Part 16 (2/2)
There was a somewhat ungainly, innocent, rustic-looking youth in our company, from whose eyes simple truth peeped out like two country girls at two Sunday-school windows. He, having been sent to the barracks to get some fodder, with strict injunction to return immediately, of course lay down at once in the hay and had a good long nap. The rebels came and roused him out, but promised to let him go free on condition that he would tell the sacred truth as to how many of us Federal troops were in Carlisle. And he, moved by sympathy for his kind captors, and swearing by the Great Copperhead Serpent, begged them to fly for their lives; ”for twenty regiments of regulars, and Heaven only knew how many, volunteers, had come in that afternoon, and the whole North was rising, and trains running, and fresh levies pouring in.”
The rebels believed him, but they would not depart without giving us a touch of their quality, and so fired sh.e.l.l and grape in on us till two in the morning. There were two regiments of ”common fellows,” or valiant city roughs, with us, who all hid themselves in terror wherever they could. But our company, though unable to fire more than a few shots, were kept under fire, and, being all gentlemen, not a man flinched.
I did not, to tell the truth, like our captain; but whatever his faults were, and he had some, cowardice was not among them. Some men are reckless of danger; he seemed to be absolutely insensible to it, as I more than once observed, to my great admiration. He was but a few feet from me, giving orders to a private, when a sh.e.l.l burst immediately over or almost between them. Neither was hurt, but the young man naturally s.h.i.+ed, when Landis gruffly cried, ”Never mind the sh.e.l.ls, sir; they'll not hurt you till they hit you.”
I was leaning against a lamp-post when a charge of grape went through the lamp. Remembering the story in ”Peter Simple,” and that ”lightning never strikes twice in the same place,” I remained quiet, when there came at once another, smas.h.i.+ng what was left of the gla.s.s about two feet above my head.
Long after the war, when I was one day walking with Theodore Fa.s.sitt, I told him the tale of how I had awakened the family at the fire in Munich.
And Theodore dolefully exclaimed, ”I don't see why it is that _I_ can never do anything heroic or fine like that!” Then I said, ”Theodore, I will tell you a story. Once upon a time there was a boy only eighteen years of age, and it happened in the war that he was in a town, and the rebels sh.e.l.led it. Now this boy had charge of four horses, and the general had told him to stay in one place, before a church; and he obeyed. The sh.e.l.ls came thick and fast--I saw it all myself--and by-and- bye one came and took off a leg from one of the horses. Then he was in a bad way with his horses, but he stayed. After a while the general came along, and asked him 'why the devil he was stopping there.' And he replied, 'I was ordered to, sir!' Then the general told him to get behind the church at once.”
”Why!” cried Theodore in amazement, ”_I was that boy_!”
”Yes,” I replied; ”and the famous Roman sentinel who remained at his post in Pompeii was no braver, and I don't think he had so hard a time of it as you had with that horse.”
I was put on guard. The others departed or lay down to sleep on the ground. The fire slackened, and only now and then a sh.e.l.l came with its diabolical scream like a dragon into the town. All at last was quiet, when there came shambling to me an odd figure. There had been some slight attempt by him to look like a soldier--he had a _feather_ in his hat--but he carried his rifle as if after deer or racc.o.o.ns, and as if he were used to it.
”Say, Cap!” he exclaimed, ”kin you tell me where a chap could get some ammynition?”
”Go to your quartermaster,” I replied.
”Ain't got no quartermaster.”
”Well, then to your commanding officer--to your regiment.”
”Ain't got no commanding officer nowher' this side o' G.o.d, nor no regiment.”
”Then who the devil are you, and where do you belong?”
”Don't belong nowher'. I'll jest tell you, Cap, how it is. I live in the south line of New York State, and when I heard that the rebs had got inter Pennsylvany, forty of us held a meetin' and 'pinted me Cap'n. So we came down here cross country, and 'rived this a'ternoon, and findin'
fightin' goin' on, went straight for the bush. And gettin' cover, we shot the darndest sight of rebels you ever _did_ see. And now all our ammynition is expended, I've come to town for more, for ther's some of 'em still left--who want killin' badly.”
”See here, my friend,” I replied. ”You don't know it, but you're nothing but a bushwhacker, and anybody has a right to hang or shoot you out of hand. Do you see that great square tent?” Here I pointed to the general's marquee. ”Go in there and report yourself and get enrolled.”
And the last I saw of him he was stumbling over the sticks in the right direction. This was my first experience of a real _guerillo_--a character with whom I was destined to make further experience in after days.
An earlier incident was to me extremely curious. There was in our battery a young gentleman named Stewart Patterson, noted for his agreeable, refined manners. He was the gunner of our cannon No. Two. We had bra.s.s Napoleons. At the distance of about one mile the rebels were sh.e.l.ling us. Patterson brought _his_ gun to bear on theirs, and the two exchanged shots at the same instant. Out of the smoke surrounding Patterson's gun I saw a sword-blade fly perhaps thirty feet, and then himself borne by two or three men, blood flowing profusely. The four fingers of his right hand had been cut away clean by a piece of sh.e.l.l.
