Chapter 702: Intermission: Illness ~ ~ The Person who Changed Everything ~ ~ (1/2)

Ever since I was born, there have never been colors in my world. It's not that I'm colorblind or anything like that…… It was just that the world felt like that.

It's not that I didn't feel compassion for others, or that I didn't feel joy or sorrow, but nothing had lit up a flame in my heart.

All the time I was walking around, I had only been looking at my feet. Even though I had walked forward, bearing the thought that ”this way should be good”, I never had any goals or dreams that made me think that ”I want to go this way”, nor did I feel any happiness that made me think that ”I'm happy to have walked this way”.

I haven't found any goals or dreams, and I didn't know what the emotion called happiness felt like…… but I have never felt unhappy about such a thing.

I have feelings, I have a sense of reason…… but I never had a purpose, and the me who never understood the feeling of happiness, in a sense, was probably an empty being.

However, I never felt inconvenienced by it, and I never felt the need to change myself.

I just kept walking with the same stride, looking only at my feet…… I thought there was no point in thinking or knowing where the path led.

However, as I continued to walk along the path, I occasionally found that my path had split into different directions.

————-What do you think? Would you like to be my subordinate?

”Can you walk through this path?”, I received such questions, inviting me to walk through a path.

————-Please. There's no one else I can turn to!

”I want you to walk through this path.”, I received such statements, begging me to walk through a path.

Following their lead, advancing through their path, I walked. However, I never felt that it changed anything.

No matter what path I walked, all I could see was my feet…… Never looking forward nor looking behind me, I just kept walking what the people I follow thought as ”the right path”.

I thought it was admirable for people to follow their goals and pursue their dreams. However, I never once imagined myself wanting to be like them.

I sometimes congratulated those who achieved their goals and said they were happy. However, I never felt the need to grasp this happiness myself.

It's just that, looking at them…… I slightly wonder what kind of emotion happiness is.

Thinking that I would never have any dreams, never feel happy and just keep walking through the colorless world with the same stride, I thought that such a life is fine.

There was no need for things I couldn't have, and no point in seeking something I couldn't understand. I was satisfied with my current situation, and I didn't seek for any change.

……Yes….. that's how it should have been.

But then———– I met you.

The moment I saw you, my colorless world———– began to be dyed in dazzling colors.

The moment I saw you, within this cold heart of mine———– I felt definite heat warming me up.

The moment I saw you, the me who should be unchanging———– felt like a completely different person than I had been before.

The moment I saw you, without anyone teaching me———– I understood that I was in love with you.