Volume II Part 27 (1/2)
”You will keep your promise to your mother; you will act as a man of honour should. Think, Rorie, what a shameful thing it would be to do, to break off an engagement which has been so long publicly known, to wound and grieve your good aunt and uncle.”
”They have been very kind to me,” sighed Rorie. ”It would hurt me to give them pain.”
His conscience told him she was right, but he was angry with her for being so much wiser than himself.
Then, in a moment, love--that had slumbered long, idly happy in the company of the beloved, and had suddenly awakened to know that this summer-day idlesse meant a pa.s.sion stronger than death--love got the better of conscience, and he cried vehemently:
”What need I care for the Duke and d.u.c.h.ess! They can have their choice of husbands for their daughter; an heiress like Mabel has only to smile, and a man is at her feet. Why should I sacrifice myself, love, truth, all that makes life worth having? Do you think I would do it for the sake of Ashbourne, and the honour of being a duke's son-in-law?”
”No, Rorie, but for the sake of your promise. And now look, there is Lyndhurst steeple above the woods. I am near home, and we must say good-night.”
”Not till you are at your own gate.”
”No one must see you. I want to ride in quietly by the stables. Don't think I am ashamed of my errand to-night. I am not; but I want to save my mother trouble, and if Captain Winstanley and I were to discuss the matter there would be a disturbance.”
Roderick Vawdrey seized Arion by the bridle.
”I shall not let you go so easily,” he said resolutely. ”Vixen, I have loved you ever since I can remember you. Will you be my wife?”
”No.”
”Why did you say that you loved me?”
”Because I cannot tell a lie. Yes, I love you, Rorie; but I love your honour, and my own, better than the chance of a happiness that might fade and wither before we could grasp it. I know that your mother had a very poor opinion of me while she was alive; I should like her to know, if the dead know anything, that she was mistaken, and that I am not quite unworthy of her respect. You will marry Lady Mabel Ashbourne, Rorie: and ten years hence, when we are sober middle-aged people, we shall be firm friends once again, and you will thank and praise me for having counselled you to cleave to the right. Let go the bridle, Rorie, there's no time to lose. There's a glorious gallop from Queen's Bower to the Christchurch Road.”
It was a long gra.s.sy ride, safe only for those who knew the country well, for it was bordered on each side by treacherous bogs. Violet knew every inch of the way. Arion scented his stable afar off, and went like the wind; Blue Peter stretched his muscular limbs in pursuit. It was a wild ride along the gra.s.sy track, beside watery marshes and reedy pools that gleamed in the dim light of a new moon. The distant woods showed black against the sky. There was no light to mark a human habitation within ken. There was nothing but night and loneliness and the solemn beauty of an unpeopled waste. A forest pony stood here and there--pastern-deep in the sedges--and gazed at those two wild riders, grave and gay, like a ghost. A silvery snake glided across the track; a water-rat plunged, with a heavy splash, into a black pool as the horses galloped by. It was a glorious ride. Miserable as both riders were, they could not but enjoy that wild rush through the sweet soft air, under the silent stars.
Vixen gave a long sigh presently, when they pulled up their horses on the hard road.
”I think I am 'fey' now,” she said. ”I wonder what is going to happen to me?”
”Whatever misfortunes come to you henceforth will be your own fault,”
protested Rorie savagely. ”You won't be happy, or make me so.”
”Don't be angry with me, Rorie,” she answered quite meekly. ”I would rather be miserable in my own way than happy in yours.”
Arion, having galloped for his own pleasure, would now have liked to crawl. He was beginning to feel the effects of unusual toil, and hung his head despondently; but Vixen urged him into a sharp trot, feeling that matters were growing desperate.
Ten minutes later they were at the lodge leading to the stables. The gate was locked, the cottage wrapped in darkness.
”I must go in by the carriage-drive,” said Vixen. ”It's rather a bore, as I am pretty sure to meet Captain Winstanley. But it can't be helped.”
”Let me go in with you.”
”No, Rorie; that would do no good. If he insulted me before you, his insolence would pain me.”
”And I believe I should pain him,” said Rorie. ”I should give him the sweetest horsewhipping he ever had in his life.”
”That is to say you would bring disgrace upon me, and make my mother miserable. That's a man's idea of kindness. No, Rorie, we part here.
Good-night, and--good-bye.”