Part 84 (1/2)
”I have never been so much shocked in my life;--never. I had no idea that you had any thought of aspiring to the hand of Miss Effingham.”
The lord's voice as he said this was very stern.
”As I aspired in vain, and as Chiltern has been successful, that need not now be made a reproach against me.”
”I do not know what to think of it, Mr. Finn. I am so much surprised that I hardly know what to say. I must declare my opinion at once, that you behaved,--very badly.”
”I do not know how much you know, my lord, and how much you do not know; and the circ.u.mstances of the little affair do not permit me to be explicit about them; but, as you have expressed your opinion so openly you must allow me to express mine, and to say that, as far as I can judge of my own actions, I did not behave badly at all.”
”Do you intend to defend duelling, sir?”
”No. If you mean to tell me that a duel is of itself sinful, I have nothing to say. I suppose it is. My defence of myself merely goes to the manner in which this duel was fought, and the fact that I fought it with your son.”
”I cannot conceive how you can have come to my house as my guest, and stood upon my interest for my borough, when you at the time were doing your very best to interpose yourself between Chiltern and the lady whom you so well knew I wished to become his wife.” Phineas was aware that the Earl must have been very much moved indeed when he thus permitted himself to speak of ”his” borough. He said nothing now, however, though the Earl paused;--and then the angry lord went on. ”I must say that there was something,--something almost approaching to duplicity in such conduct.”
”If I were to defend myself by evidence, Lord Brentford, I should have to go back to exact dates,--and dates not of facts which I could verify, but dates as to my feelings which could not be verified,--and that would be useless. I can only say that I believe I know what the honour and truth of a gentleman demand,--even to the verge of self-sacrifice, and that I have done nothing that ought to place my character as a gentleman in jeopardy. If you will ask your son, I think he will tell you the same.”
”I have asked him. It was he who told me of the duel.”
”When did he tell you, my lord?”
”Just now; this morning.” Thus Phineas learned that Lord Chiltern was at this moment in the house,--or at least in London.
”And did he complain of my conduct?”
”I complain of it, sir. I complain of it very bitterly. I placed the greatest confidence in you, especially in regard to my son's affairs, and you deceived me.” The Earl was very angry, and was more angry from the fact that this young man who had offended him, to whom he had given such vital a.s.sistance when a.s.sistance was needed, had used that a.s.sistance to its utmost before his sin was found out. Had Phineas still been sitting for Loughton, so that the Earl could have said to him, ”You are now bound to retreat from this borough because you have offended me, your patron,” I think that he would have forgiven the offender and allowed him to remain in his seat. There would have been a scene, and the Earl would have been pacified. But now the offender was beyond his reach altogether, having used the borough as a most convenient stepping-stone over his difficulties, and having so used it just at the time when he was committing this sin. There was a good fortune about Phineas which added greatly to the lord's wrath. And then, to tell the truth, he had not that rich consolation for which Phineas gave him credit. Lord Chiltern had told him that morning that the engagement between him and Violet was at an end. ”You have so preached to her, my lord, about my duties,” the son had said to his father, ”that she finds herself obliged to give me your sermons at second hand, till I can bear them no longer.” But of this Phineas knew nothing as yet. The Earl, however, was so imprudent in his anger that before this interview was over he had told the whole story. ”Yes;--you deceived me,” he continued; ”and I can never trust you again.”
”Was it for me, my lord, to tell you of that which would have increased your anger against your own son? When he wanted me to fight was I to come, like a sneak at school, and tell you the story? I know what you would have thought of me had I done so. And when it was over was I to come and tell you then? Think what you yourself would have done when you were young, and you may be quite sure that I did the same. What have I gained? He has got all that he wanted; and you have also got all that you wanted;--and I have helped you both. Lord Brentford, I can put my hand on my heart and say that I have been honest to you.”
”I have got nothing that I wanted,” said the Earl in his despair.
”Lord Chiltern and Miss Effingham will be man and wife.”
”No;--they will not. He has quarrelled with her. He is so obstinate that she will not bear with him.”
Then it was all true, even though the rumours had reached him through Laurence Fitzgibbon and Madame Max Goesler. ”At any rate, my lord, that has not been my fault,” he said, after a moment's hesitation.
The Earl was walking up and down the room, angry with himself at his own mistake in having told the story, and not knowing what further to say to his visitor. He had been in the habit of talking so freely to Phineas about his son that he could hardly resist the temptation of doing so still; and yet it was impossible that he could swallow his anger and continue in the same strain. ”My lord,” said Phineas, after a while, ”I can a.s.sure you that I grieve that you should be grieved.
I have received so much undeserved favour from your family, that I owe you a debt which I can never pay. I am sorry that you should be angry with me now; but I hope that a time may come when you will think less severely of my conduct.”
He was about to leave the room when the Earl stopped him. ”Will you give me your word,” said the Earl, ”that you will think no more of Miss Effingham?” Phineas stood silent, considering how he might answer this proposal, resolving that nothing should bring him to such a pledge as that suggested while there was yet a ledge for hope to stand on. ”Say that, Mr. Finn, and I will forgive everything.”
”I cannot acknowledge that I have done anything to be forgiven.”
”Say that,” repeated the Earl, ”and everything shall be forgotten.”
”There need be no cause for alarm, my lord,” said Phineas. ”You may be sure that Miss Effingham will not think of me.”
”Will you give me your word?”
”No, my lord;--certainly not. You have no right to ask it, and the pursuit is open to me as to any other man who may choose to follow it. I have hardly a vestige of a hope of success. It is barely possible that I should succeed. But if it be true that Miss Effingham be disengaged, I shall endeavour to find an opportunity of urging my suit. I would give up everything that I have, my seat in Parliament, all the ambition of my life, for the barest chance of success. When she had accepted your son, I desisted,--of course. I have now heard, from more sources than one, that she or he or both of them have changed their minds. If this be so, I am free to try again.” The Earl stood opposite to him, scowling at him, but said nothing. ”Good morning, my lord.”
”Good morning, sir.”