Book 1 - Page 83 (1/2)
She pauses.
”AnaWhat's wrong?” She's all seriousness now.
”Nothing, Mom, I just wanted to hear your voice.”
She's silent for a moment.
”Ana, what is itPlease tell me.” Her voice is soft and comforting, and I know that she cares. Uninvited, my tears begin to flow. I have cried so often in the last few days.
”Please, Ana,” she says, and her anguish reflects mine.
”Oh, Mom, it's a man.”
”What's he done to you?” Her alarm is palpable.
”It's not like that.” Although it is... Oh c.r.a.p. I don't want to worry her. I just want someone else to be strong for me at the moment.
”Ana, please, you're worrying me.”
I take a big breath.
”I've kind of fallen for this guy, and he's so different from me, and I don't know if we should be together.”
”Oh, darling. I wish I could be with you. I am so sorry I missed your graduation.
You've fallen for someone, finally. Oh, honey, men, they are so tricky. They're a different species, honey. How long have you known him?”
Christian is definitely a different species... different planet.
”Oh, nearly three weeks or so.”
”Ana, darling, that's no time at all. How can you possibly know someone in that kind of time frameJust take it easy with him and keep him at arm's length until you decide whether he's worthy of you.”
Wow... it's unnerving when my mother is so insightful, but she's just too late on this.
Is he worthy of meThat's an interesting concept. I always wonder whether I am worthy of him.
”Honey, you sound so unhappy. Come home - visit with us. I miss you, darling. Bob would love to see you too. You can get some distance and maybe some perspective. You need a break. You've been working so hard.”
Oh boy, is this tempting. Run away to Georgia. Grab some suns.h.i.+ne, some c.o.c.ktails.
My mother's good humor... her loving arms.
”I have two job interviews in Seattle on Monday.”
”Oh, that's wonderful news.”
The door opens and Kate appears, grinning at me. Her face falls when she sees I've been crying.
”Mom, I have to go. I'll think about a visit. Thank you.”
”Honey, please, don't let a man get under your skin. You're far too young. Go and enjoy yourself.”
”Yes, Mom, love you.”
”Oh, Ana, I love you too, so much. Stay safe, honey.” I hang up and face Kate who glares at me.
”Has that obscenely rich f**ker upset you again?”
”No... sort of... err... yes.”
”Just tell him to take a hike, Ana. You've been so up and down since you met him.
I've never seen you like this.”
The world of Katherine Kavanagh is very clear, very black and white. Not the intangible, mysterious, vague hues of gray that color my world . Welcome to my world.