Part 15 (2/2)

Chapter Eleven.

The lighthouse on Point Loma is a beautiful little picturesque building, small and white and perfect for weddings and wedding pictures. That was probably why it was cheap enough for the recording studio to spring for. The band would have the run of the grounds and even take a few shots inside the museum.

As we pulled up to the lighthouse, I couldn't quell the b.u.t.terflies flitting around in my stomach. I had no idea what to expect. I'd never shot a music video before. s.h.i.+t. Okay, maybe once. In third grade. For a school project.

I was doomed.

The whole way to the lighthouse Kent sat next to me and brooded. Or maybe he was thinking about bunnies. It was hard to tell with Kent sometimes, since it seemed like everything made him brood. Manny shotgunned Red Bull, trying to wake himself up, and Carter sat in the front seat again, although this time he couldn't seem to stop bouncing in his seat like a little kid.

I was going to kill him, I'd decided. How could he spring this on me? I should have known something was up, though. I mean, in hindsight Carter was just the sort of guy to pull a stunt like this.

When we arrived Sonya parked the van, a wheeling, dangerous maneuver that had me thankful that I had been either high or asleep during the drive down, and popped open the door. ”Ride's over, boys,” she said, and hopped out. The rest of us followed suit.

The smell of the ocean hit me, salty and vast, and I breathed deeply, trying to get my bearings. In the parking lot were a couple trailers already set up. People bustled around, carrying equipment and looking busy, and s.h.i.+t, I was already lost. I had no idea what to do. Someone trundled past hauling a huge camera on his shoulder. I stared at him, amazed anyone could carry such heavy equipment like it was a box of cotton b.a.l.l.s. He didn't even give me a second glance.

”Are you coming?” Carter called.

Whipping around, I realized the band was climbing into one of the trailers and I hurried to catch up. Unfortunately I was stopped, along with Sonya, at the entrance, by a girl who looked like she was just out of high school. ”You two are in wardrobe first,” she said, shooing us to the other end of the trailer where another door stood.

Sonya didn't say anything, merely whirled around and stomped off in her customary huff. I flashed the girl a smile of thanks but she didn't even look at me. She was already hustling the boys inside.

I followed Sonya through the other door and into the most claustrophobic s.p.a.ce I had ever seen.

Racks of clothes closed the trailer in on both sides, and a man who looked like he would be happier sucking t.u.r.ds looked up from his outfitting of another young woman and sighed.

”Find an outfit with your name,” he said, waving a hand. ”See if it fits.”

Sonya, clearly having done this before, moved to a rack of clothes and began to sort through them. Each outfit had clearly been coordinated beforehand and swaddled in clear plastic. Sonya pulled one off the hanger and moved to the back of the cramped room where she started taking her clothes off.

Jesus. I looked at the rack of clothes. There were three with my name on them. I had no idea what to do, so I closed my eyes, ran my hands through the plastic-swathed fabric, and picked one blindly and pulled it out.

A gray tank top, a dark blue fitted blouse. Ripped jeans, relaxed. A bag of accessories. Pressing my lips together, I checked the sizes and was surprised to find that they would probably fit. I'm not sure what I thought would happen, but I'd been certain that wardrobe wouldn't have anything that fitted me since I wasn't Hollywood skinny like Sonya. I had to hand it to t.u.r.d Sucking Wardrobe Guy-he knew his stuff if he'd been able to eyeball my sizes from photographs. Or maybe Kent or Carter had told him my sizes. Ugh.

I took the outfit and wandered back to the changing area. Sonya was already almost changed completely, wearing a dark brown dress with a floaty skirt with an uneven hemline and a tight, skimpy bodice with a row of white b.u.t.tons down the front. She looked amazing and I suddenly wished I'd picked out a dress, too, if there had been a dress there. But truthfully this outfit was more me. I hung it up and lifted the plastic up over the top before undressing quickly. I didn't want to show off my TV-fat body any more than I had to.

The tank top slipped easily over my head, and the jeans slithered nicely up my legs, but the fitted s.h.i.+rt was just not happening. I wasn't sure if I should try to b.u.t.ton it or not, and the mirror in front of me wasn't giving me a good perspective. All it did was show me how bad my skin was and how un-skinny my body happened to be. Why did I eat all those potato chips? The front wouldn't even close over my chest, and the arms were tight. I felt my face growing hot as I tried to maneuver in it, pulling a thick belt through the loops of the jeans and lifting my arms to loop the necklaces that came with the outfit over my head.

