with the men.

Outside, Frank hailed a cab. The drive to Tribeca was short. Annie had the door open before Frank could turn her key in the lock.

”Where were you? I was gettin' worried.”

”Walking.”

Behind her Annie bolted the door. ”Walkin'? You walked here from Brooklyn?”

Frank sighed. ”I walked. I stopped. I took a cab.”

”Oh. You hungry? You must be starvin'. I bought pizza. It's in the oven. I'll get you a slice.”

Frank waved her off. ”I'm not hungry.”

”You sure? You had dinner?”

”No.”

”You should eat. I'll get you a slice.”

”I'm not hungry, Annie.”

”Forget hunger. You should eat anyway.”