Chapter 567: I Feel Like Theyre Something I Shouldnt Forget (1/2)

What if she were to take away…… my most precious thing…… That’s what Shiro-san asked. Somehow, I felt that there was something significant about her question.

I can’t completely narrow down what it is that’s so important to me…… but still……

[……I’m not going to hate you.]

[Why is that?]

[Probably because I think Shiro-san has her own reasons for taking it away…… I guess.]

[……What if it’s just for a silly reason?]

What is this? The fact that she was acting me back like this made me think that this question of hers wasn’t just something she thought of.

I guess Shiro-san has some kind of definite vision, and she is asking questions based on that. Maybe, it has something to do with the ordeal that Shiro-san was talking about.

[……Even if that’s so, I won’t hate you, Shiro-san.]

[……………….]

[Of course, if it came to that, I’d probably do everything I could to resist. In order to protect what’s important to me, I might even turn against Shiro-san. However, that’s not a reason for me to hate Shiro-san.]

[……Why?]

[Hmmm, I don’t know if the reason is really silly or not. Even if it’s silly for me, it may be something important to you. Something so important that you can’t not do it.]

I don’t know what Shiro-san is thinking. But now that I think about it again, I realized that I really liked Shiro-san.

That’s why, I can say with confidence that I will never hate her. After all……

[I believe…… that Shiro-san isn’t the kind of person who would try to take away something important from me for really silly reasons.]

[………………..]

Shiro-san is indeed an airhead, with a few incomprehensible and unorthodox traits. But she’s not a bad person. There have been many times when she has shown she cared about me in her own way.

That’s why, I don’t think Shiro-san will try to take away my most precious thing for really stupid reasons.

Hearing my reply, Shiro-san fell silent for a few moments. Then, slowly, she turned her gaze towards the skies of the God Realm.

[……I didn’t have anything.]

[……Eh?]

Hearing her mutter to herself, I tilted my head. Shiro-san stood up from the bathtub and moved towards the center of the onsen. The back view of Shiro-san with her very long hair looked very picturesque by itself, stealing my eyes away.

Thereupon, without looking back at me, Shiro-san spoke to me again in her intonationless voice.

[……It’s not a metaphor. I really had nothing. No heart, no feelings, nor purpose……. Not having anything, I was always standing at the end, as a being who only brings everything to an end.]

[……End?]

[Yes, I was that kind of being. Let’s see…… If I were to describe myself in the language of Kaito-san’s world, I might as well say that I am nothing but “a system called Shallow Vernal”. If that really was my proper form, being able to talk to you like this…… is something like a “bug”.]

Shiro-san’s story sounded somewhat abstract, and I couldn’t quite understand what she was talking about, probably because I didn’t have enough information. But somehow…… I felt like this is a story I shouldn’t overlook.

[Now that I think about it again, the first emotion I ever felt…… would be uncertainty, I guess. I was always standing at the end, just to bring everything to an end.]

[………………..]

[I’ve seen all kinds of beings. Some loved the world they created, others hated the world they created. There were those who created the world without knowing anything, and those who created the world for the sake of others…… I just couldn’t understand.]

[……What did you not understand?]

[Joy, anger, sadness, enjoyment…… Thinking to myself what those things are, I didn’t know what a heart is. To laugh, to get angry, to feel sorrow, to be happy…… thinking to myself how I could do such things, but I didn’t understand what emotions are…… for they’re things that my existence doesn’t deem as necessary.]