Chapter 238 Because I Think that This Way, We Can Build Up Memories (1/2)

Due to the happening in the bathroom…… or rather, due to the situation that occurred mostly because of Lunamaria-san, Lilia-san and I were currently in an intensely awkward situation.

Lilia-san didn’t hole up in her room, but she was sitting on the edge of the living room, covering her face with her hands. I didn’t know what to say to her.

I can only imagine what Lilia-san is going through right now…… Lilia-san summoned all her courage to take a mixed bath so that “she can truly become my lover”, but it was all a misunderstanding…… No, she’s probably just too embarrassed to know what to do now that she knows that it’s just false information planted by the root of all evil.

It would have been great if it had ended at that point when she found out at the worst time. Then, if I followed up well, it would have ended with just Lunamaria-san receiving all her anger.

However, Lilia-san regretfully fainted there…… and ended up suffering the embarrassment of having me see her completely naked body, a shame that I would want to get into a hole if I find one.

Therefore, the embarrassment of being seen naked outweighed her anger at Lunamaria-san for giving her false information, and she now sat down, covering her face that is so red that it was reaching her ears.

Maybe it would have been easier if she had scolded me for being a pervert or something like that, but Lilia-san also has a firm understanding that it was inevitable for me to see her naked in that situation, and personality-wise, she isn’t the kind of person who would take it out on someone…… And because of that, there’s no place for her emotions to go.

[……U- Ummm…… Lilia-san?]

[ ! ? W- W- W- W- W- What is it!?]

However, this isn’t going to get us anywhere, so I tried starting a conversation with her but…… Lilia-san’s shoulders leaped as if she was a surprised cat, and even though she replied with her trembling voice, she didn’t turn around.

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[Errr, ummm…… Even though what I did was unavoidable, I’m really sorry. Thinking about it carefully, there may have been better ways for me to do it…… So, what happened before was my fault.]

[T- That’s not it! Kaito-san didn’t do anything wrong!!! It was originally I who took Luna’s words…… that I……. that I…… have shown you something immodest……]

Lilia-san still didn’t turn around, but Lilia-san’s shoulders were slightly trembling, and she seemed to be afraid of something.

However, from her atmosphere, it doesn’t seem like she’s afraid of me…… If that’s the case, what is she afraid of……

[……H- Have you come to…… dislike me now?]

[Eh? W- Why did you say that?]

[T- This naive…… pathetic…… no good me……]

[………………]

Hearing those words which sounded fearful, I finally understood what Lilia-san was afraid of.

Lilia-san was extremely afraid of being feared or disliked by people due to the events in the past which can almost be called a trauma.

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And with her catastrophically strong sense of responsibility, she perceived that others would hate her because she isn’t good enough.

To Lilia-san, I was the first lover she’d ever had…… You could say that our relationship is deeper than her friends.

And that’s why Lilia-san doesn’t want me to hate her…… That’s why she decided to take this opportunity to take a mixed bath with me, because she properly wanted to be my lover.

Now, she’s afraid that I would become disillusioned, seeing that she easily believes in lies…… And that’s why she’s trembling now.

As soon as I understood Lilia-san’s loveable true feelings, I felt as if my mind was eased, and at the same time, my thoughts became clearer.

After that happened, it became quicker for me to understand what I needed to do, and immediately act on it. So, slowly approaching Lilia-san…… I hug her crouching body from behind.

[Hyaaahhh!? K- K- K- Kaito-san!? W- W- What in the world a- a- are you……]

[……That’s my line. What in the world are you talking about…… It’s not like I’m going to hate you for something like this, Lilia-san.]

[……Eh?]

Yes, I think what I can do for Lilia-san right now is to reassure her above all else.

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I’m still not really sure what people should do when they become lovers…… but still, I think I have enough ability to hug my trembling lover’s body.

[Lilia-san has been thinking a lot of things for me, and you even gathered courage to do this…… I would obviously be really happy. However, you don’t have to be that impatient……]