At the instant I saw the blade flash in its flight, I recalled seeing precisely the same thing long before in Heidelberg. There was a famous duellist who had fought sixty or seventy times and never received a scratch. One day he was acting as _second_, when the blade of his princ.i.p.al, becoming broken at the hilt by a violent blow, flew across the room, rebounded, and cut the second's lip entirely open. It was remarkable that I should twice in my life have seen such a thing, in both instances accompanied by wounds. Long after I met Patterson in Philadelphia, I think, in 1883. He did not recognise me, and gave me his left hand. I said, ”Not that hand, Patterson, but the other. You've no reason to be ashamed of it. I saw the fingers shot off.”
But on that night there occurred an event which, in the end, after years of suffering, caused the deepest sorrow of my life. As we were not firing, I and the rest of the men of the gun were lying on the ground to escape the sh.e.l.ls, but my brother, who was nothing if not soldierly and punctilious, stood upright in his place just beside me. There came a sh.e.l.l which burst immediately, and very closely over our heads, and a piece of it struck my brother exactly on the bra.s.s buckle in his belt on the spine. The blow was so severe that the buckle was bent in two. It cut through his coat and s.h.i.+rt, and inflicted a slight wound two inches in length. But the blow on the spine had produced a concussion or disorganisation of the brain, which proved, after years of suffering, the cause of his death. At first he was quite senseless, but as he came to, and I asked him anxiously if he was hurt, he replied sternly, ”Go back immediately to your place by the gun!” He was like grandfather Leland.
A day or two after, while we were on a forced march to intercept a party of rebels, the effect of the wound on my brother's brain manifested itself in a terrible hallucination. He had become very gloomy and reserved. Taking me aside, he informed me that as he had a few days before entered a country-house, contrary to an order issued, to buy food, he was sure that Captain Landis meant as soon as possible to have him shot, but that he intended, the instant he saw any sign of this, at once to attack and kill the captain! Knowing his absolute determined and inflexibly truthful character, and seeing a fearful expression in his eyes, I was much alarmed. Reflecting in the first place that he was half- starved, I got him a meal. I had brought from Philadelphia two pounds of dried beef, and this, carefully h.o.a.rded, had eked out many a piece of bread for a meal. I begged some bread, gave my brother some beef with it, and I think succeeded in getting him some coffee. Then I went to Lieutenant Perkins--a very good man--and begged leave to take my brother's guard and to let him sleep. He consented, and my brother gradually came to his mind, or at least to a better one. But he was never the same person afterwards, his brain having been permanently affected, and he died in consequence five years after.
I may note as characteristic of my brother, that, twelve years after his death, Walt Whitman, who always gravely spoke the exact truth, told me that there was one year of his life during which he had received no encouragement as a poet, and so much ridicule that he was in utter despondency. At that time he received from Henry, who was unknown to him, a cheering letter, full of admiration, which had a great effect on him, and inspired him to renewed effort. He sent my brother a copy of the first edition of his ”Leaves of Gra.s.s,” with his autograph, which I still possess. I knew nothing of this till Whitman told me of it. The poet declared to me very explicitly that he had been much influenced by my brother's letter, which was like a single star in a dark night of despair, and I have indeed no doubt that the world owes more to it than will ever be made known.
During the same week in which this occurred my wife's only brother, Rodney Fisher, a young man, and captain in the regular cavalry, met with a remarkably heroic death at Aldie, Virginia. He was leading what was described as ”the most magnificent and das.h.i.+ng charge of the whole campaign,” when he was struck by a bullet. He was carried to a house, where he died within a week. He was of the stock of the Delaware Rodneys, and of the English Admiral's, or of the best blood of the Revolution, and well worthy of it. It was all in a great cause, but these deaths entered into the soul of the survivors, and we grieve for them to this day.
Our sufferings as soldiers during this Emergency were very great. I heard an officer who had been through the whole war, and through the worst of it in Virginia, declare that he had never suffered as he did with us this summer. And our unfortunate artillery company endured far more than the rest, for while pains were taken by commanding officers of other regiments, especially the regulars, to obtain food, our captain, either because they had the advance on him, or because he considered starving us as a part of the military drama, took little pains to feed us, and indeed neglected his men very much. As we had no doctor, and many of our company suffered from cholera morbus, I, having some knowledge of medicine, succeeded in obtaining some red pepper, a bottle of Jamaica ginger, and whisky, and so relieved a great many patients. One morning our captain forbade my attending to the invalids any more.
”Proper medical attendance,” he said, ”would be provided.” It was not; only now and then on rare occasions was a surgeon borrowed for a day.
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