Part 19 (1/2)

”I'm so sorry. Forgive me.” Mrs. Carnarvon's voice had lost its wonted levity. ”I saw that you were in trouble and followed. I knocked and I thought I heard you answer. What is it, Marie? May I ask? Can I do anything?”

Marian drew her down to the bed and buried her face in her lap. ”Oh, I feel so unclean,” she said. ”It was--Teddy. Would you believe it, Jessie, Teddy! I looked on him as a brother. And he showed me that he was not my friend--that he didn't even love me--that he--oh, I shall never forget the look in his eyes. He made me feel like a--like a _thing_.”

Mrs. Carnarvon smothered a smile. ”Of course Teddy's a brute,” she said.

”I thought you knew. He's a domesticated brute, like most of the men and some of the women. You'll have to get used to that.”

By refusing to fall in with her mood, Mrs. Carnarvon had gone far toward curing it. Marian stopped sobbing and presently said:

”Oh, I know all that. But I didn't expect it from Teddy--and toward me.

And--” she shuddered--”I was thinking, actually thinking of marrying him. I wish never to see him again. And he pretended to be my friend!”

”And he was, no doubt, until he got you on the brain in another way, in the way he calls love. There isn't any love that has friends.h.i.+p in it.”

”We must go away at once.”

”Unless Teddy saves us the trouble by going first, as I suspect he will.”

”Jessie, he hates me and--and--Mr. Howard.”

”So you talked to him about Howard again, did you?” Mrs. Carnarvon was indignant. ”You are old enough to know better, Marian. You carry frankness entirely too far. There is such a thing as truth running amuck.”

”He said he would crush Howard. And I believe he really meant it.”

”Teddy is a man who believes in revenges--or thinks he does. His father taught him to keep accounts in grievances, and no doubt he has opened an account with Howard. But don't be disturbed about it. His father would have insisted on balancing the account. Teddy will just keep on hating, but won't do anything. He's not underhanded.”

”He's everything that is vile and low.”

”You're quite mistaken, my dear. He's what they call a manly fellow--a little too masculine perhaps, but----”

A knock interrupted and Mrs. Carnarvon, answering it, took from the bell-boy a note for Marian who read it, then handed it to her. Mrs.

Carnarvon read: ”I apologise for the way I said what I did this evening, not for what I said. Because you had forgotten yourself, had played the traitor and the cheat was, perhaps, no excuse for my rudeness. You have fallen under an evil influence. I hope no harm will come to you, for I can't get over my feeling for you. But I have done my best and have not been able to save you. I am going away early in the morning.

”E. D.”

”Melodramatic, isn't it?” laughed Mrs. Carnarvon. ”So he's off. How furious Martha Fortescue and Ellen will be. But they'll go in pursuit, and they'll get him. A man is never so susceptible as when he's broken-hearted. Well, I must go. Good-night, dear. Don't mope and whine.

Take your punishment sensibly. You've learned something--if it's only not to tell one man how much you love another.”

”I think I'll go abroad with Aunt Retta next month.”

”A good idea--you'll forget both these men. Good-night.”

”Good-night,” answered Marian dolefully, expecting to resume her thoughts of Danvers. But, instead, he straightway disappeared from her mind and she could think only of Howard. She was free now. The one barrier between him and her of which she had been really conscious was gone. And her heart began to ache with longing for him. Why had he not written? What was he doing? Did he really love her or was his pa.s.sion for her only a flash of a strong and swift imagination?

No, he loved her--she could not doubt that. But she could not understand his conduct. She felt that she ought to be very unhappy, yet she was not. The longer she thought of him and the more she weighed his words and looks, the stronger became her trust in him. ”He loves me,” she said. ”He will come when he can. It may be even harder for him than for me.”

And so, explanation failing--for she rejected every explanation that reflected upon him--she hid and excused him behind that familiar refuge of the doubting, mystery.

XIV.