Chapter 466: I Think It Made Me a Little Stronger (2/2)

[……But you felt lost, right?]

[Unnn…… In the end, what did I want it to be? Did I want her to be Mom, or did I want her to be someone else? ……I felt strangely lost, not knowing what I wanted to happen.]

I can't come to a good conclusion regarding Luce-san's situation. I confessed that I have been feeling lost by my lack of a clear answer.

Holding my head in one hand, Kuro gently stroked my head with the other.

[Don't worry, Kaito-kun…… There's nothing wrong with having such thoughts.]

[Eh?]

[Your precious mother died, and you were sorting out your mind in regards to her memories, right? And just then, someone who looks exactly like your deceased mother suddenly appears…… It's natural that you would expect something.]

[……Kuro.]

[The death of a loved one isn't something you can just forget even if you try to. If you can't part with them, you don't have to. If you can't find the answers, you can just not give any.]

They were words of affirmation that were too gentle to my heart. Her voice resonated deep within me, just like that time when she had once saved my heart on that night.

[After all, I think that Kaito-kun's indecision…… comes from the fact that you still care about your mother. I'm sure you'll be fine just the way you are.]

[………………..]

[Ahh, but you can't just keep it to yourself, okay? It's okay to be confused, and it's okay not to have an answer to something…… But you don't have to think about it all by yourself. Talk to me about it, okay? At that moment, I'll be there for you as much as I can……]

[……Unnn.]

I've never told anyone about it, but I've always had one regret rooted in my mind. It's about the fact…… that ”I haven't been able to properly say goodbye” to Mom and Dad……

When I was trembling with fear of death in the car after that accident, I felt my mother's hand touch my cheek once. I'm thinking that perhaps, Mom and Dad were still alive at that time.

Of course, I know that there is no way I could have said that in that situation.

But still, I've always regretted how I haven't been able to say ”Thank you” or ”Goodbye” to my parents, whom I loved so much.

I guess that's why I had been expecting something. I think that was the reason why I hoped Luce-san was my mother, and I will get the chance to say the words I once couldn't……

[……Hey, Kaito-kun? How about you sleep like this for the night?]

[……Unnn.]

[I'll be embracing you throughout the night. So that you'll never be alone, even in your dreams……]

[……Thanks.]

However, I think that I'm really okay now. I don't think I'll ever be able to part with my memories of Mom and Dad. If someone that looks like my parents appears again, I will probably expect something, ending up getting depressed again.

However, I'm sure it will be alright…… At least, I don't have to worry about forgetting about my parents while I can't part ways with them.

There are people by my side who can support my weak heart…… That's why I can walk forward, even when I hold these emotions I couldn't part with…… Even while carrying the death of my parents on my shoulders. Yes, this is something I'm strongly convinced about.

Dear Mom, Dad————- I've been struggling with a lot of things, but with the support of a lot of people, I'm going to be able to do my best again tomorrow. I don't have any definite proof of this, but I think that today's incident————– made my heart a little stronger.

In the Activity Report, the rough sketch of Isis, the character making her entrance in the second volume of the Light novel, has been released.

Serious-senpai: [G- Gununu…… Sweet…… But I could also smell the scent of seriousness in it…… Mumumu, this is troubling…… Hmmm. I'll just place this on the gray zone! I'm looking forward to the next chapter!!!]

The third day has ended, so the next chapter will be the Isis' First Anniversary Extra Chapter.

Serious-senpai Act3 : [F*ck!!!]

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