Part 4 (2/2)

”Yes suh, Mistuh Oscar.”

As Henry left the room, Oscar stubbed his cigarette out in the ashtray. He stood, untied the silk belt at his waist, slipped off the robe, lay the robe across the chair, unb.u.t.toned his pajama top, stripped it off, lay that over the robe. He untied the string of his pajama bottoms, awkwardly stepped out of them, lay them over the rest, and then naked he padded over to the full-length oval mirror.

Frowning in disapproval, he looked down the length of his pale reflected body. Doughy flesh, podgy b.r.e.a.s.t.s, slack saddles of meat slung over broad hips, white stomach sagging over the presumptuous thatch of black hair and that limp comedy trio dangling below, Freddy Phallus and the t.e.s.t.i.c.l.e Twins.

Ah well.

What we have here is not precisely the cla.s.sical ideal. Not precisely Adonis.

Narcissus, yes, perhaps; but a Narcissus working under enormous handicaps.

Good shoulders, though. And rather shapely legs.

It was possible, of course, that she liked shoulders and legs; that she favored them.

It was possible, of course, that she did not.

A new regimen, perhaps. Brisk walks in the morning.

Perhaps a change of diet. Something Spartan. Watercress and champagne. An occasional stalk of celery.

For a few weeks. For a few days, anyway. To see how it went.

He turned sideways, sucked in his belly. Better. With a little imagination, and perhaps a little myopia, he might pa.s.s for a prizefighter. One of those dim pugilists who pounded each other to bare-knuckled oblivion amid cigar smoke and shouted wagers in the London clubs.

He put his fists up in approved pugilistic fas.h.i.+on, moved them in determined circles.

He frowned again.

Charming. Here we have a poet, a playwright, an Aesthete, the heir apparent to Ruskin, to Pater, who at his very best resembles a modern-day gladiator, soft and seedy and sad.

He lowered his hands, turned to face the mirror, permitted his stomach to slide back to its natural position. Then, stepping lightly forward with his left foot, swinging his long right arm in a graceful sweep, he presented himself an elaborate formal bow.

He looked up into the mirror and broadly smiled. ”Madam,” he intoned, ”we who are about to die salute you.”

No butler this time; she opened the door herself. The elegant tumble of red hair s.h.i.+mmering about her oval face like an aura, she wore a green satin dress that was, technically, an extremely proper affair: gravely long-sleeved, severely b.u.t.toned up the bodice to a trim, prim collar. But from waist to arch of throat the fabric embraced her flesh as though she had grown into it, completing the process only moments before; and proudly, mockingly, it revealed all the magnificence it pretended to conceal. Her red lips smiled faintly, her violet eyes glittered. ”Oscar,” she said. ”Come in.” By daylight the color of those eyes was even more extraordinary.

He stepped into the hallway and she closed the door behind him.

”I gave the servants the day off,” she said, smiling still.

”Ah,” said Oscar.

He thought suddenly, Ah? What a brilliant rejoinder.

He could smell her fragrance again, the musk, the forbidden spices, the pale white flowers that bloomed only in the light of the full moon; and perhaps it was this that had made his head suddenly drain itself of thought, become as taut and buoyant as a soap bubble. Soon it would pop off his neck and go sailing up to bounce lightly against those dreary nailhead moldings along the ceiling.

”Come along,” she said. Lightly she touched his arm: beneath her fingers, fire flashed along his skin.

He followed her down the hall as though leashed to her by that dark sweet streamer of scent.

Suddenly he remembered seeing once, in Ireland, in late summer at Lough Bray in the Wicklows, the neighbor's collie loping behind his father's setter b.i.t.c.h, the male dog's thin aristocratic nose twitching behind the other's frisking rump, the two dogs trotting in file through the angled amber light of early evening to disappear among the long purple shadows of the forest.

The setter's fur had been red as well.

The recollection of that moment, its resemblance to the present one, did not even slightly distress him; indeed, and rather to his surprise, it inflamed him all the more.

At the base of the broad stairway, she stopped and turned to him. Smiling, she put her hand atop the mahogony rail. ”Are you terribly hungry?” she asked.

In fact he was famished. The mere idea of living on watercress and celery had generated a ravenous appet.i.te. And yet some spirit within him, some guardian angel more wily than he, counseled a show of indifference.

”Not terribly, no. Why?” My G.o.d, but she was beautiful.

”Horace won't be back till late this afternoon.”

”I see.” He didn't, really; just then he could recall only vaguely who Horace was.

”We'll have breakfast later,” she said. She smiled. ”Afterward.”

”Ah.” Afterward?

And then she was coming closer, the luminous violet eyes peering up at him, the red lips of her smile slowly parting, the slender hand rising to his face.

For the briefest of instants he hesitated. For perhaps a second, thoughts of Dishonor and Disgrace, Sin and Six-guns chased like collies and setters around his brain, collided, rocked and scuffled one atop the other.

And then the hand was settling at the back of his head, like a door closing to shut out the cold, and the lips were against his, soft and moist; and then a slick, knowing, pointed tongue was tapping, teasing, at his teeth.

All at once, as though toppling from a precipice down through perfumed clouds, he surrendered to this amazing moment, telling himself that soon it would be a part of the past, over with and done. The past could be managed; it was only the future that presented difficulties and decisions. Later, afterward-yes, at breakfast-his life would continue its familiar forward march.

Set suddenly free of his will, his hands moved on their own and slipped around her narrow waist and slid down the electric smoothness of the satin to cup her sleek round b.u.t.tocks. The nerve endings along his fingertips had multiplied a thousandfold: they could detect, and celebrate, every individual silken thread of the dress; and, still more remarkable, every individual tingling atom of the firm straining flesh beneath.

Her b.r.e.a.s.t.s were cus.h.i.+oned against his chest, her leg was nuzzling between his. Her tongue roiled in his mouth. The air was dense with the dusky intoxicating smoke of her scent.

His body was adrift, bobbing on a tropic sea where the woman's deep sultry currents met his own, the two giddy streams merging to carry him off, blindly, relentlessly. From a distance, far back in the remaining sliver of mind that still watched and noted and judged, he had no idea, none at all, where they might sweep him. Nor did he care.

Swept away, he thought.

Dear G.o.d, he thought, a cliche.

Her hand snaked up his thigh and found him, and he stopped caring about this as well.

From the Grigsby Archives.

MARCH 15, 1882.

TO:.

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