Chapter 259 Intermission Fear ~~ Selfish Wish ~~ (2/2)

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[……Well, stop fidgeting and worrying about it, and go invite him already. If it’s Miyama-kun, he wouldn’t turn you down, and end it all with something like a stroll with your shoulders and elbows touching with each other.]

[……Y- Yes. I’ll do my best.]

[Unnn. Good.]

The only role that Fear has in this relationship counseling, so to say, is just pushing her back…… And when she heard her cheer for her, Neun nodded, a little relieved.

Seeing Neun responding like that, Fear also smiled and brought the tea that was at hand to her mouth.

Just when the relationship advice is settled and the conversation begins to shift to idle chatter, Neun turns serious and asks.

[……Fear. For the Six Kings Festival, what are you going to do?]

[………………..]

Hearing the words quietly, yet clearly announced, Fear moves her gaze to the table…… to the invitation that Neun had brought to her today.

After remaining silent for a little while, Fear lowered her head and let out a feeble voice, unlike the voice she had before.

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[……I’m not going…… I can’t go.]

[……Kuromu-sama wanted to meet Fear. Even Fear is……]

[I miss her! Of course I want to see her!!! However…… For all these times I haven’t met her…… I don’t even know…… what kind of face I should have when I face her now.]

[……………….]

Neun quietly listens without saying a word as Fear tells her in a voice that sounds like she’s about to cry.

Fear is an important family member to Kuromueina, and Fear also adores Kuromueina very much…… However, she hadn’t seen Kuromueina for over a thousand years now

[Kuromu-sama picked me up and raised me when I had nothing…… she’s like a mother to me, the most important person in the world…… However, even though Kuromu-sama was the most important person to me, I “betrayed” her……]

[You’re mistaken, you di——- [ I’m not mistaken ! ] ———!?]

Just as Neun wanted to make a follow up, Fear interrupted her with a grieving expression on her face.

[It’s because I… I was an idiot…… I made Kuromu-sama cry. Even though I never wanted her to look like that…… but because of me…… I don’t have the face to meet her anymore.]

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[……But still, if it’s Kuromu-sama……]

[I know that…… I know. I’m sure that Kuromu-sama will greet me with a smile. She will forgive me…… However, I…… To myself……]

[……Sorry. That was imprudent of me.]

[No. I’m the one who should apologize. I’m sorry that I became emotional…… Anyhow, I won’t be attending the Six Kings Festival…… You should have fun there, Hikari.]

[……Yes.]

They were once enemies who had crossed blades against each other, and now, they were best friends who spoke of their troubles. Neun understands the pain that Fear had suffered over the years, so much that it also hurts Neun.

That’s why she didn’t know what to say…… She didn’t even know if it’s alright to say anything.

Then, as if to regain her composure, Fear moved the conversation to an unrelated topic, while Neun didn’t say anything else other than idle chatter.

After talking for a while, Neun left and Fear, who remained alone in the room, stared at the invitation that was given to her…… focusing on the words “Underworld King: Kuromueina” written on it.

[……I’m sorry…… Kuromu-sama…… I’m sorry……]

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An apology that no one can hear…… As she spoke those words that she had been repeating for over a thousand years over and over again, some words surfaced within Fear’s mind.

——–Even if I knew about Dr. Fear’s past sins, I wouldn’t lose my respect for “the current you.”

It was only a short time since she got to know him. The words of that slightly unusual otherworlder…… They weren’t blaming her for her sins, nor does he intend to pry into her past, just very kind and warm words of respect for the person she currently is.

[……Honestly…… I was happy when I heard those words…… Ahaha, what kind of stupidity am I talking about…… That’s not supposed to happen……]

Muttering quietly, Fear slowly looks up and shifts her gaze to the view outside the window.

[……A large amount of time has already passed. For a boy I just met…… just like he did to others…… that he might also change me…… That’s too selfish for me to hope for……]

Serious-senpai: [Kuwaahhh!?]

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