Chapter 298 The Desire to Receive Her Feelings (1/2)

The words Alice said…… Quicker than I could react to that, Alice continued speaking.

That should mean that she’s asking me not to mention her earlier statement just yet.

[I’ve said it before, didn’t I? That the name Shalltear meant “a fragment of illusion” in the world I lived in.]

[……An illusion…… huh.]

[Yes. When my heart was shattered and I became a nobody, what was left of me…… was a wish that I hadn’t been able to fulfill after living so many years. That’s because that was only the meaning of my life, nothing but an illusion.]

[……Unnn.]

Illusion huh…… I think Alice spent a mind-boggling time until she came to this world. That’s why, for her, she can’t imagine a future where her best friend’s wish can come true. It was certainly like she’s chasing after an illusion huh?

[When I first came to this world, I had great expectations. There are many people in this world, including Kuro-san, who are immortal like me. I thought I could fulfill my best friend’s last wish here……]

[But you weren’t able to make it come true?]

[……Yes. Thinking about it now, I guess it’s natural that happened. I was trying to force myself to fall in love because I had a strong desire to fulfill my best friend’s wish…… And now, I understand that I couldn’t fall in love with anyone when I have such thoughts in my heart.]

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[At some point, I was called the Phantasmal King, No Face…… the King without a face. That’s certainly on point, isn’t it? I’ve been empty ever since I lost everyone. I’ve been shifting appearances, dancing around in the dark, playing the role of a nobody…… I don’t have any definite form that I could call my own. I was such a being.]

[……Alice.]

[……Ummm, I’ll be honest with you. This being named “Alice”, at that time…… I planned for this being to “disappear” after kidnapping Kaito-san.]

[……Eh?]

Saying that, I was looking at Alice’s blue eyes that were also staring straight at me, and I could tell that those words weren’t a lie.

Alice was going to disappear after kidnapping me? What the heck does that mean?

Seeing me tilting my head while thinking about what she said, Alice wryly smiled.

[I never approached Kaito-san because I wanted to fall in love with you, but because I wanted to repay Kuro-san for her kindness and ascertain what kind of person you are…… I guess it’s great that I wasn’t strangely aware of it. Past me, that’s a fine play!]

[……H- Hmmm.]

[……Well, all jokes aside…… In fact, I was going to make our connection something shallow. At least, I wasn’t planning on going to Archlesia Empire together with Kaito-san.]

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[Does that mean you changed your plans?]

[No, it was more like…… something unexpected, I think? I guess I have to apologize to Kaito-san for that. I’m sorry……]

[Eh? N- No, why are you suddenly……]

Telling me that she has to apologize, Alice deeply bows her head to me, but I don’t even know why she’s apologizing.

Alice then continues to bow for a few moment, before slowly looking up and explained the reason for her apology.

[……It was the second time we met, wasn’t it? When Kaito-san scolded me…… It feels as if “I could see my best friend overlapping with you”.]

[Alice’s best friend….. Are you talking about the person you mentioned earlier?]

[Yes. The standard flow of our conversation would often be about how I would do something stupid and my best friend would scold me, getting angry at me…… And then, after she was done being angry, she would have a small smile while astounding looking at me…… She would then warmly chuckle, as if to say that it can’t be helped if it’s me……. I liked those times a lot.]

[………………..]

[After finishing your sermon, Kaito-san would let out a sigh before wryly smiling…… It really resembles the times I had with my best friend, making me feel as if I went back in time…… I felt really happy then.]

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After saying that with a nostalgic expression on her face, Alice moves her gaze several times, some kind of anxiety can be seen in her face.

Then, after searching for the words to say for a while, her face slightly lowered, she spoke.

[……I pictured Kaito-san as my best friend. I would say stupid things on purpose, just to get scolded by Kaito-san…… I’ve always treated Kaito-san as a replacement for my best friend.]

[……I see.]

[Ahh, I- I’ve thought differently now! I’m not thinking of Kaito-san as a replacement for my best friend.]

[Ah, unnn. You don’t need to be so quick to deny it.]

[Ahhh……]

Hearing my words, I don’t know if she thought she hurt my feelings or not, but Alice hurriedly explained herself.