Part 20 (1/2)
Tears threatened, but she willed them away. She would not leave him with the image of a weak, weeping woman. ”No, but I have a need to tell you that I will wait. And I would be proud to be your wife when you come back to me.”
For a moment he said nothing, only stared, as if trying to read her face and be certain he had not misheard her. She stood, her hands folded. But she wasn't meek. Her eyes held fire, her chin was up. Now he crossed to her to take one of her hands in his.
”Has your father commanded you?”
”No, the decision is mine, only mine.”
It was the answer he wanted, the one he had hoped for. Gently he brushed his lips over her knuckles. ”I will make you happy, Rena. On my honor.”
”I will be the wife you need.” Somehow, she thought within her heart. ”I swear it.”
He bent to kiss her brow. ”You are the wife I need, my love. And the woman.” Stepping back, he drew the emerald from his finger. ”This ring has been worn by a Langston for more than a hundred years. I ask you to keep it for me until I return and give you another.” He slipped it onto her finger. Serena curled her hand automatically to keep it there. ”I shall give you another ring as soon as G.o.d allows, and my name, as well.”
”Oh, Brigham, be safe.” She threw herself into his arms. It was harder, much harder, to fight these tears than any others she had known. ”If I lost you now, I couldn't bear to live. Know that if you bleed, I bleed, and take care.”
”What's this?” With a light laugh he caressed her hair, but it was difficult to ignore the press of her thinly clad body against his. ”Never say you worry about me, Rena.”
”I will say it,” she murmured against his shoulder. ”If you allow yourself to be killed, I shall hate you forever.”
”Then I will take great care to stay alive. Go now, before you make me feel too much alive.”
She gave a weak laugh. ”I fear I have done that already, my lord.” She s.h.i.+fted wantonly to prove there were no secrets between them. She had only to rise to her toes to fit herself unerringly against him. Desire to desire. ”Does being near me do that to you?”
”All too often.” His own laugh was strained as he fought off the drugging power of her scent, of her shape.
”I'm glad.” She lifted her head to look up at him, and her smile was wicked. ”Very glad.”
She made him laugh again. ”You've flowered in front of my eyes, Rena.
Under my hands.” He kissed her, gently, though her lips tempted him. ”I wonder if there is a more precious gift a woman can give a man.”
”I would give you another tonight.” She drew his head down to hers. Her kiss was not so gentle. With it, she felt his body tense. ”I would share your bed, Brig, your love and your sleep. No,” she murmured against his lips before he could speak. ”Don't tell me why it should not be, only show me why it must.” She dragged her hands up his back to tangle her fingers in his hair while her lips moved restlessly on his. ”Love me, Brigham. Love me so that I can live on it in all the empty days to come.”
He couldn't deny her. He could no longer deny himself. Her body trembled against his, no longer from fear, no longer from doubt, but only from need. With a m.u.f.fled oath, he swept her into his arms. He would be leaving at dawn. Between then and now he could give her, give them, a few perfect hours.
Her body was fluid in his arms, cool, soft, languid. Her eyes were as rich, as hot, as the flash of emerald that had pa.s.sed from his finger to hers. She kept her arms around his neck as he lowered her to the bed, so that he came down with her. Then, with his hands braced on either side of her head, he began to make love to her face with his mouth alone.
She thought she could float away on this kind of sweetness. It was like a cloud, delicate and dreamy. Her body felt light and free as her lips met his again and again in a slow, luxurious dance. Another minuet, she thought. Elegant, harmonious and beautiful. With a sigh she felt him slip the nightdress from her, then heard his quick intake of breath as he discovered for himself that she wore nothing beneath it.
”You are so lovely.” He touched his lips to the pulse of her throat.
”Here,” he murmured as his fingertips brushed her b.r.e.a.s.t.s. ”Here.” And again, as his light, clever hands moved over her: ”Here.”
Giddiness speared through the languor. Giddiness and delight. ”Is that why you fell in love with me, Sa.s.senach? For my body?”
He drew himself up far enough for a long, lazy study. ”It was a great influence.” Flushed, she laughed and pinched him. Then her laughter turned into a moan as he dipped his head and streaked his tongue over a hardening nipple.
”I love all of you, Serena. Your temper, your mind, your heart, and oh, yes...” His teeth closed teasingly over the peak. ”Your body.”
”Show me,” she demanded breathlessly.
He showed her, with tenderness, with ardor, with restraint and with desperation. Every emotion they had shared became part of that endless night of loving. There were new ways. He guided her, delighted by the eagerness with which she learned, the pa.s.sion with which she gave and received. There was no shyness in her. She came to him with a trust so complete that that alone nearly dragged him over the edge.
Skin grew slick in the airless night. Not a breeze stirred through the window. High above the bills, thunder rumbled. Closer, in the forest, the owl hunted. Its scream of triumph melded with the scream of its prey.
The candle flickered and guttered out.
They were aware of nothing but each other, nothing but the world they made on the soft mattress.
She made him weak, and then she made him strong. She made him laugh, and then she made him groan. He was breathless, sated, then as eager to devour her as a man starving.
In the deepest part of the night they slept briefly, only to wake with the need spiraling high once more.
There was no part of her he couldn't make ache or tremble. She could only hear her skin sing as he touched. Her body grew heavy with pleasure as it built and built to roll through her like the thunder in the distant bills. Then she was light, weightless, agilely skimming over him like a fantasy. Energy poured through her, molten. She rose over him, her hair silvered with dying moon-tight, her skin sheened with damp, her face pate with an exhaustion she had yet to feel.
She took him into her, arching her back as pleasure raced through her like delirium. The fever of it boiled under her skin until her hips moved like lightning. His name sobbed through her lips as she drove them both higher. Lost, she dragged her hands up her body, over her trembling stomach, up to her b.r.e.a.s.t.s, then down again until they met his.
At last she slid bonelessly down, her breath shuddering out, to lie in his arms.
”I wonder,” she said when she could speak again, ”if it is always like this. It makes me see how one might kill for love.”
”For love.” He s.h.i.+fted so that he could hold her yet closer. ”It is not always like this. For me, it has only been like this with you.”
She turned her head so that she could see his face. The light was nearly gone in that hour before day begins to break through. ”Truly?”
He brought their joined hands to his lips. ”Truly.” She smiled a little, pleased. ”If you take a mistress after we wed, I will kill her. Then you.
But I will kill you more horribly.”
He laughed, then took a quick bite at her lower lip. ”Well I believe it.
Even if I were tempted, you leave me too exhausted for a mistress.”
”If I believed you were too tempted, I would leave you inadequate for a mistress.” She slid a hand up his thigh meaningfully.
He started to laugh again, but her bland expression had him lifting a brow. ”By G.o.d, I think you would. Should I remind you that your pleasure would be, ah, cut off, as well?”
”The sacrifice would be great.” She trailed her fingers over him, delighted when he shuddered. ”The satisfaction is greater.” ”Perhaps I should think twice about taking a jealous h.e.l.lcat to wife.”
The humor fled from her eyes. ”You should. But I have come to know you will not”
”No. There is only one woman for me.” He kissed her again before s.h.i.+fting her comfortably into the crook of his arm. ”One day I will take you to Ashburn Manor and show you what is mine, what is ours, what shall be our children's. It's beautiful, Rena, graceful, timeless. Already I can picture you in the bed where I was born.”
She started to protest, but her fingers grazed over the pucker of skin on his shoulder where his wound was still healing. ”Then our first child will be born there.” She turned her face into his throat ”Oh, Brigham, I want your child inside me soon.”