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Subject: Careful yourself
Date: May 27 2011 00:03
To: Anastasia Steele
Why don't you like me?
Christian Grey
CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.
From: Anastasia Steele
Subject: Careful yourself
Date: May 27 2011 00:09
To: Christian Grey
Because you never stay with me.
There, that's given him something to think about. I shut the machine down with a flourish I don't really feel and crawl into my bed. I switch off my sidelight and stare up at the ceiling. It's been one long day, one emotional wrench after another. It was heartwarming to spend some time with Ray. He looked well, and weirdly he approved of Christian. Jeez, Kate and her gargantuan mouth. Hearing Christian speak about being hungry. What the h.e.l.l is that all aboutG.o.d, and the car. I haven't even told Kate about the new car. What was Christian thinking?
And then this evening, he actually hit me. I've never been hit in my life. What have I gotten myself intoVery slowly, my tears, halted by Kate's arrival, begin to slide down the side of my face and into my ears. I have fallen for someone who's so emotionally shut down, I will only get hurt - deep down I know this - someone who by his own admission is completely f**ked up. Why is he so f**ked upIt must be awful to be as affected as he is, and the thought that as a toddler he suffered some unbearable cruelty makes me cry harder. Perhaps if he was more normal he wouldn't want you, my subconscious contributes snidely to my musings... and in my heart of hearts I know this is true. I turn into my pillow and the sluice gates open... and for the first time in years, I am sobbing uncontrollably into my pillow.
I am momentarily distracted from my dark night of the soul by Kate shouting.
”What the f**k do you think you're doing here?”
”Well you can't!”
”What the f**k have you done to her now?”
”Since she's met you she cries all the time.”
”You can't come in here!”
Christian bursts into my bedroom and unceremoniously switches on the overhead light, making me squint.
”Jesus, Ana,” he mutters. He flicks the switch off again and is at my side in a moment.
”What are you doing here?” I gasp between sobs. c.r.a.p. I can't stop crying.
He switches on the sidelight making me squint again. Kate comes and stands in the doorway.
”Do you want me to throw this a.s.s**le out?” she asks, radiating thermo-nuclear hostility. Christian raises his eyebrows at her, no doubt surprised by her flattering epithet and her feral antagonism. I shake my head, and she rolls her eyes at me. Oh... I wouldn't do that near Mr. G.
”Just holler if you need me,” she says more gently. ”Grey - your cards are marked,”
she hisses at him. He nods at her, and she turns and pulls the door to but doesn't close it.
Christian gazes down at me, his expression grave, his face ashen. He's wearing his pinstriped jacket, and from his inside pocket, he pulls out a handkerchief and hands it to me. I think I still have his other one somewhere.
”What's going on?” he asks quietly.
”Why are you here?” I ask, ignoring his question. My tears have miraculously ceased, but I'm left with dry heaves racking my body.
”Part of my role is to look after your needs. You said you wanted me to stay, so here I am. And yet I find you like this.” He blinks at me, truly bewildered. ”I'm sure I'm responsible, but I have no idea why. Is it because I hit you?”
I pull myself up, wincing from my sore behind. I sit and face him.
”Did you take some Advil?”
I shake my head. He narrows his eyes, stands, and leaves the room. I hear him talking to Kate but not what they are saying. He's back a few moments later with pills and a teacup of water.
”Take these,” he orders gently as he sits on my bed beside me.
I do as I'm told.
”Talk to me,” he whispers. ”You told me you were okay. I'd never have left you if I thought you were like this.”
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