Part 74 (1/2)

”I know. I begin, I think, to understand all about it. The girl he means to marry is this English girl, the daughter of Mrs. Russell. Captain Lopez loved her, as we were told. He has followed her here, and effected her deliverance from her Carlist captors, and now, as a matter of course, she feels grateful to him and is willing to marry him. But how can I do anything? I cannot. It is horrible sacrilege. It is frightful sin. No; I will tell him the whole truth.”

Brooke looked at her with a face of anguish.

”Oh, Talbot,” said he, ”if you do, what will become of you?”

”What?” said Talbot, in a firm voice.

”He will kill you--and worse than that,” said Brooke.

”Why should he kill me?” said Talbot. ”It will do him no good. What cause will he have to kill me?”

”I have thought it all over,” said Brooke, ”all over, a thousand times. I have speculated as to the possible result of a frank disclosure, and I've come to the conclusion that it is better to run every risk in this disguise, and go even to the verge of death, rather than divulge your secret now.”

”Divulge my secret!” said Talbot, in surprise. ”And why not? What is there to divulge? I have only to say that I am not a priest--I am an English lady, who have a.s.sumed this disguise as a safeguard.”

Brooke sighed.

”It's too late, too late! Oh, fool that I was--cursed, cursed fool! But I was afraid to trust those Republicans; I feared that they might harm you if they knew you to be a woman. It was for your sake that I kept your secret, and now it has turned out to be the very worst thing that I could have done.”

”I deny that it was the worst,” said Talbot, calmly. ”Thus far it has protected me most effectively. As for the future, we have yet to choose our plans.”

”Too late!” said Brooke.

”I do not think so,” said Talbot. ”You do not give any reasons. At any rate, I will try--”

”Do not! do not!” said Brooke, earnestly. ”It is too late. I will tell you. You see, this deception has gone on so long, and his trust in you is so profound, that the shock would be more than he could bear. As a priest you have won his confidence, even his reverence. If you now tell him that it was all a cheat, his wrath would burst forth beyond all bounds. He would consider it an outrage on his holiest and most generous feelings.

He would believe that you had wantonly trifled with all that is most sacred and most sensitive in the heart. Then there is more than this. For some reason he is bent on marrying this girl. If you refuse now, and tell him the truth, it will only intensify his resentment against you, and turn it into a vengeful fury. There is no pain that he will not inflict.

There will be nothing too horrible for his revenge. He will say that you deceived and cheated him unnecessarily and persistently; that even if there was a necessity for it in the first place, you might at least have confided in him after he had shown himself so merciful to me. He will say that you must have found him out to be a chivalrous gentleman, in whose protection you would have been safe, and this maintenance of your disguise all this time and up to the last moment was a mockery and a sham. And therefore,” concluded Brooke, ”every other resource ought first to be tried, and this should not be made use of till all others have failed. It will be useless at any time, but if it is made use of at all, it ought to be last of all.”

”Well, I don't know,” said Talbot, doubtfully. ”I will do as you say, Brooke; but to go on in this way, and keep up this disguise till the last, seems to me to involve certain destruction. I suppose he cannot be persuaded to postpone the marriage.”

Brooke shook his head despondingly.

”No,” said he, ”that is impossible. There is some strong reason for this haste. He has, perhaps, extorted some promise from the girl. Perhaps she does not love him. Perhaps he is afraid if he gives her time that she will back out of it, and is determined to marry her while he has the chance.”

”If that is the case,” said Talbot, ”it only makes it worse for me. If she does not love him, and all this is as you say, there is another and a stronger reason for my refusal to have anything to do with such sacrilege and sin.”

”Oh, Talbot!” said Brooke. He turned his face toward her. It was a face of agony; there was despair in his look. ”Oh, Talbot! I could bear this trial, any trial, for myself; but for you--for you, Talbot,” he continued, in thrilling tones, ”for you I cannot bear it. Think! Can you not do something?”

Talbot trembled. Her eyes filled with tears. For a time she stood thus with quivering lips and trembling hands, struggling with her emotion, and without much success. When she was able at last to speak it was in tremulous, broken tones.

”Oh, Brooke!” she said, ”for your sake I would do anything, anything; but I cannot, even for your sake, do wrong to others. For you--if it were myself alone that were concerned--I might be tempted to do an act of sacrilege--or sin. Ask me to suffer for you, Brooke, and I will suffer: oh, how gladly! Yes, Brooke,” she continued, in a voice that sent a thrill through all his being--”yes, Brooke, ask me to die for you, or let the chance arise in which I may die to save you, and I will die. But do not look at me so, Brooke! do not look at me so! Your face is full of despair; your look is the look of one whose heart is breaking; and this, Brooke, this seems worse than death! Be yourself, Brooke! rouse yourself!

Cannot you take refuge in some other thoughts? The very worst of your songs might rouse you now. Sing, Brooke--sing anything. Talk nonsense, and save your heart and mine from breaking!”

Brooke turned away, and walked up and down for a few minutes, while he struggled to regain his composure. The struggle was a severe one, but he succeeded in a.s.suming an outward calm. He at length returned, and, placing himself before Talbot, gave that short laugh of his, and said, with some of his old rattle,