Part 10 (1/2)
She had the weary, bruised feeling of one who has traveled too far--and indeed it was a long journey she had made that day, from her own wistful and eager young womanhood to that of her daughters. She brushed her hands across her eyes to clear them of memories and dreams alike.
Introspection is always a difficult matter to direct and simple natures, such as Kate Kildare's, but she forced herself to it now. Had she in any way failed her children, as Jemima seemed to imply? Was it possible that in her absorption in a fixed idea she had neglected them, taken their welfare too much for granted? Was there anything she might have done for them that she had not done?
Conscience answered, No. It was for their sakes, far more than her own, that she had isolated herself with them, hidden them away from a world which she had found unkind. It was for their interests that she had worked harder than any man of her acquaintance, experimenting, studying, managing, until she was recognized as one of the greatest agriculturists of the State, and the unproductive property left by Basil Kildare had become a stock and dairy farm which netted her an income that ran well into five figures. More than wealth, she had given them education, bringing to Storm the best tutors and governesses to be had in the country. She had shared with them, too, her own practical knowledge and experience, the wisdom not to be found in books.
Every step of the way she had walked beside them. She who could not give them friends, had given them instead herself. Busy woman that she was, she was far closer to them than mothers and daughters usually find themselves, sentiment to the contrary notwithstanding. Between them, she believed, were none of the unfortunate reticences usual in that relation, no questions that might not be asked, nor answers given. Kate would have said that she knew her daughters truly ”by heart.”
And yet already and without warning the time was upon her which she dreaded--the time when she might no longer walk beside them, watchfully, but only behind, and far behind. She knew--she had always known--that only the childhood of her girls could belong to her. Their womanhood, their future, they must face unaided.
It is a bitter moment for all mothers, but more especially for Kate Kildare, who knew better than most what pitfalls lie in wait for young and hurrying feet, and whose nightmare was inheritance.
Then a consoling thought came to her; came in the shape of Jacques Benoix' son, Philip, with the steady eyes, and the great, tender heart of his father. Inheritance is not always a nightmare. The future of little Jacqueline, at least, was secure. (Thus Kate to herself, with a characteristic self-confidence which took no account of chance or choice, or other obstacle to her intent.)
As for Jemima--once more her lips twitched. Jemima was certainly very capable.
Mrs. Kildare went down to meet her guests somewhat heartened.
CHAPTER IX
”This,” murmured a voice into the ear of Professor Thorpe, ”is the real thing at last! Everything so far has been a rather crude imitation of New York. I am disappointed in Lexington. But there's character here, distinction, local color. My dear uncle, why have you not brought me to this house before?”
”I did not bring you this time, as it happens,” commented Professor Thorpe somewhat acidly. ”You came.”
”Thanks to a firm character and a discerning eye. What, miss a chance of seeing the Kildare on her native heath? Certainly not!”
The other turned and looked at him. ”Suppose,” he murmured, ”that hereafter you speak of my friend and your hostess as '_Mrs._ Kildare.'”
The younger man made a smiling gesture of apology. ”What, ho! A _tendresse_ here--I had forgotten,” he said to himself; and added aloud, ”Of course, you know, one does speak of famous women without adding handles to their names. The Duse, for instance, or Bernhardt--it would be ridiculous to call them 'Madame.'”
”Mrs. Kildare is not an actress,” said the Professor, primly.
His nephew's smile grew broader. He sometimes found his uncle amusing.
”I yearn to see the lady, by whatever name,” he murmured. ”Here she comes now. Jove, what a woman!”
His voice quite lost its drawling note. Percival Channing was a sincere admirer of beauty in all its forms, and he had without doubt a right to his claim of a discerning eye. There was something that set him apart from the other young men who had come with Professor Thorpe to Storm, aside from his English-cut clothes and a certain ease and finish which they lacked. It was an effect of keenness, of aliveness to the zest of the pa.s.sing moment. He spoke of himself sometimes as a collector of impressions; and it was a true characterization. His slight, casual glance invariably took in more than the stare of other people; his nostrils quivered constantly, like those of a hound, as if they, too, were busy gathering impressions. It was a rather interesting face; a little vague in drawing about the chin and lips, but mobile, sensitive, vivid; distinctly the face of an artist.
He gazed at Kate Kildare approaching down the long stairway with the appreciation of a connoisseur. Beside her moved a slender sprite of a girl, whose hair gleamed like spun gold above a dress of apple-green.
But his glance for her was merely cursory, and returned at once to the older woman. Of this Jemima was quite aware. It had happened to her before. Her lips straightened, where another girl's would have drooped, but the sensation was the same. Jemima, not for the first time, was a little jealous of her mother.
Kate greeted her guests with a gracious courtesy that was almost regal in its simplicity. Channing in particular she welcomed warmly.
”What, Jim's nephew! And you have been with him for some time? Then why has he never brought you to us before?”
”Just what I have been asking him,” murmured Channing, bending over her hand. His manner reminded her sharply of Jacques Benoix.
She asked, on an unconsidered impulse, ”You have lived in France?”
”For many years. Have you?”
The group around them was silent, listening. Kate went rather pale. ”No.