Chapter 517 - She Wanted To See A Persons Heart (1/2)

All along, she never had a person she could speak her heart out to… empty was her wealth. What was the point of having it? Whereas Song Wan, didn't she say she adopted a child? What was she doing coming all the way here for tea instead of taking care of her granddaughter?

Song Wan laughed. ”Yijun, up till now, you're still not going to tell me?”

Shen Yijun smiled, a few wrinkles forming beside her eyes.

”Tell you what?” She picked up her cup and took a sip of the fruity tea. That sour-sweet taste. Yet, she could only taste the sourness in the tea. Sweetness? Not at all. Could it be because the fruit tea she bought this time was too sour, thus overwhelming the sweetness of the tea?

”Yijun, you knew that I had a granddaughter, right?” Song Wan suddenly clasped Shen Yijun's hand. Shen Yijun's hands unknowingly paused for a moment before she put her cup back down as if nothing happened.

She laughed, distancing herself from Song Wan.

”Isn't your granddaughter at home?”

”You know that's not what I'm referring to, Yijun.” Song Wan suddenly covered her face and started sobbing. She hadn't cried so freely in a very long time. Their status, their family, wouldn't allow such a thing to happen.

They prioritized profits and interests. Similarly, they placed great emphasis on their status. This kind of unrestrained display of emotion… this kind of wailing was not allowed.

Shen Yijun suddenly started to have questions. At that time before she married into the Xia household, it was just her and Xinxin against the world. When things were tough, she could cry; and when things were sweet, she could laugh. She could let her tears flow without any restraint, but after coming here, even her tears weren't hers anymore.

She had to live every day with caution. Giving up the last half of her life and her daughter's entire life like this in exchange for their situation now, was it worth it? For the past twenty years, she lived in constant fear. Her days were like walking on thin ice; was it really worth it?

She picked up her cup again, drinking mouth after mouth of fruit tea. Just then, Song Wan had finally cried enough. She hastily wiped off her tears.

”Sorry, I just couldn't control it. That's why I lost myself for a moment.” She choked with emotion. ”You don't understand that I only have Ah Lui as my only son. Although I know that he's not good and that he has done a lot of wrong—when you consider the reasons, is it really his fault?”

Even if it's not his fault, it's still wrong. Shen Yijun said in her heart. She fixed her gaze on her cup. It didn't matter who's wrong and who's right now that things had already ended up like this.

”Yijun, Ruoxin gave birth to a child; did you know about it?” Song Wan suddenly held Shen Yijun's hand tightly. ”The child's a girl. She's my granddaughter, but I've never even met her before. What should I do, Yijun? Ruoxin… she doesn't want to let me meet my granddaughter. She even hid the child. Tell me, what should I do? What should I do…?” She covered her face again and started to cry. It was just that this scene, in Shen Yijun's eyes, looked all too familiar. So familiar that she felt a little afraid. It seemed like not too long ago, she was just like her close friend Song Wan—selfish and blaming others.

She reached out her arm to pat Song Wan's shoulders.

”I'm just like you. We both don't have any right to meet her. Before the child was born, the Chu family didn't want her; and I didn't want her, too. When the child was sick, the Chu family didn't save her; and neither did I. That's why we both don't have any right to call her our granddaughter. Similarly, we should be too ashamed to even meet her.”

Song Wan's hands fell. Then, she weakly lowered her head, feeling a little bitter.

Regarding certain things, Song Wan didn't know them. That's why she could still have some heart, still have some hope. Once the other things were ripped out of the past, then she had no face—no excuse—to have the child call her Granny. That bloody word 'granny'… would she dare to accept it?

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