”Hmph.” t.u.r.d Sucking Wardrobe Guy stood right behind me and I gasped, turning. He stared at me in the outfit for a long moment, then reached out and began to tweak it. ”You have t.i.ts,” he said, as casually as someone might remark that it was raining. ”No wonder Carter likes you.”

I stared at him in shock as he turned and studied Sonya, who was messing with the neckline. ”You look fine,” he said.

She just grunted at him. ”I need some shoes.”

”Got you covered.” He reached behind her and pulled open a drawer. She turned, looked idly into it, and then pulled out a pair of chunky platforms. TSWG glanced at me. ”What size?” he asked.

”Um. Seven and a half?”

He reached in and pulled out a pair of pink Keds.

I stared at them.

”What?” he said. ”You think you can do better?”

I shook my head. ”No! I just... I could have bought those at, like, the mall. I just expected something more expensive.”

TSWG threw back his head and laughed. ”Oh, G.o.d!” he said. ”f.u.c.k no, what do you think wardrobe is? I'm not your personal shopper.”

I glared at him and s.n.a.t.c.hed the shoes from his hands. ”I didn't say you were.”

He still looked amused. ”It's not like this is some club video. Don't need anything greater than twenty bucks at a thrift shop.”

I wanted to ask him what thrift shops he'd been going to, because the ones I'd been to had all been t-s.h.i.+rts that you could have used as tents and old bridesmaids dresses in neon colors. I bent over and picked up my Chuck's. ”I couldn't wear these?” I said.

If anything, his face twisted up into an even sourer expression. ”Ugh,” was all he said, then flapped his hand. ”Go, go to makeup. Get out of here. Send the boys in.”

We exited the trailer. The whole thing couldn't have taken longer than fifteen minutes.

Sonya stomped around to the other side of the trailer and ripped the door open. ”Go get dressed!” she hollered inside and then stood to the side, her arms crossed over her chest, glaring at nothing in particular. Sonya seemed to run on rage. If her endless depths of hatred could have been plunged for fuel, we'd never have another crisis.

I fiddled with one of the rings on my finger-a huge lumpy thing that would never be practical in real life-and waited for the boys to come out. Finally, they did.

First came Carter. Carter was a good looking guy, but now his hair was done, his eyes lined with dark kohl, and his face almost-but not quite-made up to look natural. Manny was next. His wild mane of curls was even wilder now, and his eyes were also lined. He looked strangely handsome. He noticed me staring at him and flashed me a grin.

Then came Kent.

G.o.d, he looked amazing. Wild dark hair, half-tousled and held in place with hair spray, fell around his cut face. His skin, usually pale, was now luminous with make up, and his kohl rimmed eyes were smudged, giving him a messy, post-coital look that had me licking my lips before I knew what I was doing.

His eyes caught mine and he flicked his gaze up and down my body, and suddenly I was glad for the tight blouse thrown over the tank top. The wardrobe guy was right-I had t.i.ts, and with the way Kent's eyes settled on them, it seemed like not just Carter might like a girl with some curves on her. Dresses hung beautifully on girls like Sonya, but last I checked guys didn't give a s.h.i.+t about dresses.

Then he looked away and I was left breathless as Sonya swept past me into the makeup end of the trailer. Change places! I thought, somewhat giddily. It was now starting to sink in that Carter had decided I was going to be in the next music video for The Lonely Kings of Lifeless Things and once I stepped into the brightly lit mini-styling salon I felt the beginnings of a major freak out start up.

Sonya had already seated herself in one of the chairs and was staring sightlessly ahead as a woman immediately dissolved into a flurry of activity around her, applying foundation and powder with a rapidity I thought was only available to meth heads.

There was another woman standing there glaring at me. ”Move it!” she barked, as though I were holding up the line to the last helicopter out of Saigon. I jumped and did as I was told, settling into the chair in front of the mirror and catching my own gaze.

Immediately I wished I hadn't. Next to Sonya and the guys, I looked like a homeless person who'd accidentally wandered on set. This did not seem to faze the woman. She took one look at me, sighed, and immediately began to go to work on my hair.

Brushes flew. Hairspray filled the air. A flat iron flashed inches from my face. Picks and combs and all sorts of crazy implements and serums and goops that I didn't even know the words for were applied with expert dexterity to my hair, and after ten whirlwind minutes the stylist stepped back and changed places with the makeup artist. Meanwhile, I could only stare at the incredible transformation she had wrought.

I'd spent years trying to tame my hair. I'd done all sorts of s.h.i.+t to it, spent hours in the bathroom trying to figure out how to get the little kinky wave out of my bangs, whatever. I had spent years. And suddenly I now had rock star hair. Runway model hair. Beautiful hair.

”Holy s.h.i.+t,” I whispered.

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