Part 57 (1/2)
”That's what I want to know,” returned Mary, with irritation. ”What _am_ I to do? What _am_ I to do?”
”If he's in love with her, he wouldn't believe a word any one--even you--told him against her.”
”That is true, I suppose; but it won't clear me. I must do something.”
She threw herself on the couch with a groan.
”It's horrid!” she cried, and buried her face in the pillow.
All this time Letty had been so bewildered by Mary's agitation, and the cause of it was to her so vague, that apprehension for her cousin did not wake. But when Mary was silent, then came the thought that, if she had not so repulsed him--but she could not help it, and would not think in that direction.
Mary started from the couch, and began again to pace the room, wringing her hands, and walking up and down like a wild beast in its cage. It was so unlike her to be thus seriously discomposed, that Letty began to be frightened. She sat silent and looked at her. Then spoke the spirit of truth in the scholar, for the teacher was too troubled to hear. She rose, and going up to Mary from behind, put her arm round her, and whispered in her ear:
”Mary, why don't you ask Jesus?”
Mary stopped short, and looked at Letty. But she was not thinking about her; she was questioning herself: why had she not done as Letty said?
Something was wrong with her: that was clear, if nothing else was! She threw herself again on the couch, and Letty saw her body heaving with her sobs. Then Letty was more frightened, and feared she had done wrong. Was it her part to remind Mary of what she knew so much better than she?
”But, then, I was only referring her to herself!” she thought.
A few minutes, and Mary rose. Her face was wet and white, but perplexity had vanished from it, and resolution had taken its place.
She threw her arms round Letty, and kissed her, and held her face against hers. Letty had never seen in her such an expression of emotion and tenderness.
”I have found out, Letty, dear,” she said. ”Thank you, thank you, Letty! You are a true sister.”
”What have you found out, Mary?”
”I have found out why I did not go at once to ask Him what I ought to do. It was just because I was afraid of what he would tell me to do.”
And with that the tears ran down her cheeks afresh.
”Then you know now what to do?” asked Letty.
”Yes,” answered Mary, and sat down.
CHAPTER LI.
A HARD TASK.
The next morning, leaving the shop to Letty, Mary set out immediately after breakfast to go to Thornwick. But the duty she had there to perform was so distasteful, that she felt her very limbs refuse the office required of them. They trembled so under her that she could scarcely walk. She sent, therefore, to the neighboring inn for a fly.
All the way, as she went, she was hoping she might be spared an encounter with Mrs. Wardour; but the old lady heard the fly, saw her get out, and, imagining she had brought Letty back in some fresh trouble, hastened to prevent either of them from entering the house.
The door stood open, and they met on the broad step.
”Good morning, Mrs. Wardour,” said Mary, trying to speak without betraying emotion.
”Good morning, Miss Marston,” returned Mrs. Wardour, grimly.