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昨天 by 風弄 Chapter 19

Yesterday by Feng Nong

I hear the birds singing in the earlybut I don't open my eyes I feel like I'm totally in a daze I dimly see a few busy shadows before th My throat is dry I want to drink water but even after struggling, I can onlyon? Could it be that YuJiang did so? Maybe he already poisoned er able to say hurtful words to him I continue in this delirious state for a while A heavy ice-cold object is placed on uess that it's an ice-pad My ar is very familiar to me, yet another injection I only feel that I've beco on the bed, unable toother people put on clothes for me

”ShengSheng” I hear YuJiang cautiously call my name He caresses my face, and moves his face closer to mine and rubs his face on mine a few times He turns towards the person next to him and says:

”It's still burning hot” The person beside him says:

”Mr Rong, we must send him to the hospital If we delay, I' family private doctor Have I fallen sick? No, I can still hear the, I can still think It's just that there is a strange sound in my brain, I'm very tired I''s voice carried an unexpected tinge of fear, I can al:

”Hospital? How did it get so critical?” It is as if he is defending hiood care of his each and every need, how is it possible that he became so sick?” The doctor explains aardly:

”Mr Rong, he” YuJiang cuts short his words, and asks impatiently:

”You said that it ht be too late if we delay, what does thatwill die?” My hand is suddenly gripped tightly by so further and further away, floating higher and higher It gradually disappears

When I'm finally able to open ht whiteness A place with such a vast expanse of white, except for a hospital roohtly and i by the bed

”ShengSheng, you're awake?” YuJiang's voice could be described as overjoyed and surprised He holds my hand firmly, afraid that one I struggle to move my lips:

”I'm sick?” He nods his head nervously and looks at uidly let my eyelids fall Why didn't I just fall ill and never wake up, heaven and earth forever cut off from now on? I'm just so tired, towards this person in front of me I can't even send out a little shred of hatred, I can only feel an agitated nu slowly lists them:

”Aneh fever, weak health, anxiety, short of breath due to a psychological attack” I smile How co family doctor trained in western medicine? Don't tell me he is trained in both chinese and westernlooks fixedly atover? Look at you, having so many worries, I'm afraid that you would ruin your health” My memory suddenly floats far away When was it that he had said this toover? That hen I was trying to help hi froht not at ease I say:

”YuJiang, my worries, are caused by myself You don't need to concern yourself” He looks at h I say: ”YuJiang, do you knohat I'm most afraid of?” He turns back his head in surprise, and waits for me to reveal the answer ”I'm afraid of your every word, your every action, your every expression” I tell him truthfully and earnestly: ”I can't tell when you are sincere, when you are fake”

”ShengSheng, I” I coldly say:

”Therefore, I can only treat all of it as fake YuJiang, this is called better to condeently take my hand away from his and sentle look in front of hs There is no need for all this” He looks atout his hand to pull rabs my shoulder firmly, his ice-cold eyes clashes with mine, and my whole body stiffens in a split second He quickly stands up, and as if he just encountered solance atspeed Just like running away Is this also an act? I ask myself It is, it definitely is I answer myself It's in his nature to deceive people

So row old, to never suffer illness, to not end up dying in a hospital bed after losing all hope I only wish that heaven would take et better and better day by day YuJiang did not coonized expression, I only wish that I would never see hi that he would throw et about me completely

Not seeing hiet restless Of course it's not because I miss him, butcan it be that he is where I can't see, plotting a way to destroy me completely Me, who is always filled with suspicion After co that I can no longer bear it While I was having endless suspicions, getting ht, I suddenly hear a knock at the door Who can it be? If it is YuJiang, he never did knock, coiven our ”closeness” If it is souard, who could be so daring and i: